Love/emotional Kriyas

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> And as Iona has stated sometimes you can cry or wail and it is best to just let the tears flow.

Chrism,

I have been meaning to ask in particular about emotional kriyas and how to process them. I would like to hear in a bit more detail, if possible, what to do exactly when these hit.

It's all well and good to let a few discreet tears flow when the spirit is touched or there is a deep or resonant meaning observed in the outer world. But, I feel that if I were truly to "go with it" to the full extent of my natural reaction as it wants to come, that many times I would in fact, in Iona's words, be "wailing" and strike quite the piteous picture.

My idea of what is going on with these emotional reactions is that they are owing to the human vehicle's lack of capacity to hold and process the higher energies. The intolerance expresses as extreme, one might even say "incapacitating" emotion.

I do live with others and so try to behave in a balanced way, but I have heard that fighting other physical kriyas can be bad, so wonder if I should be trying to indulge these urgings more as well. I wonder if there is a way of using breath to work through them instead of sobbing and wailing, for instance. For obvious reasons, I am not keen to give full lease to the emotional torrents.

There are two ways in which I "stifle" or minimise this response. One, is when I am gripped with the desire to profusely emote, I try to curb the intensity of it. This is a natural response, I think, to "swallow" the extremes of it, yet still recognise it and give it some due and allowance. I am not convinced this would be injurious to any of the bodies, but would be interested in your take.

The second way in which I avoid complete meltdowns all day long is to "not go there" to begin with. I realise these are both subconscious reactions, but I believe if I were purposefully to seek out deep resonances, I could easily become a basket case, emotionally. Could this be holding me back, I wonder?

I don't have the more physical symptoms many do, but I have always been "sensitive" and my emotional system gets wracked with the higher input and resonance. I want to honour the higher energies/Spirit/K, but the crying is due to my own physical/emotional weakness and insufficiency, so why should I necessarily honour that expression of it? Who am I honouring by "letting it all come out?"

How much is too much? Do I need to go there *full out* in order to build tolerance? Are there other routes to expressing the energies? I would like to find a way to let the power flow without having it run riot through the emotional system.

I would also like to get closer to Spirit and to gain higher tolerance for the energies, but how does one go about this if getting too close seems to reduce them to mush? All humans lack the fortitude to hold and express above a certain level of purity, energywise, and I guess that is why the K restructures the pathways, to allow a higher tolerance.

Do you have any additional thoughts along these lines?

Thanks,

Droxine

 

 

> And as Iona has stated sometimes you can cry or wail and it is best to just let the tears flow. They will often come for no apparent reason. Its all O.K. except at work but you may not have that occur at work. Kundalini is smart. Read Bill's posts (astronutski). One can understand these symptoms as a form of expressive emotional kriya or "love kriyas." - blessings Mark. - chrism> > , "Skydancer" ionaskydancer@ wrote:> >Cry, Mark, Bawl and Wail, Let the tears flow as they want,> > Then dry your eyes and return to service.> > Blessings, & sweet dreams from the UK,> > Skydancer x

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Hello Chrism,

Thank you for the advice. I have no argument here, but it would not be practically feasible for me to get away for a couple of days right now (money, transportation, accomodation, etc.). I can keep this in mind, though, and maybe one day I can try this, though I think it would take a lot longer than a couple of days of catharthis to get it all out of my system. Ha.

This brings up a related matter (or maybe the same matter, maybe you can clarify whether different or the same). First let me say that I hope I didn't give the impression that I am stifled, emotionally. Compared to other people, I'm sure I emote profusely. I just try to be discreet about it and, sometimes, not indulge it to the full extent, which is what I meant by "stifle."

I've always been easily moved and touched, which is perhaps why I have learnt to be more adept at handling the emotions. My main awakening period introduced me to extremes in this respect that I feel only a small percentage of people experience. I also recognise a (seemingly) perpetual state which I term "separation sickness." It encompasses the sorrow of longing for a freer and more natural state.

To me, this condition seems "incurable" until such as a time as I can reunite if not with the One, then at least with a much higher level of awareness and connectedness, something closer to the superconscious experiences I've had.

So, some of the emotion is stemming, in my estimation, from this undercurrent - the sorrowful comprehension of one's condition of loss (even in the midst of all my blessings). I don't know whether this constant condition qualifies as an emotional kriya, and therefore, whether it should be indulged and given full lease as you suggest or whether a transfer of focus should instead be entrained.

Your inner joy directive has at times been a tough one, but there have been breakthroughs. I mostly have a tremendous relief on a more mental level that I no longer have to dissociate and hide myself from myself, but it does blossom into joyous realisation on occassion. There is no doubt a steady improvement as joy goes, but there are also stops and starts to any progression, I think, as new challenges and tests arise. I still have expectations of people and the outer world and am constantly let down, of course.

Lately, on top of the SS, I feel pretty disconnected from the physical plane and my existence in it. I am freer in the astral and happier moments are when I've succeeded in recreating a higher spiritual mindset IP, through spiritual input or output.

During the wakeful day, I feel bounced from phys reality to a higher awareness like a ping pong ball. If I'm not talking about Greater Reality with someone, for instance (or reading or thinking about it), I feel I'm being inauthentic, like a pretense, but people don't want to talk about spiritual matters all the time, or even most of the time. They want to talk about who fed the cat. Ha. It is a very disjointed existence. I want so much to have a smooth expression on higher ground, but this is the dream I wake up to (and I guess agree to) every morning.

So, there is likely a lot going on emotionally than simply kriyas. I think the lack of consistency is wearing. That's a big part of it. Inner and outer don't match, perhaps.

I think it may be time again to don the headlight-helmet and penetrate deeper into the cavern. Maybe this will put some movement into the confining holding pattern I've felt I'm in lately. I may be entering a period of contraction, as efforts to express and help do not seem to be tangible or in flow somehow.

I hope this isn't too much of a tangle. Thank you again for your advice.

x,

Droxine

 

 

 

 

, "chrism" <> wrote:>> Hello Droxine,> I am looking at your personal situation as these areas become diverse and do not fit a specific pattern to all individuals. Yes you may need to let go of an initial release and that initial release may have some weeping and wailing and this is good. > > Please remember the intelligence of Kundalini. It knows of your situation. It knows of your fears and of your responsibilities. Take a day or two and go some place where you can be alone with this intentional release.> > Let it be a place where you can scream and wail and be completely free of any controls upon this expression. Emotional Kriyas need to be honored as much as the physical ones. > > On the flip side there will also be released tremendous qualities and quantities of love and joy and healing of this most precious body.> > I do not recommend for you to stifle this. Let it go and make what arrangements you need to make and open the flood gates. At first it may seem intense for you but this is normal. Once the initial balancing has begun the rest of the balance will often come with less pressure.> > Your coping mechanisms will be put away as there will no longer be a need to cope and a much more natural flow to your life will begin for you and for those around you. - blessings and balance dear friend. - chrism>