Success with Locks, lonliness, fear, support during K

May 24, 2009

I have been going through nearly 12 years of my life since i had my awakening.. i was too young to comprehend what i had experienced, and it drove me into deep mental illness and depression.. this has been amazingly difficult to go through.. but here i am, and i kind of feel like i'm on the road to "waking up" again.. it just hurts a lot when your own parents, or friends, or anyone u basically interact with in society has no idea what the hell you are on about when you say "kundalini"... i swear most people i know must think i am insane.. its not like that though.. i was fortunate enough to have a brief insight into the unity of my soul, and for whatever reason, my kundalini was awakened.. i am wondering, are there many people out there with awakened kundalini energy? i would assume that most

fully conscious souls have their K awakened.. perhaps i'm wrong? what about successful fully alive, artists, actors, athletes? can u be fully alive, and still have dormant kundalini? hmmm.. one thing that has troubled me is the extreme fear i deal with on a day to day basis, due to the impact of the kundalini on my nervous system functions and subsequent relationship to my conscious self identification.. I have been depressed for years and years, and it really hurts sometimes, just the isolation that one goes through.. I have been so, so lost, but luckily i am alive.. i meditate with holosync from time to time, and i find this has stimulated my kundalini energy, and i feel many tremors and kriyas during meditation. However, since i meditated with "the locks" the other day, and kept my fingers in a mudra position, i feel i have made a leap forward in understanding myself.. the energy has been fully flowing through my body, and i feel so much more

conscious if that makes sense.. I usually fidget during meditation, however, with my tounge to the roof of my mouth, my hands in the mudra position, and my eyes looking upward above my third eye, i remained still for an entire hour, and felt myself spontaenously saying "aum", without any effort of my own. its amazing.. my body is charged with new energy.. its been such a lonely ride for me, i felt like reaching out.. its hard this trip when this energy has been unlocked within oneself.. thanks for your time, and if anybody wants to respond to my message, i'd appreciate it.. Raman.

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May 24, 2009

Hi Raman,

well, that's great you have found the group. Even though we dont see each other

physically, its still nice to know that there are other sane folks out there who

are also experiencing this.

I also found the journey very lonely, and by the time I found the group and

decided to reach out and start to become part of the community, I had already

been in K. awakening for about 3 years. It gets very lonely and tough inside the

awakening journey, and it may seem long and never ending. It did for me, at

least. Its kind of stable now, but still ongoing.. I had 'the poisonous snake

dream' again last night, so here we go again.. haha..

it used to hurt me a lot that no one understood and there was no one to talk to.

Eventually I gave up the need to be understood, yet when I do talk with one who

understands, its such a blessing and so nice to just expand into that space of

understanding with another..

and keep turning into the fear.. that which is aware of it, is free of it..

love and blessings

Bruce

, Raman Groom

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> I have been going through nearly 12 years of my life since i had my

awakening.. i was too young to comprehend what i had experienced, and it drove

me into deep mental illness and depression.. this has been amazingly difficult

to go through.. but here i am, and i kind of feel like i'm on the road to

" waking up " again.. it just hurts a lot when your own parents, or friends, or

anyone u basically interact with in society has no idea what the hell you are on

about when you say " kundalini " ... i swear most people i know must think i am

insane.. its not like that though.. i was fortunate enough to have a brief

insight into the unity of my soul, and for whatever reason, my kundalini was

awakened.. i am wondering, are there many people out there with awakened

kundalini energy? i would assume that most fully conscious souls have their K

awakened.. perhaps i'm wrong? what about successful fully alive, artists,

actors, athletes? can u be fully alive, and still have

> dormant kundalini? hmmm.. one thing that has troubled me is the extreme fear

i deal with on a day to day basis, due to the impact of the kundalini on my

nervous system functions and subsequent relationship to my conscious self

identification.. I have been depressed for years and years, and it really hurts

sometimes, just the isolation that one goes through.. I have been so, so lost,

but luckily i am alive.. i meditate with holosync from time to time, and i find

this has stimulated my kundalini energy, and i feel many tremors and kriyas

during meditation. However, since i meditated with " the locks " the other day,

and kept my fingers in a mudra position, i feel i have made a leap forward in

understanding myself.. the energy has been fully flowing through my body, and i

feel so much more conscious if that makes sense.. I usually fidget during

meditation, however, with my tounge to the roof of my mouth, my hands in the

mudra position, and my eyes looking

> upward above my third eye, i remained still for an entire hour, and felt

myself spontaenously saying " aum " , without any effort of my own. its amazing..

my body is charged with new energy.. its been such a lonely ride for me, i felt

like reaching out.. its hard this trip when this energy has been unlocked within

oneself.. thanks for your time, and if anybody wants to respond to my message,

i'd appreciate it.. Raman.

>

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May 24, 2009

Not as many are awakened as are unawakened, not by a long shot Raman.

But you have remained the " awakening you " that you are. And this is no easy task

in the unique and refining position that you have been in.

Family & friends of the " first you " will typically NOT understand and it may be

difficult for you and for them to have that expectation. We are here for you for

that. They can be seen as gentle and beautiful souls who are going through their

own polishing process and the love and kindness they extend to you can be

appreciated for the intention and honesty that they are given with. It is a pure

love and it can be received as it is given.

There are Kundalini active people in all walks of life, in all pforfessions and

physical expressions. Athletes and people in wheel chaires have the Kundalini as

it is beyond the mere Karma's that we are expressive of in this life even as it

encompasses and works within those parameters.

Kundalini in the awakened state is not something most people will talk about or

advertise as you know society will not be kind as it is such a difference and in

many ways an edge upon those in the unawakened state. This can cause fear. A

fear that is not needed yet is actuated regardless. So most wi;ll not and those

who do suffer the chemical or social constraints of that interaction. Not all do

though but many do have this occur.

You are among friends here Raman and you can basically speak your experiences

and your thoughts and the aspects of your awakening. We know and understand and

many of us have spent the lonely years as you have with this blessed condition

not knowing what it was or why it was and is. So we know how that can feel! -

lol.

It was your time to find this community and we are blessed by your presence

within it, within us. - blessings and love to you Raman.

Keep doing the locks and I know you know what is best for you but as a mere

suggestion more energy is not always the best path. Holotropic breathing can

stimulate more Kiundalini into the system. I will suggest that you find a way of

grounding that which is already flowing within rather than a constant form of

stimulation or adding to it. However you go my friend. - blessings go with you!

- chrism

May 25, 2009

Hi Raman,Where do you live if you dont mind me asking, perhaps you can find some group members to meet up with? Can really help.I know how lonely the spiritual k path can be, so many know nothing about it, but thats ok, most people know little about spiritual things anyway, tell most people you are telepathic and they look at you like you are mad! LOL Tell them you've seen a UFO and they grasp for logical ways to explain it away. "Oh it was a helicopter I'm sure". Thats life for you. We all have our own way to look at life and can choose what we let in and what we ignore.You have been blessed my a rare gift, and not many have it so you truly have been blessed. It is not an easy road, but one full of bliss and adventure.So pleased to know you and of your journey, you are not alone anymore, you have found your "family".....be

ever joyful, elektra x x x