From Raman Groom

[Guest guest]

Some how this didnt make it to the group and Raman has suggested I post if for

him. - c

 

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I have been going through nearly 12 years of my life since i had my awakening..

i was too young to comprehend what i had experienced, and it drove me into deep

mental illness and depression.. this has been amazingly difficult to go

through.. but here i am, and i kind of feel like i'm on the road to " waking up "

again.. it just hurts a lot when your own parents, or friends, or anyone u

basically interact with in society has no idea what the hell you are on about

when you say " kundalini " ... i swear most people i know must think i am insane..

its not like that though.. i was fortunate enough to have a brief insight into

the unity of my soul, and for whatever reason, my kundalini was awakened.. i am

wondering, are there many people out there with awakened kundalini energy? i

would assume that most fully conscious souls have their K awakened.. perhaps i'm

wrong? what about successful fully alive, artists, actors, athletes? can u be

fully alive, and still have dormant kundalini? hmmm.. one thing that has

troubled me is the extreme fear i deal with on a day to day basis, due to the

impact of the kundalini on my nervous system functions and subsequent

relationship to my conscious self identification.. I have been depressed for

years and years, and it really hurts sometimes, just the isolation that one goes

through..

 

I have been so, so lost, but luckily i am alive.. i meditate with holosync from

time to time, and i find this has stimulated my kundalini energy, and i feel

many tremors and kriyas during meditation. However, since i meditated with " the

locks " the other day, and kept my fingers in a mudra position, i feel i have

made a leap forward in understanding myself..

 

the energy has been fully flowing through my body, and i feel so much more

conscious if that makes sense.. I usually fidget during meditation, however,

with my tounge to the roof of my mouth, my hands in the mudra position, and my

eyes looking upward above my third eye, i remained still for an entire hour, and

felt myself spontaenously saying " aum " , without any effort of my own.

 

its amazing.. my body is charged with new energy.. its been such a lonely ride

for me, i felt like reaching out.. its hard this trip when this energy has been

unlocked within oneself.. thanks for your time, and if anybody wants to respond

to my message, i'd appreciate it.. Raman.