Guest guest Posted April 18, 2009 Report Share Posted April 18, 2009 Yesterday I had a K surge during a journey. As my astral body climbed a rope well into the sky, my physical got the full-fledged ajna mudra pull (it hadn't happened in a while). I had to make an effort not to scream from the amount of energy that ran through me. I thought this would energize me--it usually does. Instead, it put me totally out of business for the whole evening. I don't know if the K is to blame--I have an iron deficiency, insomnia is taking a toll, and the pressure at work and at home is high. However, the energy that used to keep me going nowadays seems to wear me out. I wonder if my K isn't running way ahead of my physical body. Or perhaps it's the other way around: my physical body is worn out and it is no longer able to handle a pace that used to be fine only a couple of years ago. It could even be that physical fatigue is conducive to channeling more light (hence the emphasis on fasting and asceticism in some spiritual practices), but this is not a pleasant dynamic. Sel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2009 Report Share Posted April 18, 2009 You know I am a massage therapist and my first response to this was, o'boy you sure do need a massage. selena255 <selena Sent: Saturday, April 18, 2009 11:00:07 AM Too much for the body to handle? Yesterday I had a K surge during a journey. As my astral body climbed a rope well into the sky, my physical got the full-fledged ajna mudra pull (it hadn't happened in a while). I had to make an effort not to scream from the amount of energy that ran through me.I thought this would energize me--it usually does. Instead, it put me totally out of business for the whole evening. I don't know if the K is to blame--I have an iron deficiency, insomnia is taking a toll, and the pressure at work and at home is high. However, the energy that used to keep me going nowadays seems to wear me out.I wonder if my K isn't running way ahead of my physical body. Or perhaps it's the other way around: my physical body is worn out and it is no longer able to handle a pace that used to be fine only a couple of years ago. It could even be that physical fatigue is conducive to channeling more light (hence the emphasis on fasting and asceticism in some spiritual practices), but this is not a pleasant dynamic.Sel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2009 Report Share Posted April 18, 2009 Hi Selena, when I went to the park a couple days ago to find my perfect spot for task 1, I was out there for a couple of hours and enjoyed every minute. I did find a spot out there that I had never been before. But when I came home, I was very fatigued and slept for two hours, but my K energy was high and has stayed high these couple of days. This morning I had to take James to the truck stop at 3:30 am so I just stayed up until then, my K was so strong I could not think straight. I probably should not have been driving. I really had to work hard at forcing my mind to stay focused on driving home. I kept having the switching off sensation in my head. I am begining to wonder if that sensation is my astral body trying to disconnect from the physical. I came home and slept hard for 7 hours, but I still feel tired and feel like I could go back to bed and sleep that long all over again. I think sometimes the energy does make you feel fatigued. Linda , " selena255 " <selena wrote: > > Yesterday I had a K surge during a journey. As my astral body climbed a rope well into the sky, my physical got the full-fledged ajna mudra pull (it hadn't happened in a while). I had to make an effort not to scream from the amount of energy that ran through me. > > I thought this would energize me--it usually does. Instead, it put me totally out of business for the whole evening. > > I don't know if the K is to blame--I have an iron deficiency, insomnia is taking a toll, and the pressure at work and at home is high. However, the energy that used to keep me going nowadays seems to wear me out. > > I wonder if my K isn't running way ahead of my physical body. Or perhaps it's the other way around: my physical body is worn out and it is no longer able to handle a pace that used to be fine only a couple of years ago. It could even be that physical fatigue is conducive to channeling more light (hence the emphasis on fasting and asceticism in some spiritual practices), but this is not a pleasant dynamic. > > Sel > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 19, 2009 Report Share Posted April 19, 2009 dear Selena Namaste dear Sister. . . may you find comfort and rest. . . i think there are places when the energy can feel too much. . .and i have found Ma is going to go and do pretty much as She likes. . .i have not been successful at controlling or containing Her . . .but those times when She seems too much have proven to be the most healing with time. . .for a number of years " i " suffered. . .but three years ago all suffering came to an end. . . no longer suffering at any level.. . ..truly that has been among the blessings and graces of Ma. . . She taught me to let go of the suffering by moving me into places that brought pain, resistance, and ego protest. . .There are times when i experience pain, and have learned to not discount the pain, nor do spiritual bypass but i do not attach to the pain or allow the mind to create stories of what it means. . .Maybe a good question would be to move to the witnessing function when you are experiencing " too much " . . ..and listen to the self talk. . . and the scripts and story lines. . . in my own journey have come to the place of acceptance with a deep knowing kundalini awakening and process is most challenging and demanding at every level. . . but i think that is the nature of the spiritual journey. . .the journey takes us to the cross and the cross takes us to God. . .or with the symbols of kundalini and tantra we have Kali Ma dancing on Shiva as corpse. . .and much like the crucifixion of Christ. . .Shiva is worn out by Ma. . .i have found the paradox to be amusing at times that Kundalini teaches us we are not the body. . .with such physiciality. . . . Selena just my 2cents worth. . .i have read your comments and know you have depth and wisdom. . .and know the energy can take us to those places where we just want to be able to breath our own breath as before the awakening. . . around every bend is a new landscape and i hope there will be peace, comfort and love for you this day. . . love and light ordinary sparrow , " selena255 " <selena wrote: > > Yesterday I had a K surge during a journey. As my astral body climbed a rope well into the sky, my physical got the full-fledged ajna mudra pull (it hadn't happened in a while). I had to make an effort not to scream from the amount of energy that ran through me. > > I thought this would energize me--it usually does. Instead, it put me totally out of business for the whole evening. > > I don't know if the K is to blame--I have an iron deficiency, insomnia is taking a toll, and the pressure at work and at home is high. However, the energy that used to keep me going nowadays seems to wear me out. > > I wonder if my K isn't running way ahead of my physical body. Or perhaps it's the other way around: my physical body is worn out and it is no longer able to handle a pace that used to be fine only a couple of years ago. It could even be that physical fatigue is conducive to channeling more light (hence the emphasis on fasting and asceticism in some spiritual practices), but this is not a pleasant dynamic. > > Sel > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 19, 2009 Report Share Posted April 19, 2009 Hi Selena, I can relate a lot to what you are saying. K. for me has continually pushed me to higher and higher thresholds of what I am capable of holding, and each push is often my body gets too much energy, it cant dissipate it, and I may get tired and exhausted, especially if I resist the process. The tricky thing is that if I couldnt see the unconsious blockages, then those would have to painfully come into awareness until healing occurred. I would find massage useful, yet only gave temporary relief. Bodywork combined with self inquiry and a willingess to be with whatever arose was necessary, and sometimes I went through weeks leading up to exhuastion until my system reorganized itself. I feel OrdinarySparrow gives excellent suggestions. I am grateful that K. ran ahead of what I could handle, as it has taken me to greater and greater levels of freedom and happiness. Hang in there... love Bruce , " selena255 " <selena wrote: > > Yesterday I had a K surge during a journey. As my astral body climbed a rope well into the sky, my physical got the full-fledged ajna mudra pull (it hadn't happened in a while). I had to make an effort not to scream from the amount of energy that ran through me. > > I thought this would energize me--it usually does. Instead, it put me totally out of business for the whole evening. > > I don't know if the K is to blame--I have an iron deficiency, insomnia is taking a toll, and the pressure at work and at home is high. However, the energy that used to keep me going nowadays seems to wear me out. > > I wonder if my K isn't running way ahead of my physical body. Or perhaps it's the other way around: my physical body is worn out and it is no longer able to handle a pace that used to be fine only a couple of years ago. It could even be that physical fatigue is conducive to channeling more light (hence the emphasis on fasting and asceticism in some spiritual practices), but this is not a pleasant dynamic. > > Sel > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 20, 2009 Report Share Posted April 20, 2009 Sparrow, Bruce, Linda, Igor, and All: Thanks for your thoughtful feedback to my musings about the K and the physical body. I have come to the conclusion that the problem is not that the energy is wearing out my physical body, but rather that my body is not keeping up with the energy. Being on this path for the last five years has been a privilege, not a burden. I realize that taking care of my physical body is my responsibility. If I neglect my health, that's exclusively my fault, and the K and its blessings are not to blame. Sel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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