6 month ago

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something beautiful happened. I found the gate of now, and I asked for help to

open my heart. It was very cold inside at that time in my life. I prayed,

meditated, and tried to be in the now. At sometime I get so aware that I could

feel every pore breathing. In more than two hours I begged for help to open my

heart and suddenly I was outside my body. I felt who I realy was, the ego, the

connection to everything and what wonderful energy I am. The body felt like

nothing in comparising.

 

After that happened I felt happy and relesead from anxiety, fear, free from

lonliness, seperation after I recognised what I am. Everyday after work I run

home to meditate and I felt the energy moved around gently in my body. It was

like a warm dark energy snake that moved around and open up the systems in the

body. One night IT fixed my nose that had been broken for 20years ago. IT it

took about two hours to make the nose straight again. I isolated myself just

because I wanted to be with this beutiful, wonderful loving thing that moved

around in my body and open it up. This happened 3nov 2008. No thougts, fears,

wonderings, analyzis what was going on in my bodysystem...I just let it be and

do whatever it wanted to do. Had no idea what it was, I just never been so happy

in my life.

 

5,1/2 weeks later the Kundalini raised, all chakras were activated, but the

third chakra was dominated when it started. I was not afraid when it happen, but

I did not had any control, I was not in charge that evening/night. I did not now

what was happening to me at all, but the next day I rembered I have read about

it 15years ago. So in the morning I run down to the basement to search for the

book. I searched information on the internet.

 

And all the intellect thougts and analyzing start to create fear in me. I called

a friend and she promised to visit me on the hospital if I should be

schizofrenic. I did not became schizofrenic because I know how I am, I have been

ME all the life. The raising continue one more night. I stopped it two times

after the most fiery raising. Once when I get scared for the energimoving on my

cheek, and the other time was the next evening. I said to Kundalini, you can get

all my time but not the time I have to be human and tomorrow I must go up to get

to work. She let me sleep but She waked me with a fiery light explosion at the

morning.

 

The cozy feeling I had before the rising had change to fear and anxiety. Because

now I had read some awful stories about peoples awakening and my chakra system

was in chaos. The happines had turn into horror in my mind! I was so

afraid...gosh.

 

So all blessing for and his wonderful work, after finding his teaching

and caring the fears disappered. I found the privliged, the sacred, the holy,

love, life, whatever, all that is in the manifistation of light and the

superintelligent Kundalini.

 

I realy thought that the raising itself should continue for years, and it was

two real tough days when She moved. My body was exhausted, my mind was burned to

silence.

 

An very important experience is that my karma burned out, a lot of stuff that

was no god for me or nointelligent disappered. Like I get both feet on the next

level at the stairs to heaven.

 

Somehow I feel very lucky, priviliged and holy because The Goddess is so loving

and full of humor. She loves when I laugh, so she put me to situations where I

realy had some god laughing.

 

Nothing negativ happened to my body, or my mind, or something perticular that I

can not go on with my life. I see a lof of changing happening, but in an accord

I can manage.

 

I have done yoga for fiften years but never ever thought about this. When I

teach yoga today I know Kundalini is helping my students. First I was scared to

wake theirs K-raise but realised that I can not have that power on other people,

only their own higher self can decide for them.

 

After six months with Kundalini awake, she loves YOU in here alot, she loves

reading what you write, She is so curious and cozy with you here.

 

I write this for my own needs and for the joy of sharing.

 

This days I focus my development on trying to find beliefsystem that block

Kundalini for her process, so I can reduce them- I am very much out in the

nature (yesterday I was walking four hours in the wood guided by a yellow

butterfly. I enjoying every cornerstone, praying, forgiving, do some yoga, eat

very good food, going with flow and accepting what ever comes in to the now. I

do not meet so much people but it is ok, I think She will have " me " for herself.

The last week I started to meet new, interesting people.

 

I thought that I did not get any " siddis " , you know nothing particular happened,

no fish jumping up from the sea or fire in my hands...But last week I discovered

what something not ordinary, not realy true. So now I have to accept it and stop

using it and go on. It is so easy just to feel fine with it and not see it. It

is very lurking... I got to be aware!

 

Ok thank you for let me sharing my stories. God bless you all, you are so

beautiful and colorfull.

 

Hope you can read my english.

 

Love & Life

Nina Ramsten