Continuing the journey

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K experiences…

 

Hi everyone,

 

I haven't written for a while, yet have been following the posts. Here are some

of my recent experiences. What wrote about having `Sacred Gender

Appreciation' rings true for me, as I have had a tendency to objectify women.

For a while, I have been keeping my `male seed' inside, and bringing continued

awareness to the energy, trying to move it, ask it what it wants, and so on. I

had a dream about two weeks ago.

 

Dream. I am with a beautiful woman. She looks at me and shows me how my upper

body, from the stomach/belly up is golden and glowing, and then she shows me

that my dan tien (second chakra) still has some blockage.

 

Within a day or so, some shadow issues and blocks came into awareness, and

there was noticeable energetic movement in the front area of the chakra over a

couple of days. Since then, I have been able to hold the s#$xual energy without

desire for release, and a noticeable subtle tension that I had towards women has

been let go of. That has improved my relationship with my girlfriend and other

female friends. I haven't been participating in the shaktipat, yet as has

happened ever since I was on this group, the K. seems to intensify at Shaktipat

time and I get a significant upgrade or transformation. My body also seems to be

able to stably hold the s@#xual energy now without a need for dissipation. I

have also been experiencing burning suns frequently in dream states, and I seem

to be able to hold the intensity of that experience without it messing me up the

day after any more.

 

I seem to be increasingly realizing that this human experience is radically

impersonal, and my nature is shared with all that I experience and all is part

of a living process. Two nights ago I awoke around 4 or 4 in the morning, and

had a strange experience. It was kind of equal in intensity to a spinal sweep,

yet it wasn't going from tailbone to the top of my head. The focal point was

about two thirds up my back, just to the right of the spine (if looking from the

back). The point would intensify in sensation, then energy would shoot from all

over my back and maybe my whole body (I was in a deeply relaxed, almost dream

state) to that point, quite severely. This happened maybe four times. I had

other dreams that night of surfing very straight tubular waves.

 

Last night, I was exhausted and slept around 11 hours. I had two interesting

dreams.

 

Dream 1. I am in a wonderful resort town. The sun is shining and everyone is

enjoying the place. President Obama is there and so is the rest of the

community. Then, we hear an attack is coming. The President has ordered the

defense missiles to be fired. I run, as I want to leave before everything is

obliterated.

 

Dream 2. I am in a house with a large garden, maybe a farm. There is a very

poisonous spider, maybe the most poisonous kind. A much larger spider, bigger

than man, appears. It's a female and has eggs and female organs on its back, and

its immune to the poison of the other spiders. A man (my friend) runs away and

out the walled perimeter, and then comes back into the garden, a little afraid

yet searching for the giant female spider.

 

 

I felt better today. What was interesting was a large crow flying really close

to me, unusual in this city. So, that's where I am.. and having a lot of fun

each day in the process. I hope everyone is well and making progress. I will be

moving back to South Africa in a month or two, so any prayers for guidance at

this time will be welcomed…

 

Love

Bruce