Guest guest Posted May 26, 2009 Report Share Posted May 26, 2009 Hi chrism, Just thought I would give a little update. I cannot really tell that there is much difference in not doing any of the breathing exercises. I have not been able to have a good meditation for a long time and I guess there is a little bit decrease in phenomenas. The black dog dreams have returned. In the last one the dog bit me on the right wrist, there was no pain and I stayed calm, but the dream ending there. I also have not been doing the Tibetans all this time because of the neck, shoulder, and arm pain and headache in the 3rd eye area. I have a big ugly 3 inch scar on my right arm where I fell injured myself. It is slowly going away I hope. I have been having lots of tingles for several days now around my left knee, the knee that causes me to fall. I hope that means healing is taking place with my knee. Been working on forgiveness and trust. Also anger..James and I got in a bit of a fight, his trying to push those old buttons. I did get a little angry with him, but did not repress it, but talk the matter over with him the next morning when he was calmed down from throwing a fit, getting all out of sorts and blaming me for whatever, just because I was there. LOL! I've only been able to get back to the park to my scared place once more, mostly because of the trips for funerals. Two family members dying in one month is on the stressful side, especially my nephew's funeral. It was really sad and very emotional. Everytime I loose control and cry, the energy shoots to my head with lots of tingles and it feels like a vise squeezing my head and my 6th chakra area starts pulsing and aching. I have been putting off asking about taking part in shaktipat. The 3 months of no breathing exercises will not be up by the 12th of June or even the 21st. Can I do shaktipat without doing the chakra breathing or just do them for that week only? Or should I not even take part in shaktipat this time? I am hoping to get back in my routine and try to do the tibetans again, even though the neck pain is still vaguely there. I tried to meditate today, but could not get my mind off the funeral events of this past week. Please let me know if I can participate in shaktipat this time. Please don't tell me to ask Shakti's lips, because I have not even been seeing them...not being able to focus or meditate. I feel like I am in a fog all the time...I can't focus or think right. Oh yeah, I have not been able to eat much of anything without pain of some sort...it's either heartburn, cramps, skin breaking out with rashes, or mouth gets sore inside, with almost everthing except watermelon. My teeth have gotten better, though! Hehe! I am grateful my teeth have improved and are not so sensitive any more. I guess that is about it...if there is anything more, I guess it is not so important. Blessings & love, Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 26, 2009 Report Share Posted May 26, 2009 Go to the sacred place Linda. Go there and meditate. Nothing else. Let there be some more time for the normal feelings to return. Make your separations from the dearly departed in a way that honors the gifts of their lives and yet doesnt foment more grieving at their departure. I will let you know about the Shaktipat after a time though please feel free to remind me. - lol! - blessings Linda! - chrism , " Linda " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Hi chrism, > Just thought I would give a little update. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 27, 2009 Report Share Posted May 27, 2009 Ahh...that was the other thing I was wanting to write about. The second trip to my sacred place... it did not work out so good. I was only there maybe 5 minutes and the man who mows and manages the park showed up to mow the field behind me. It was very noisey and distracting. I could not leave, but had to wait until he finished mowing. Didn't want to go across that field with him mowing. I just set there and listened to the river gurgle a ways off and watched the three cows (one red, one white and one black) on the other side of the river grazing, while the fire ants and mosquitoes where trying to make a meal of me. LOL! The humidity was so high after the flooding and all, I was dripping in sweat. Hehe...a nature sauna! By the time the man finished mowing I was not in a meditating mood. I walked across the field with the intent to just leave and go home, but then I looked towards the woods and decide to take a walk there for a ways. As I walked into those woods I realized I was a little scared and that I had not been into the woods alone since I was a teenager! I did a walking meditating going back in time to why and when I became afraid of the woods. When I was a teenagers, there were reports of a black panther living in our woods, but it did not bother me any until one evening when it showed itself to us. Then there was the night I woke up and it was there at my open window, with nothing but a rusty wire window screen between me and it. I thought it was wanting me for it's meal. Anyways, I did walk for about a half mile into those woods even though people have reported seeing wildcats and coyotes there. While at the park on other ocassions I have heard the coyotes and even saw a couple of the bobtail wildcats. I was a little scared, but not too badly. I found the place in the river that was making the gurgling sounds. It looked like some homeless people may have camped out there at some time in the past. It was a lot more quiet and peaceful there than the place I pick out for my sacred spot, but it was not as pretty. I think it would do me some good to walk more in the woods to get over being scared to be there, but right now I don't think I could meditate there. I would be jumping at every little sound. Hehe. I am going to make it part of my routine of going for a walk there first and then go back to my sacred place to meditate. Chrism, I will try to make it back to my sacred place soon, but have a lot of catch-up things to get done for now and I am going on another trip the end of next week. A family and old friends reunion this time rather than a funeral. It will be at the little country church where I first gave my life to Jesus when I was only 6 years old. blessings & love Linda , " chrism " <> wrote: > > Go to the sacred place Linda. Go there and meditate. Nothing else. Let there be some more time for the normal feelings to return. Make your separations from the dearly departed in a way that honors the gifts of their lives and yet doesnt foment more grieving at their departure. I will let you know about the Shaktipat after a time though please feel free to remind me. - lol! - blessings Linda! - chrism > > , " Linda " <crazycats711@> wrote: > > > > Hi chrism, > > Just thought I would give a little update. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 27, 2009 Report Share Posted May 27, 2009 What a gift! The panther coming to say sweet dreams! Panthers do not usually make those kinds of house calls. - blessings to you Linda. - chrism , " Linda " <crazycats711 wrote: > When I was a teenagers, there were reports of a black panther living in our woods, but it did not bother me any until one evening when it showed itself to us. Then there was the night I woke up and it was there at my open window, with nothing but a rusty wire window screen between me and it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 27, 2009 Report Share Posted May 27, 2009 I guess I need to meditate and go back in time and thank the panther for it's gift of a visit. At the time I was scared out of my wits and thought it wanted me for supper. I have alway had a fascination with large cats. Whenever I go to the zoo that is my favorite animal to observe. We have two large tigers here at the zoo in Victoria, not for from the location of my sacred place... just around the road a ways. I think I will go there and spends some time with them soon.. Linda , " chrism " <> wrote: > > What a gift! The panther coming to say sweet dreams! Panthers do not usually make those kinds of house calls. - blessings to you Linda. - chrism > > , " Linda " <crazycats711@> wrote: > > When I was a teenagers, there were reports of a black panther living in our woods, but it did not bother me any until one evening when it showed itself to us. Then there was the night I woke up and it was there at my open window, with nothing but a rusty wire window screen between me and it. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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