Guest guest Posted April 26, 2009 Report Share Posted April 26, 2009 Hello all. this is not a question but i feel it would be nice to vent these feelings. since i first realised i was waking up i have been against myself and the process. fear and anxiety was with me and my kidneys were like watermelons. In a strange way i feel as if my prayers have been answered and in another i feel as if i have been cursed. Only a few nights before i noticed the lower back pains i was watching a video on animal cruelty in order for it maybe give me the kick up the backside to stop eating meat (thats how my mind works). For the past few years i have become a recluse in my home, unsociable and not wanting to go out and meet people. This seems to be changing. I cannot believe how good carrot juice and all these vegetables taste and im glad that im eating little and healthy. when i went shopping it was basically my stomache shopping i was just carrying the basket, when i went to pick somthing up my stomache would go into a knot. when it didnt i knew that it was ok to eat. My housemates thought i had bought a hamster or rabbit with all the healthy food i have had. I have also made contact with other k active/awake users and spoke with them in great detail and of course, everyone is different in there experiances. the thing i like most about them is that they are down to earth and have not been stripped of their personality at all. I have been trying to give love out and realised all the wasted days ive had sitting about doing nothing, even though i knew there was more the universe and to conciousness. The more i have helped people it makes me feel so good, and ive found opportunitys everywhere to do so. people who i speak to seem friendlier and warmer. I got lost in london last night after my meeting with a k person. it was 23:30 and i got of the bus after he told me it was going the wrong direction. i walked down this street in the middle of nowhere thinking, ok god/k/source how do i get out of this one. 2 chaps are walking down the road and they are indian. one of them mentions in talking a town near where i live and i interupted them to say where is the nearest train station so i can get to mytown. one of the chaps works in my town, and although not going there they give me a lift to a tube station a few miles away where i can a latenight train home. As i lay in bed going to sleep that night i felt a bit different. i said to god i want him to stop this and put it hold for a bit while i can prepare myself better. as i lay to sleep i see an image of a swastika and it scares me. This morning i looked up the symbol and found it was sanskrit. i suppose that is no coincidence and so it only furthers my acceptance that god/creator/source/k is guiding me somehow. I go to a hindu temple today and donate some money and ended up having some sort of blessing. they spoke little english but it didnt matter as they knew what i was there for and showed me the process. as the guy was giving blessing k went through me and was intensly cold. i was ok with it as i knew it was god and in my surrounding it was more than acceptable. the surroundings, the smell of incense( that i keep getting at home) the mantras they all felt comfortable. i have allready had some emotional experiances with mantras and i ponder as to why i have allways loved the indian culture, food, music, colours, smells. I have been trying to find ways of helping people and spoke to my neighbour about it (she is the towns local rescue every animal person) as i talk to her i realise that she does lots and lots for charity, giving money and helping out. she puts me in touch with some people who would like some help with terminal cancer patients at a center. the woman on the phone sounds warm and she was a volunteer as well. she told me that they would love me to help out, if i could drive, picking people up and helping out in the shop. i feel great that i can help them in some way. On the way back i stop at a petrol garage for my bike and there is a homeless woman there selling the big issue. i give her some extra money and talk to her about how i want to help people. she tells me to look no further as the big issue is all about that and charities. she hugs me and gives me a kiss and says thanks for helping her out. a week ago i would have not looked at her and thought she was a drug addict, today she is showing me warmth and love. how blind i have been. I want to find more ways i can help people out. somtimes my throat chakra goes warm when im talking to certain people although i havent worked out the link. im getting ringing ears with my crown tingling alot and my head seems full. want to try and ground myself out a bit. i want to try and be a better channel for this love physically and mentally. i know this is just a scratch on the surface but im hoping i can acheive this. how can you protect yourself. with your physical body you can protect yourself physically. how do you protect your other bodys when they become open. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2009 Report Share Posted April 26, 2009 Hi Mark, its nice to read of your experience unfolding. Seems like the adventure is wonderfully underway love Bruce Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2009 Report Share Posted April 26, 2009 The best protection is unconditional love, and forgiveness, wear them always.I really think that these two garments alone are the most powerful energies known to man.Forget petrol or gas, its love...... <3Love and joyelektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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