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[Guest guest]

I have sat and pondered what you have said about letting Shakti ask of me

instead of me of Her and about devotion and yesterday I came to the realization

that this whole time whenever I'm spending time with Shakti, I'm usually asking

something of Her. I then sat and focused my attention on my tailbone and gently

listened with my heart. And for the first time in a while, I heard and felt the

silence without trying. The gerbil wheel in my mind stopped (this also happened

earlier when I sat and just felt every emotion that arised without judgment) and

there was the expansive silence and peace. Through not wanting anything from

Her, I can let Her ask of me rather than me of Her. This whole time I've been

asking and demanding of Her thinking that I was letting Her in, without

realizing that I've more than likely been pushing this connection taht I long

for away...

craig

[Guest guest]

Hi craig,

 

haha.. this sounds exactly what I was also very good at doing, pushing shakti

away and thinking I was asking her in. lol

 

Bruce

 

, " kundaflame "

<kundaflame wrote:

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> I have sat and pondered what you have said about letting Shakti ask of

me instead of me of Her and about devotion and yesterday I came to the

realization that this whole time whenever I'm spending time with Shakti, I'm

usually asking something of Her. I then sat and focused my attention on my

tailbone and gently listened with my heart. And for the first time in a while, I

heard and felt the silence without trying. The gerbil wheel in my mind stopped

(this also happened earlier when I sat and just felt every emotion that arised

without judgment) and there was the expansive silence and peace. Through not

wanting anything from Her, I can let Her ask of me rather than me of Her. This

whole time I've been asking and demanding of Her thinking that I was letting Her

in, without realizing that I've more than likely been pushing this connection

taht I long for away...

> craig

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