Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! Nicole Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Dear Nicole,I don't know who in the group has made you feel that they cannot be trusted, or what kind of help you need that you are not getting. For me, I have been in this group for over a year, and everyone that is still here since that time I would probably trust my life with. Circumstances for you seem very trying at the moment. But I promise you, dear child, that will eventually change if you can find the strength to endure a little while longer. When I have quit something or someone or some place too soon, I have always looked back and wished that I had not given up so quickly. All I can do is pray for you, dear child of God. I am sending you my prayers and loving thoughts, and hope for a brighter tomorrow for you.God bless you also in your journey. If you decide to come back at any time, you will be greeting with loving and open arms.Julie--- On Mon, 5/18/09, ntaroiu <lsirca wrote:ntaroiu <lsirca I'm leaving the group! Date: Monday, May 18, 2009, 10:44 AM Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! Nicole Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! Good luck and perhaps a good shrink could help you! Some are into drama and some are not. Best, Angelina , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! > > Nicole > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Sorry to hear you are under so much stress, Nicole. I will continue keeping you in my prayers. I hope your life gets sorted real soon. Love & hugs, Linda , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! > > Nicole > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 What's happening Nichol? Who in your life is untrustworthy? Do you mean us? We do want to help you, please tell us how. Blessings, Skydancer x , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! > > Nicole > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Namastedear Nicolesorry to hear you are hurting, dissolutioned, and disillusioned. . .as i read Julie's response i just want to be added to the same space her heart is breathing from. . .the door remains open and with deep respect and honor your knowing as to what is right for you or not. . .sometimes when things are not going well along the path our egoic can really beat us up with all kinds of accusations. The pain can seem to point a finger thatwe are wrong and unlovable and it is our's or someone else's fault. . .the path can be rough at times and that is where we have to reach down and bring forth that which can be transformed into pure gold. . . .There is a song written by Leonard Cohen called the Sisters of Mercy, one of its stanza is; "Yes, you must leave everything that you cannot control. It begins with your family, but soon it comes around to your soul. Well I've been where you're hanging, I think I can see how you're pinned: When you're not feeling holy, your lonliness says that you've sinned. .. . If your life is a leaf that the seasons tear off and condemn . . . .", that reflects how quickly our egoic an turn rejection into wrong and unloveable, "if your not feeling holy, your lonliness says that you've sinned."It has helped me to come to the understanding the egoic does not want me to succeed with True Enlightment. . .for if that happens that is its death. . .so when we go through hard times the egoic really can get invested and use it to sabatogue our journey. . .Carolyn Myss says all of us have in common four archetypes; child, victim, sabatoguer, and oops! i have forgotten the fourth one, but the first three are enough to stop and ponder. . . Nicole these questions might be of interest; How am i sabatoguing myself? Are there anyways the victim has come forth in the trials you have been going through? How about the controller? What is the child feeling in all of this and how are they being triggered? Would it be benefical for you to take a look at the FEELING of this housing cirisis and the lack of FEELING support?What works for me is when i am aware of some pain that has out stayed its welcome is to enter a dialogue with the feeling, give it a face or a personality all its own and ask why are you here? and why have you not gone away?, as well as what do you need in order to leave?Breathe steadily and live with what it says. . . Nicole you have been presenting external issues and perhaps the group has not responded at the level you wanted. . .it is really hard to do so when one is in crisis. . .but dear Nicole there is always going to be some crisis and if we responded to you at the level of the problem it would be a disservice and an reinactment of what you have know for years with your own Mom. . .Nicole the transformation needs to start from the inside out because the external will always be knocking at our door, kinda like the big bad wolf and Little Red Riding Hood. . . Nicole i so wished life did not have so much struggle and pain for you dear Sister, but there is a way out and the door opens from within. . .reach deep Nicole and reaching deep often looks like surrender. . another one of those darn paradoxes. . .but you have what it takes. . . there comes a time. . . when what was there before we even began must come forth. . . embedded in our natures is the gift already unfolded. . .. embedded in the seed is the blossom. . .embedded in the womb is the child fully grown. . .embedded in the impulse to care is the peace of love realized. . .embedded in the fear of risk is the authenticity of being. . . the path of dust is created by the wind. . . the Sacred grace encircles us within and without. . . as we bring forth. . . and unfold. . .there comes a place where. . . how one lives from the deep inside takes priority. . .there is a Waterloo where talk evaporates. . . and words do not bring love into the open. . . only the soul's presence coming from within can attract the presence of the Great Sacred Spirit that carries us into the Oneness of all being and opens the door to a live without suffering no matter the circumstance. . .you have what it takes to transform this crisis into peace and acceptance. . .Nicole this is a concept for the Course of Miracles that i would like to share with you. . .If someone is hurting you in anyway, they are showing you their wound. If you attack them, condemn them, feel victimized by them in any way then you are in fact keeping yourself stuck at the effect of their wound. To see yourself as an overcommer, is to see yourself, through the grace of God lifted to a place where the love you give to them, despite how they might be treating you, is not only the healing of them, but is also ones own healing. All of us get to those places where we get as stuck as anyone else. We all get to those places and because of the Great Witness before us, we have all Her truth and power to call upon. It is impossible to call upon the Holy Spirit and not receive assistance.Nicole please know whether you stay or go. . you are loved. . and a most blessed child of Kundalini Ma. . .and truly you are her child. . .Yesterday you shared the four animals and when i read though about how each of the ones that appeared where animals that are rode by the Goddesss of the Durga Navarati, the Hindu Festival of the Divine Mother. . .So maybe once again the question is, what are you going to do to master these powerful feelings that have come forth from the very real and understandable crisis of trying to find home from more than one level. . .Nicole where is home?Sweetie these are just some thoughts that flowed and if they do not fit or cause you one ounce of additional pain, please disregard and know that my heart is with Julie and the others that have offered their love, concern and support. . love, light, and always honorordinary sparrow , "ntaroiu" <lsirca wrote:>> Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye!> > Nicole> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Nicole, I couldn't say it better than Julie has said. I see you are in trying times and I know many of us feel for you (some of us also are in trying times). What we can do but support you with love and our collective wisdom and good wishes, I don't know. I don't know about the trust issue, this is something I haven't been privy to. But I do hope you will hang on a bit longer. Look at things that have fallen through for you as not meant to be, maybe there was a rat infestation you didn't know about or a really obnoxious, negative neighbor you wouldn't know of yet. When it's really right for you, it will all work out. Bless you and if you really do leave, know you can always return and we will be happy to see you. Love, Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Nicole, I have not talked to you yet, and it is sad that I cannot have a chance to do that. I hope you return someday and that the problems then are solved. One of my deep dark roads on this planet was when I did not have any place to live. It made me so angry, anxious, sad and lonely that I messed up my life for a very long time. It took me a lot of time to get the anger out of my system, even some therapy. All this year's everything worked out for me but I did not see that because of my confusion, pity myself and strong anger. Feelings I respect I had, but I wish it had been more smoothly the process of finding GOD inside me. This process was the beginning for me on the path to find my heart. I wish you all luck and strength. And I hope you will see the love that surrounds you. Do not go blind in anger. We all love you and care for you. I know you can manage this; you have a strong spirit and a heart of a GOD-warrior. All my love Nina R Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2009 Report Share Posted May 18, 2009 Dear Nicole, I really am sorry that you are suffering so much. I went through stages where I also couldnt handle it and felt no once cared. I can promise that there is light on the other side, if you can stay present. The self contraction can be blinding in its ferocity, and things appear to get desperate and darkest just before the dawn. The end of suffering is the end of the inner recoil away from whatever internal experience yyou are having and being willing to stay present and feel, no matter how difficult. That awareness in you, which is you, which is aware of suffering, is free of suffering; thats the golden rule. This will enable you to face everything and avoid nothing. If you can ask you higher self for strength and continue to stay present to yourself, to turn even deeper inwards as it gets darker and everything screams get out, then transformation is possible. sending you love Bruce , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! > > Nicole > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 21, 2009 Report Share Posted May 21, 2009 Nicole, I am soo sorry about your decision to leave the group. I'm confused about your comment about untrustworthy people...does this apply to the group members. I do believe we are all here to help one another on our journys. Love you to stay, but if you must leave...please join us again sometime soon. I hope your not throwing in the towel just as things may be getting better for you now. Please keep a positive outlook on finding a new place to live. Prayers for you to finding happiness and peace of mind. With Love and Blessings, Ernie , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > Good luck to all of you and god bless.I have given up on these untrustworthy people that are everywhere in my life.Nobody wants to help me.Good bye! > > Nicole > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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