update and musings on emotinal refinement

April 27, 2009

The last few days I've been doing extremely physical manual labor for 10 to 12

hours each day. I'm finding that it's bringing me deeper and deeper into my

emotional body and I'm experiencing a great sense of emotional reintegration and

healing. At times though since my energy has been very stagnant from being out

of touch with my body and plunged into painful emotions for a long period it is

very uncomfortable and I often feel that I have to lay down in the middle of

doing some work just to be able to relax and let go of the physical and

energetic tension and stagnation, but It's so incredible to re-experience these

parts of myself again and I am so excited for the time when I can feel mentally,

emotionally, and physically, in balance finally. I'm constantly working to

become more balanced in all arenas of my life and I've actually been enjoying

some financial prosperity and fluidity lately that I'm very happy about.

Also, I am finally living in a place where I actually feel at home and am happy

to spend time at, so a more solid foundation is really helping in the

recapitulation and integration process that is occuring within me. It feels like

I'm being remembered or reorganized into the highest expressions of all of my

selves and I'm witnessing to the dismantling process of patterns of behavior and

ways of thinking that have inhibited the highest expression of my true self. I

feel that I've been so bottled up emotionally and the kundalini is surging

through me trying to penetrate these areas of emotional inhibition and the

physical labor is helping to bring my awareness deeper into these blockages so

that I can consciously and eagerly reclaim these aspects of myself.

I love this process of emotional refinement because it illustrates so clearly,

as we look outside through our newly focused emotional lens, that everything we

perceive is really only our self and that there are as many different worlds and

universes as there are individuals. This is so beautiful because it uncovers the

cause and effect of our life experience in the same place and reveals each life

as the sum total representation of personal choice that it actually is. This

personal accountability disentangles us from the illusions of separate interests

that create conflict and allows us to be able to rejoice and celebrate the

unique authenticity of each persons truth and how they choose to live it, even

and especially when it differs from our own. As we come to know who and what we

are more and more there's no end to the amount of compassion and enthusiasm and

joy we can feel in celebrating our own life and the lives of all others.

April 28, 2009

Hello travis,

Thank you sharing these wonderful reflections, they resonate deeply within. It will be very helpful to me in how I view create my world and live in it.

You share also provided me an avenue to phrase some important questions that I have about living in a new world.

Over the past view days many doors have been opened and I'd like to ask people people in this group how one goes about living with these new energies. I'm not sure how I travel through these doors into new oppurtunities to share the light. I don't want to go gung ho, which is something I imagine most people want to do. You see miracles taking place as a direct result of your intentions and you feel inclined to spread the message. How do I become a part of this abundance of energy and use it in a healthy way to share who I am, to give expression to my gifts, talents, abilities in the highest light. I certainly don't want to shock people with the insights that come to me through my own consciousness, as in try to hammer into other people's minds what flows easily in my own. Help has been offered to me and I would like to use my own life as a healthy way to serve.

I'm aware that the proper way to conduct myself comes from an inner balance, but if anyone has any reflections on how they bring light into the world through themselves I would really love to hear them. I also am aware that change is good and that changing in ways that others might not understand is me allowing myself to become what my heart desires. Other people do not have to change with me and that is okay if they do not give themselves permission to do so. We will all change whether we realize it or not and if I do what I am meant to do then that is the best way to help others change in the best way for what they are meant to do.

Thank you everyone for sharing your light.

KB

travisnelsonmurphy <travisnelsonmurphy Sent: Tuesday, April 28, 2009 1:31:27 AM update and musings on emotinal refinement

The last few days I've been doing extremely physical manual labor for 10 to 12 hours each day. I'm finding that it's bringing me deeper and deeper into my emotional body and I'm experiencing a great sense of emotional reintegration and healing. At times though since my energy has been very stagnant from being out of touch with my body and plunged into painful emotions for a long period it is very uncomfortable and I often feel that I have to lay down in the middle of doing some work just to be able to relax and let go of the physical and energetic tension and stagnation, but It's so incredible to re-experience these parts of myself again and I am so excited for the time when I can feel mentally, emotionally, and physically, in balance finally. I'm constantly working to become more balanced in all arenas of my life and I've actually been enjoying some financial prosperity and fluidity lately that I'm very happy about. Also, I am finally living

in a place where I actually feel at home and am happy to spend time at, so a more solid foundation is really helping in the recapitulation and integration process that is occuring within me. It feels like I'm being remembered or reorganized into the highest expressions of all of my selves and I'm witnessing to the dismantling process of patterns of behavior and ways of thinking that have inhibited the highest expression of my true self. I feel that I've been so bottled up emotionally and the kundalini is surging through me trying to penetrate these areas of emotional inhibition and the physical labor is helping to bring my awareness deeper into these blockages so that I can consciously and eagerly reclaim these aspects of myself. I love this process of emotional refinement because it illustrates so clearly, as we look outside through our newly focused emotional lens, that everything we perceive is really only our self and that there are as many

different worlds and universes as there are individuals. This is so beautiful because it uncovers the cause and effect of our life experience in the same place and reveals each life as the sum total representation of personal choice that it actually is. This personal accountability disentangles us from the illusions of separate interests that create conflict and allows us to be able to rejoice and celebrate the unique authenticity of each persons truth and how they choose to live it, even and especially when it differs from our own. As we come to know who and what we are more and more there's no end to the amount of compassion and enthusiasm and joy we can feel in celebrating our own life and the lives of all others.