God is fun!

[Guest guest]

I get so frustated recently. I did not know what was happening, I wanted to know

and there was nothing to find in all texts K-people have written, or on

internet, or in books, Shakti did not tell me. So I get very angry at my

yogateachers, all books, all religion, GOD, all wise man. I was very angry, sad,

alone. It felt like I was an on the path to GOD like a blind person, some freak.

 

The big child, the victim and the little human in me just cried for hours. I

felt jelaosy, greed, bitterness - all " awful " feelings you can imagine. I think

I was realy sinfull and thought that Shakti would be angry and furious at me.

But she did not, after some hours she start to paint the walls inside my aura

with cute animals with different bright colours. And she painted with my tears.

And I realised that I have reacted childish, with the ego, with very old stuff

from the uncounsiouness.

 

But somewhere in all that I found myself at ease, more loved than ever, and

safe, whole and healed. I realised I acted like a child who wanted to see if the

Mother should leave or stay, love or punish me and so on. But she stays, she

loves me, she caress for me in such a deep level I never been loved before. And

that is my big issue, she loves me so much and I am not used to get love. Now I

am drowning in it. She fills the void.

 

Next day she was a little bit harder when she walked me around in Eden. Every

time I was not aware, she stopped and turned me around so I did not miss a leaf

or a bird. I understand that she is all there is, and I have to vanish to melt

into her ocean. Understanding or not. This form is a creation of GOD, it is

perfect as it, all the other stuff is just for fun. GOD IS FUN!

 

Thank you for reading.

All my love and sanity

Nina

[Guest guest]

Hello Nina,

Yes sometimes we need to express in these ways. To release that which

has occurred, including frustrations, can mean to allow it to express in order

to be released.- lol. So the Kundalini Mother of course knows this and knows her

Child and allows for the past to become teachings of the present. - you give us

inspiration Nina! - chrism

 

, " framestone68 "

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> I get so frustated recently.

[Guest guest]

Bless you nina, you are so adorable I'm not suprised She loves you so very much, swim and drown in that love, drink it up and share it out.Love and blissever joyful elektra x x x