Emotions No Road map

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Hi all i just wanted to post here on the subject of Emotional clearing by the Shakti, i spoke to recently about my own situation.

When my K began it was with all the bells and whistles.This all died down till i cannot feel much happening at the physical level,

I attended last years conference and during the blessing said he gave as much voltage as possible. On the physical level i felt no K shaktipat. So i thought great ya know nothing can burn me now...........Wrong.

 

I have come to realize after going thro some very tough times emotionally over the last 2 1/2 years that Shakti has been active at quite a different level and it caught me out. My marriage of 30 years ended. Also a new relationship i began,there were so many good points to this relationship but i always had doubts as this lady put me up on a pedistal where i did not belong,or feel happy.If you can believe it the love was too much from her almost claustophobic the Tantra out of this world. I asked for a time out at least 6 times, but found the control of love from her and her neediness too strong. I could have started a new life with her and there was a huge pull to do just that ...............but i did feel it was a trap. I ended it in no uncertain terms to regain space till i could sort out my inside world.

Did i make a correct decision i have no clue maybe i threw the baby out with the bathwater as we sometimes say.

My work has diminished greatly too so at almost every level security/stability/love .....the foundations are gone. I never dreamed to be in this situation at my age.

Or maybe Shakti just plain killed off anything not right in my world including anything of my inside self that has to go.She is loving and savage.

 

I must say that my emotions have been challenged every day anything ''hidden'' that i have not wanted to see about myself has been stuffed in my face right front and center.At times i have felt like there was an acidic conflict happening from within.

When i felt this i would try to remove whatever seemed to be the cause. Well guess what i think the cause is me .............after talking with he said Shakti is working to clear my Emotional Body.

Now please this e-mail is not meant to be an oh poor you tale to get sympathy from you all no not at all.

Its rather to bring up that we have more than one body.............when parts are cleared Shakti will begin on something new.

There is no manual to follow.

Shakti will push us to the limits in clearing this body .........it s been so hard i cannot describe and its not over yet either.

You have to watch each motive from within,there is no room at all to decieve ,or tell little white lies..... you cannot be someone you are not in order to please others. The Divine Mother very soon brings this to your attention very painfully if you will not listen.

I did not listen all along and got very confused by life as there are mixed messages to sort out as well.

I can well see how other s have wanted to end the pain as said he did in the past.

 

So this is to act as words of wisdom to you all if this begins to happen to you ......the safeties your honesty etc etc etc are all crucial,you may not let a speck of wrong motive enter. Surrender takes on a whole new meaning i dont believe we have even begun to comprehend what true surrender is all about.

When this body is being cleared the heat the fire the Kriyas the Bliss all comes at you in a new subtle form.

Blessings All Richard............and you know me as Igor.

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Hi Richard,

 

thank you for sharing your story. I can relate as I have been through a few

years of intensive change and emotional healing, and its so true.. there is no

roadmap, only uncompromising self honesty, truth and the willingness to be

whatever is being presented in the inner and outer worlds, and the faith that

the process is being guided by an infinitly loving intellgence that desires ones

highest good...

 

love and blessings for your journey

Bruce

 

 

, Igor Alphus <Alphu-s

wrote:

>

>

> Hi all i just wanted to post here on the subject of Emotional clearing by the

Shakti, i spoke to recently about my own situation.

>

> When my K began it was with all the bells and whistles.This all died down till

i cannot feel much happening at the physical level,

>

> I attended last years conference and during the blessing said he gave

as much voltage as possible. On the physical level i felt no K shaktipat. So i

thought great ya know nothing can burn me now...........Wrong.

>

>

>

> I have come to realize after going thro some very tough times emotionally

over the last 2 1/2 years that Shakti has been active at quite a different level

and it caught me out. My marriage of 30 years ended. Also a new relationship

i began,there were so many good points to this relationship but i always had

doubts as this lady put me up on a pedistal where i did not belong,or feel

happy.If you can believe it the love was too much from her almost claustophobic

the Tantra out of this world. I asked for a time out at least 6 times, but found

the control of love from her and her neediness too strong. I could have

started a new life with her and there was a huge pull to do just that

................but i did feel it was a trap. I ended it in no uncertain terms to

regain space till i could sort out my inside world.

>

> Did i make a correct decision i have no clue maybe i threw the baby out with

the bathwater as we sometimes say.

>

> My work has diminished greatly too so at almost every level

security/stability/love .....the foundations are gone. I never dreamed to be in

this situation at my age.

>

> Or maybe Shakti just plain killed off anything not right in my world including

anything of my inside self that has to go.She is loving and savage.

>

>

>

> I must say that my emotions have been challenged every day anything ''hidden''

that i have not wanted to see about myself has been stuffed in my face right

front and center.At times i have felt like there was an acidic conflict

happening from within.

>

> When i felt this i would try to remove whatever seemed to be the cause. Well

guess what i think the cause is me .............after talking with he

said Shakti is working to clear my Emotional Body.

>

> Now please this e-mail is not meant to be an oh poor you tale to get sympathy

from you all no not at all.

>

> Its rather to bring up that we have more than one body.............when parts

are cleared Shakti will begin on something new.

>

> There is no manual to follow.

>

> Shakti will push us to the limits in clearing this body .........it s been so

hard i cannot describe and its not over yet either.

>

> You have to watch each motive from within,there is no room at all to decieve

,or tell little white lies..... you cannot be someone you are not in order to

please others. The Divine Mother very soon brings this to your attention very

painfully if you will not listen.

>

> I did not listen all along and got very confused by life as there are mixed

messages to sort out as well.

>

> I can well see how other s have wanted to end the pain as said he did

in the past.

>

>

>

> So this is to act as words of wisdom to you all if this begins to happen to

you ......the safeties your honesty etc etc etc are all crucial,you may not let

a speck of wrong motive enter. Surrender takes on a whole new meaning i dont

believe we have even begun to comprehend what true surrender is all about.

>

> When this body is being cleared the heat the fire the Kriyas the Bliss all

comes at you in a new subtle form.

>

> Blessings All Richard............and you know me as Igor.

>

>

>

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Richard,Blessings to you and us all on our path to find our divine purpose.Sat Nam.............Julie--- On Sat, 5/2/09, Igor Alphus <Alphu-s wrote:Igor Alphus <Alphu-s Emotions No Road map Date: Saturday, May 2, 2009, 12:34 AM

 

 

Hi all i just wanted to post here on the subject of Emotional clearing by the Shakti, i spoke to recently about my own situation.

When my K began it was with all the bells and whistles.This all died down till i cannot feel much happening at the physical level,

I attended last years conference and during the blessing said he gave as much voltage as possible. On the physical level i felt no K shaktipat. So i thought great ya know nothing can burn me now......... ..Wrong.

 

I have come to realize after going thro some very tough times emotionally over the last 2 1/2 years that Shakti has been active at quite a different level and it caught me out. My marriage of 30 years ended. Also a new relationship i began,there were so many good points to this relationship but i always had doubts as this lady put me up on a pedistal where i did not belong,or feel happy.If you can believe it the love was too much from her almost claustophobic the Tantra out of this world. I asked for a time out at least 6 times, but found the control of love from her and her neediness too strong. I could have started a new life with her and there was a huge pull to do just that ............ ...but i did feel it was a trap. I ended it in no uncertain terms to regain space till i could sort out my inside world.

Did i make a correct decision i have no clue maybe i threw the baby out with the bathwater as we sometimes say.

My work has diminished greatly too so at almost every level security/stability/ love .....the foundations are gone. I never dreamed to be in this situation at my age.

Or maybe Shakti just plain killed off anything not right in my world including anything of my inside self that has to go.She is loving and savage.

 

I must say that my emotions have been challenged every day anything ''hidden'' that i have not wanted to see about myself has been stuffed in my face right front and center.At times i have felt like there was an acidic conflict happening from within.

When i felt this i would try to remove whatever seemed to be the cause. Well guess what i think the cause is me ............ .after talking with he said Shakti is working to clear my Emotional Body.

Now please this e-mail is not meant to be an oh poor you tale to get sympathy from you all no not at all.

Its rather to bring up that we have more than one body........ .....when parts are cleared Shakti will begin on something new.

There is no manual to follow.

Shakti will push us to the limits in clearing this body .........it s been so hard i cannot describe and its not over yet either.

You have to watch each motive from within,there is no room at all to decieve ,or tell little white lies..... you cannot be someone you are not in order to please others. The Divine Mother very soon brings this to your attention very painfully if you will not listen.

I did not listen all along and got very confused by life as there are mixed messages to sort out as well.

I can well see how other s have wanted to end the pain as said he did in the past.

 

So this is to act as words of wisdom to you all if this begins to happen to you ......the safeties your honesty etc etc etc are all crucial,you may not let a speck of wrong motive enter. Surrender takes on a whole new meaning i dont believe we have even begun to comprehend what true surrender is all about.

When this body is being cleared the heat the fire the Kriyas the Bliss all comes at you in a new subtle form.

Blessings All Richard..... .......and you know me as Igor.

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You know the more posts I read the more I see myself. I was pushed by something to move. This was before I even knew what K was. I just knew. I had to leave where I was to learn more about who I am. It was like an immovable force made me. Things where I was just kept getting worse and worse until I knew I had to escape. Although I could go back now and it would be fine but I feel like I have to move again. Do any of you ever get that feeling? Like a little nudge wanting you to go and if you ignore it things get worse until you do it. Now I am not insane and I am not listening to voices, but you just see the situation you are in and you go, 'either I change and leave or I stay here and....'

 

 

 

Julie <jewelport Sent: Saturday, May 2, 2009 5:26:10 AMRe: Emotions No Road map

 

 

 

 

 

Richard,Blessings to you and us all on our path to find our divine purpose.Sat Nam......... ....

Julie--- On Sat, 5/2/09, Igor Alphus <Alphu-s (AT) hotmail (DOT) com> wrote:

Igor Alphus <Alphu-s (AT) hotmail (DOT) com>[Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] Emotions No Road mapkundalini-awakening -systems- 1 Saturday, May 2, 2009, 12:34 AM

 

 

Hi all i just wanted to post here on the subject of Emotional clearing by the Shakti, i spoke to recently about my own situation.When my K began it was with all the bells and whistles.This all died down till i cannot feel much happening at the physical level,I attended last years conference and during the blessing said he gave as much voltage as possible. On the physical level i felt no K shaktipat. So i thought great ya know nothing can burn me now......... ..Wrong. I have come to realize after going thro some very tough times emotionally over the last 2 1/2 years that Shakti has been active at quite a different level and it caught me out. My marriage of 30 years ended. Also a new relationship i began,there were so many good points to this relationship but i always had doubts as this lady put me up on a pedistal where i did not belong,or feel happy.If you can believe it

the love was too much from her almost claustophobic the Tantra out of this world. I asked for a time out at least 6 times, but found the control of love from her and her neediness too strong. I could have started a new life with her and there was a huge pull to do just that ............ ...but i did feel it was a trap. I ended it in no uncertain terms to regain space till i could sort out my inside world.Did i make a correct decision i have no clue maybe i threw the baby out with the bathwater as we sometimes say.My work has diminished greatly too so at almost every level security/stability/ love .....the foundations are gone. I never dreamed to be in this situation at my age.Or maybe Shakti just plain killed off anything not right in my world including anything of my inside self that has to go.She is loving and savage. I must say that my emotions have been challenged every day anything

''hidden'' that i have not wanted to see about myself has been stuffed in my face right front and center.At times i have felt like there was an acidic conflict happening from within.When i felt this i would try to remove whatever seemed to be the cause. Well guess what i think the cause is me ............ .after talking with he said Shakti is working to clear my Emotional Body.Now please this e-mail is not meant to be an oh poor you tale to get sympathy from you all no not at all.Its rather to bring up that we have more than one body........ .....when parts are cleared Shakti will begin on something new.There is no manual to follow. Shakti will push us to the limits in clearing this body .........it s been so hard i cannot describe and its not over yet either.You have to watch each motive from within,there is no room at all to decieve ,or tell little white lies..... you cannot be someone you are

not in order to please others. The Divine Mother very soon brings this to your attention very painfully if you will not listen.I did not listen all along and got very confused by life as there are mixed messages to sort out as well.I can well see how other s have wanted to end the pain as said he did in the past. So this is to act as words of wisdom to you all if this begins to happen to you ......the safeties your honesty etc etc etc are all crucial,you may not let a speck of wrong motive enter. Surrender takes on a whole new meaning i dont believe we have even begun to comprehend what true surrender is all about.When this body is being cleared the heat the fire the Kriyas the Bliss all comes at you in a new subtle form. Blessings All Richard..... .......and you know me as

Igor.

 

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Richard:

Thank you for sharing. I certainly can relate to the changes - am feeling such

a neophyte when it comes to K - last year at the seminar I had just begun my

journey and a year later - well I think I have progressed but then again there

is so much to do or have done??

 

Thank you for sharing. No there is no " pity me " in your statements- more an

acceptance and understanding that shows you are in a good state of mind.

 

Sending you love and prayers to keep you on the road of a good journey.

May you accept what is given and give all you can.

 

 

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dear Golden cougar wolf. . .

 

Namaste

 

i agree with Bruce about deep listening. . .and following the inner

voice. . .

 

here is a another angle about the desire to move. . .when i was ten

years old i went through a egoic deathing. . and for almost a year i did

not talk. . .during this time Divine Mother would come and rock me from

deep within and during that time when my life force was not wanting to

be in the world, She began to reveal bits of my future. . .She told i

would work at an orphanage in another country, live in Africa and see

all the animals,would work as a healer, and that someday i would walk

and work alongside Indian people. . .

 

sure enough i worked in an orphanage in Mexico, and went to Zimbabwe

Africa for two years in a program like peace corps, and worked in a

career as a healer. . . .

 

i am mixed blood Native and many times was deeply drawn to move to New

Mexico or the Cherokee Nation and work with Native people. . .Through

out that time was offered jobs that would of fulfilled the desire and

the revealing that had been given many years prior, " i would walk and

work alongside Indian people. " . . . . but each time something would come

up and the bottom would fall out of the plans and i would not move. .

..soon began to realize that each time with the desire to move i was

externalizing an internal invitation to move deeper in the process. .

..and each time i did not move, there would be deep spiritual movement

within with a claiming and bringing forth the ancestral lineage

teachings within. . .got to the point where i realized it was an

internal thing and would just move inward rather than allow myself to

get caught up in an external move. . .

 

then ten+ years ago once again made the the decision to move to the

Cherokee Nation and was offered a job. . .i had everything packed and

ready to move. . and two days before the move i went to a Hindu temple

and once again all my plans changed for a complete new phase began. .

..for the past i have worked energetically with Indians from India. .

..and now know at ten years old i assumed it was American Indians

rather than Indians from India. . .lol!

 

along with your listening, you might ask if there are things going on

internally that wants you to " move " to a new place within?. . .

 

are you close to Crestwood, Colorado?. . .i know some really wonderful

folks there. . .

 

blessings dear Sister

love and light

ordinary sparrow

 

part of the reason i would think, i am suppose to move

, goldencougarwolf

<nlring80962 wrote:

>

> You know the more posts I read the more I see myself. I was pushed by

something to move. This was before I even knew what K was. I just knew.

I had to leave where I was to learn more about who I am. It was like an

immovable force made me. Things where I was just kept getting worse and

worse until I knew I had to escape. Although I could go back now and it

would be fine but I feel like I have to move again. Do any of you ever

get that feeling? Like a little nudge wanting you to go and if you

ignore it things get worse until you do it. Now I am not insane and I

am not listening to voices, but you just see the situation you are in

and you go, 'either I change and leave or I stay here and....'

>

 

>

>

>

> ________________________________

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>

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I am not sure where Crestwood is. I am near Yoder, Calhan, Ellicott, Rush area. We are really out on the plains and we don't have a town. Calhan provides us the mail and zip. We are even between counties. Lincoln on one side and El Paso the other. Funny when they do the road. Funny how you say you are Native. So am I. My Grandma's Father was pure blood but could pass. He told everyone he was French Canadian. That way he wouldn't be brought back to the res. I grew up around the Iraquois, which are now Potawamie. Don't know why they keep changing their name, but. I am not sure what tribe my Grandfather comes from. What is really funny is I married a man who is 1/2 Blackfoot. And he has the temper to prove that one. LOL. Neither of us know much about our heritage. He doesn't because as far as we know

most Blackfoots are gone. There may be but a handful left. It saddens me to think of cultures disappearing like other things on this planet. I realize that is just the way, but I wonder how much of it is influenced by humans themselves and not nature.

 

 

 

ordinarysparrow <ordinarysparrow Sent: Saturday, May 2, 2009 12:12:20 PM Re: Emotions No Road map

 

dear Golden cougar wolf. . .Namastei agree with Bruce about deep listening. . .and following the innervoice. . .here is a another angle about the desire to move. . .when i was tenyears old i went through a egoic deathing. . and for almost a year i didnot talk. . .during this time Divine Mother would come and rock me fromdeep within and during that time when my life force was not wanting tobe in the world, She began to reveal bits of my future. . .She told iwould work at an orphanage in another country, live in Africa and seeall the animals,would work as a healer, and that someday i would walkand work alongside Indian people. . .sure enough i worked in an orphanage in Mexico, and went to Zimbabwe Africa for two years in a program like peace corps, and worked in acareer as a healer. . . .i am mixed blood Native and many times was deeply drawn to move to NewMexico or the

Cherokee Nation and work with Native people. . .Throughout that time was offered jobs that would of fulfilled the desire andthe revealing that had been given many years prior, " i would walk andwork alongside Indian people.". . . . but each time something would comeup and the bottom would fall out of the plans and i would not move. ..soon began to realize that each time with the desire to move i wasexternalizing an internal invitation to move deeper in the process. ..and each time i did not move, there would be deep spiritual movementwithin with a claiming and bringing forth the ancestral lineageteachings within. . .got to the point where i realized it was aninternal thing and would just move inward rather than allow myself toget caught up in an external move. . .then ten+ years ago once again made the the decision to move to theCherokee Nation and was offered a job. . .i had everything packed

andready to move. . and two days before the move i went to a Hindu templeand once again all my plans changed for a complete new phase began. ..for the past i have worked energetically with Indians from India. ..and now know at ten years old i assumed it was American Indiansrather than Indians from India. . .lol!along with your listening, you might ask if there are things going oninternally that wants you to "move" to a new place within?. . .are you close to Crestwood, Colorado?. . .i know some really wonderfulfolks there. . .blessings dear Sisterlove and lightordinary sparrowpart of the reason i would think, i am suppose to moveKundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , goldencougarwolf<nlring80962@

....> wrote:>> You know the more posts I read the more I see myself. I was pushed bysomething to move. This was before I even knew what K was. I just knew.I had to leave where I was to learn more about who I am. It was like animmovable force made me. Things where I was just kept getting worse andworse until I knew I had to escape. Although I could go back now and itwould be fine but I feel like I have to move again. Do any of you everget that feeling? Like a little nudge wanting you to go and if youignore it things get worse until you do it. Now I am not insane and Iam not listening to voices, but you just see the situation you are inand you go, 'either I change and leave or I stay here and....'>>>>> ____________ _________ _________ __> Windows Live helps you keep up with all your friends, in one

place.>

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Namaste

 

GCW. . .it is near Colorado Springs not too far from Monarach Pass. . the reason

i mentioned it is because it is a spiritual community with many faiths that

embraces all and co-exist together. . .it is small in winter and many people

live in trailors and in the summer people just come and camp and there is a an

exchange of various spiritual gifts. . .i do not know where Rush is located. .

..but one of my dearest spiritual teachers from the earlier years lives there and

she has undergone k. . .

 

blessings

ordinary sparrow

 

, goldencougarwolf

<nlring80962 wrote:

>

> I am not sure where Crestwood is. I am near Yoder, Calhan,

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I am 40 miles from the border of C/S. I will see if I can find it. I know where Monarch Pass is. It may be quite a few miles from me though. I will see if I can find out how far from me it is and let you know.

 

 

 

ordinarysparrow <ordinarysparrow Sent: Saturday, May 2, 2009 12:56:12 PM Re: Emotions No Road map

 

NamasteGCW. . .it is near Colorado Springs not too far from Monarach Pass. . the reason i mentioned it is because it is a spiritual community with many faiths that embraces all and co-exist together. . .it is small in winter and many people live in trailors and in the summer people just come and camp and there is a an exchange of various spiritual gifts. . .i do not know where Rush is located. . .but one of my dearest spiritual teachers from the earlier years lives there and she has undergone k. . .blessingsordinary sparrowKundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , goldencougarwolf <nlring80962@ ...> wrote:>> I am not sure where Crestwood is. I am near Yoder, Calhan,

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Thanks for sharing this with us Richard. This resonates with me on different

levels, since my awakening.

There was a time that all was blissful; all was magnificant; all way peacefull;

and I forgave everyone.

This came to an abrubt stop once I recieved 'energy' without permission and set

me off into the abyss. I no longer associate with these people, however, I

believe damage was done.

At this time, Shatki threw everything my way to expose my ego and how it

controlled me or at least to have me understand the processes of my ego. The

biggest hurdle that I had to jump over was that I was so entrenched on what

others thought of me...how I seeked approval in others....how I longed for such

a sense of belonging...the self pity...wanting pitty from others...and the list

goes on. Shatki presented a true gift for me to be able to stand on my own two

feet. She showed me how my left side (yang) required work. Then came labels, the

conditions, the programming, and the suspicons which all became amplified at

this time. It had me crash and burn, put on med's, etc. This is all before I

even knew what K was. Was this necessary...absolutely!! Shatki broke so many

frames for me that I found myself in the utmost naked truth about myself and how

life long programming stopped me from achieving the truth about who I am. Has

this changed me?...for sure. Do I know which path to take?....yes. So I'm on

the path and it seems a whole lot better since the process began.

Since then and upon joining this group, I have accepted the process of K, and

have surrendered to the process. I now visualize my Spirit moving forward ahead

of my physical body and taking in the lead. It's helped me and I wish to share

it with this group.

At one point, I was willing to give everything up, move to India and spend the

rest of my life focusing on K, ascension, etc. This has disipated since, and I'm

a lot more stable. I have also accepted the paradoxes of living my 'regular'

life of paying bills, focusing on the family, and all the other programming

which our society places on us versus the hopeful bliss lifestyle of living with

K. The whole mind/spirit tug of war.

There is somewhat of a road map, which and others have layed out,

however, having reading much of the posts, there are sooo many varying degrees

of the K experience that info could only be used as a guideline.

This group has taught me so much that I pray that it found me.

 

Be well,

Ernie

 

, Igor Alphus <Alphu-s

wrote:

>

>

> Hi all i just wanted to post here on the subject of Emotional clearing by the

Shakti, i spoke to recently about my own situation.

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you both Ernie and Richard for sharing.

 

Your stories help me to understand what K is doing know. She shows me a lot of

stuff how I handle things, people, situations throughout this lifetime. I feel

it is important for me not to identify with my life story instead I will try to

learn from the pictures she gave me. I realize that it is a waste of time and

energy to let the ego rule.

Shine on.

Love & Life

Nina R

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In an Indigo forum I belong to there is a thread with much the same dialog, sure

some of you aren't Indigo's? In this discussion a link came up that pretty much

described these conditions of emotional transformation. I guess there would be

no surprise that it originates out of Native American Indian culture.

 

http://www.crimsoncircle.com/Library/AwakeningSigns/tabid/89/Default.aspx

 

http://video.google.com/videosearch?q=Shaumbra & rls=com.microsoft:en-us & oe=UTF-8 & \

um=1 & ie=UTF-8 & ei=CeL9SeODL4r0MrC2hbUE & sa=X & oi=video_result_group & resnum=4 & ct=tit\

le#

 

Awakening Signs

" Twelve Signs of Your Awakening Divinity "

 

" Shaumbra " means

Family and Deep Inner Friendship

 

By Geoffrey Hoppe and Tobias

 

1

Body aches and pains, especially in the neck, shoulder and back. This is the

result of intense changes at your DNA level as the " Christ seed " awakens within.

This too shall pass.

 

2

Feeling of deep inner sadness for no apparent reason. You are releasing your

past (this lifetime and others) and this causes the feeling of sadness. This is

similar to the experience of moving from a house where you lived in for many,

many years into a new house. As much as you want to move into the new house,

there is a sadness of leaving behind the memories, energy and experiences of the

old house. This too shall pass.

 

3

Crying for no apparent reason. Similar to #2 above. It's good and healthy to let

the tears flow. It helps to release the old energy within. This too shall pass.

 

4

Sudden change in job or career. A very common symptom. As you change, things

around you will change as well. Don't worry about finding the " perfect " job or

career right now. This too shall pass. You're in transition and you may make

several job changes before you settle into one that fits your passion.

 

5

Withdrawal from family relationships. You are connected to your biological

family via old karma. When you get off the karmic cycle, the bonds of the old

relationships are released. It will appear as though you are drifting away from

your family and friends. This too shall pass. After a period of time, you may

develop a new relationship with them if it is appropriate. However, the

relationship will be based in the new energy without the karmic attachments.

 

6

Unusual sleep patterns. It's likely that you'll awaken many nights between 2:00

and 4:00 AM. There's a lot of work going on within you, and it often causes you

to wake up for a " breather. " Not to worry. If you can't go back to sleep, get up

and do something rather than lay in bed and worry about humanly things. This too

shall pass.

 

7

Intense dreams. These might include war and battle dreams, chase dreams or

monster dreams. You are literally releasing the old energy within, and these

energies of the past are often symbolized as wars, running to escape and

boogiemen. This too shall pass.

 

8

Physical disorientation. At times you'll feel very ungrounded. You'll be

" spatially challenged " with the feeling like you can't put two feet on the

ground, or that you're walking between two worlds. As your consciousness

transitions into the new energy, you body sometimes lags behind. Spend more time

in nature to help ground the new energy within. This too shall pass.

 

9

Increased " self talk. " You'll find yourself talking to your Self more often.

You'll suddenly realize you've been chattering away with yourself for the past

30 minutes. There is a new level of communication taking place within your

being, and you're experiencing the tip of the iceberg with the self talk. The

conversations will increase, and they will become more fluid, more coherent and

more insightful. You're not going crazy, you're just Shaumbra moving into the

new energy.

 

10

Feelings of loneliness, even when in the company of others. You may feel alone

and removed from others. You may feel the desire to " flee " groups and crowds. As

Shaumbra, you are walking a sacred and lonely path. As much as the feelings of

loneliness cause you anxiety, it is difficult to relate to others at this time.

The feelings of loneliness are also associated with the fact that your Guides

have departed. They have been with you on all of your journeys in all of your

lifetimes. It was time for them to back away so you could fill your space with

your own divinity. This too shall pass. The void within will be filled with the

love and energy of your own Christ consciousness.

 

11

Loss of passion. You may feel totally disimpassioned, with little or no desire

to do anything. That's OK, and it's just part of the process. Take this time to

" do no-thing. " Don't fight yourself on this, because this too shall pass. It's

similar to rebooting a computer. You need to shut down for a brief period of

time in order to load the sophisticated new software, or in this case, the new

Christ-seed energy.

 

12

A deep longing to go Home. This is perhaps the most difficult and challenging of

any of the conditions. You may experience a deep and overwhelming desire to

leave the planet and return to Home. This is not a " suicidal " feeling. It is not

based in anger or frustration. You don't want to make a big deal of it or cause

drama for yourself or other. There is a quiet part of you that wants to go Home.

The root cause for this is quite simple. You have completed your karmic cycles.

You have completed your contract for this lifetime. You are ready to begin a new

lifetime while still in this physical body. During this transition process, you

have an inner remembrance of what it is like to be on the other side. Are you

ready to enlist for another tour of duty here on Earth? Are you ready to take on

the challenges of moving into the New Energy? Yes, indeed you could go Home

right now. But you've come this far, and after many, many lifetimes it would be

a shame to leave before the end of the movie. Besides, Spirit needs you here to

help others transition into the new energy. They will need a human guide, just

like you, who has taken the journey from the old energy into the new. The path

you're walking right now provides the experiences to enable you to become a

Teacher of the New Divine Human. As lonely and dark as your journey can be at

times, remember that you are never alone.

 

Geoffrey Hoppe

Channeler for Tobias

 

 

 

Copyright 2006 by Geoffrey Hoppe, Golden, CO. Prepared in collaboration with

Tobias of the Crimson Circle. Please distribute freely for non-commercial

purposes.

 

Being a person that checks many tribal web pages this was something new to me as

being in this printed form, pleasantly surprised. But they do talk of manataka,

a gathering place in Arkansas, and within the tribes there is turmoil as to

where it really is.

 

http://aihsc.info/story_.htm

 

My introduction to kundalini began almost 40 years ago in this coming winter

solstice. It has been one hell of a seesaw ride with great highs perceiving the

heavens clear of misty shrouds then to fall to the depths of a bottomless abyss.

At this time the number 11 and 12 symptoms seem to be my falling. I began

learning in a way akin to what Carlos Castaneda talks about, and it was many

years after this education that I discovered there was such a person.

 

In this life I was raised in Gypsy style, traveling all over the U.S. from job

to job. I was raised on pipe-line crews and on off times we would go home to

life on the farm. From these adventures I have learned as Carlos Castaneda

explained in Journey to Ixtlan, you can never go home anymore. That is a

precarious situation for me; it reminds me of an eaglet preparing for his first

flight never to return home.

 

The road to FREE WILL is not free as you pay for it with your life. If you learn

from Shakti a life of free will is what you will earn.