The journey continues

April 9, 2009

Hi Everyone,

well, its been another interesting week. The energy started rising strongly on

Sunday, after I was with another soul who seems to be kundalini awakened (or at

least in the beginning stages). The week or two leading up to Sunday, I have

been having distinct feelngs of this body not being me, of it being temporary,

and of feeling the background awareness, or ground of being.

I have been dreaming prolifically again and sleeping a lot. Here is one of my

dreams from Sunday night

I am with Steven and Tracey's (my sister and brother in law) children, Kelly and

Justin. Justin is younger than Kelly and has to be woken up in the night because

he has breathing problems and may choke to death. They (Justin and Kelly) run

away and are trying to get on a boat that crosses the Cambodian Laos border.

They have nothing and are little kids (6 and 8 years old) yet seemed not to

worry about how they will survive. Steven wakes up and finds the kids are gone

from their beds and rushes off. He makes it to the border control and tries to

push through a crowd onto the ship, and ends up fighting about 30 men who jump

on top of him. He is a father desperate to save his kids. On the boat, Justin is

naked and looks like a little girl. The river is wild, and today the boats will

not cross as the water is a giant rapid and too dangerous, so the kids get off

and join Steven. Other small boats are trying to cross the rapids and are in

serious trouble. It appears as though a gigantic construction project has been

begun across the river but not completed duo to lack of funds.. it must have

cost billions. One section of the bridge is operational and some trucks and cars

are going across. Steven is with the kids, and Justin is now a large spider and

Steven is trying to catch him. Justin then becomes a bright colored ant and

bites Steven, and Steven is desperately trying to rescue the insect and hold

onto it. end of dream.

The rest of the week I have had a distinct sense of not being seperate. Its a

little difficult to explain this and its more of an intuition or a knowing,

rather than a something, yet i have a distinct sense of reality being a unified

field of conscious awareness, and this body is a temporary perspective on this

field which will fade, yet the I that underlies and gives rise to reality is

beyond time and space, and everything is this conscious I. All things that are

arising in my awareness are this same I dreaming itself. IN my dreams states too

I have this startling realization that is not fading, of the aspects of the

dream being unified by the dreamer. My body is struggling to hold this awareness

and there is tension in my neck and shoulders and I have a headache. Anyway,

this is very difficult to talk about.

There have been dreams about changing clothes this week. Last night in the dream

states finally got to wear the coolest, most colorful clothes I have ever had. I

think I may have a career as a k. inspired clothes designer ahead of me...

its also full moon...

love

Bruce

April 9, 2009

You know the first thought in my mind reading this is: What are you holding on to? What ever it is let it go. It wants you to let it go. Usually the changing of clothes in a dream is a signifier of changing you. A more colorful you wants to immerge. Does your family know about your currant lifestyle change? Because it seems that Steven would be disappointed in you if he knew but he loves you enough. I think the whole thing with Justin is actually you and Steven fighting. Steven doesn't want you to change or is unaware of it and you fear he will want you to stay as you are and not change. Change is good.

So is the idea of a clothing line.

bruce_oom <bruce_oom Sent: Thursday, April 9, 2009 11:00:01 AM The journey continues

Hi Everyone,well, its been another interesting week. The energy started rising strongly on Sunday, after I was with another soul who seems to be kundalini awakened (or at least in the beginning stages). The week or two leading up to Sunday, I have been having distinct feelngs of this body not being me, of it being temporary, and of feeling the background awareness, or ground of being.I have been dreaming prolifically again and sleeping a lot. Here is one of my dreams from Sunday nightI am with Steven and Tracey's (my sister and brother in law) children, Kelly and Justin. Justin is younger than Kelly and has to be woken up in the night because he has breathing problems and may choke to death. They (Justin and Kelly) run away and are trying to get on a boat that crosses the Cambodian Laos border. They have nothing and are little kids (6 and 8 years old) yet seemed not to worry about how they will survive. Steven wakes up and

finds the kids are gone from their beds and rushes off. He makes it to the border control and tries to push through a crowd onto the ship, and ends up fighting about 30 men who jump on top of him. He is a father desperate to save his kids. On the boat, Justin is naked and looks like a little girl. The river is wild, and today the boats will not cross as the water is a giant rapid and too dangerous, so the kids get off and join Steven. Other small boats are trying to cross the rapids and are in serious trouble. It appears as though a gigantic construction project has been begun across the river but not completed duo to lack of funds.. it must have cost billions. One section of the bridge is operational and some trucks and cars are going across. Steven is with the kids, and Justin is now a large spider and Steven is trying to catch him. Justin then becomes a bright colored ant and bites Steven, and Steven is desperately trying to rescue the insect and

hold onto it. end of dream.The rest of the week I have had a distinct sense of not being seperate. Its a little difficult to explain this and its more of an intuition or a knowing, rather than a something, yet i have a distinct sense of reality being a unified field of conscious awareness, and this body is a temporary perspective on this field which will fade, yet the I that underlies and gives rise to reality is beyond time and space, and everything is this conscious I. All things that are arising in my awareness are this same I dreaming itself. IN my dreams states too I have this startling realization that is not fading, of the aspects of the dream being unified by the dreamer. My body is struggling to hold this awareness and there is tension in my neck and shoulders and I have a headache. Anyway, this is very difficult to talk about.There have been dreams about changing clothes this week. Last night in the dream states finally got to

wear the coolest, most colorful clothes I have ever had. I think I may have a career as a k. inspired clothes designer ahead of me...its also full moon...loveBruce