releasing energy? - trust the process

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Hey Craig,

 

yep, its one of my dilemmas too.. if i dont do it, will it get done? lol...

where I am now with this is first, seeing things as being okay just how they

are, and I am already ok, and dont need to make changes in my world to be

okay... with this frame, I can distinguish if my motivation is egoic or from the

Authentic Self. If its egoic, then I become convinced that my happiness lies

elsewhere, in the future or the past... (thats the great search.. haha).. and

the more i get that there is a much deeper intelligence that runs the show and

runs through me, and I am really nothing more than a process with a soul print

on it..well,, the more I trust the process..

 

that said, I will feel a creative impulse to do something, and if my body is

'Gods verb' and I allow God to act through me, then I become an instrument,

taking action towards an inspired outcome, yet remaining free from the outcome

and working with attachments as they arise... (which is a lot easier said that

done... and getting the hang of 'meaningful action without being caught up in

the outcome' is a wonderfully tricky puzzle...)

 

for me, the creative impulse may manifest for a period in a drive to practice

something for a while...

 

love and release

Bruce

 

, " kundaflame "

<kundaflame wrote:

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> ahha! I don't trust the process. I feel like if I don't keep 'doing'

something, then nothing will ever get done. It's partially true, it needs to be

balanced with trusting and surrender.

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> craig

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> , " kundaflame "

<kundaflame@> wrote:

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> > thanks Bruce,

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> > Never even crossed my mind to cut back, lol. When I first started I was

doing the whole Big Mind process for at least 5 times a week! I have such a

drive, so much so that I barely get rest. Well at least I'm becoming more and

more aware of it now, instead of being totally lost in it. Integration period, I

believe you said to someone before that the best part of banging your head on

the wall is when you stop, lol! I keep banging my head, and it feels such a

great relief to stop and rest. (I guess the main voice that arises during my day

is somewhere between the seeking mind and the mind that seeks the way).

Hmmm...I'll have to sit back and see if there are any shadow elements involved,

have a feeling there are.

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> > Haven't tried the focus intensity training yet besides in the 3 body

workout. I'll have a look and see what it's about.

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> > namaste

> > craig

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> > , " bruce_oom "

<bruce_oom@> wrote:

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> > > Hi Craig,

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> > > from my experience, I found that blocks were released. I also found that

an integration period is useful, and if you have been doing that much voice

dialogue, maybe give it a break for a month or so and just notice what voices

and responses arise naturally through the day.

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> > > You can keep pushing through and intensifying the energy (do you ever do

Focus Intensity Training?).. I found that the same principle of physical

training applies, of focusing the energy into a specific contraction,exccept

here its one of the ego voices that is 'the contraction'..

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> > > take care

> > > Bruce

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> > > , " kundaflame "

<kundaflame@> wrote:

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> > > > I've been doing voice dialog and shadow reintegration techniques for a

while (shadow for a month and voice dialog for at least 3 months) and one thing

that has never eased up is the intensity of energy I feel the more I can

identify with a perspective and in a sense put the self aside for a short time.

The more I can step into and become a voice (say anger, fear, the damaged self,

the protector, etc), the more instense the energy to where it's painful at

times. Then it gets really hard to concentrate on that voice and go deeper into

it, and the only thing that's in my awareness is this intense energy going up my

spine and into my heart and brain (more so in my brain). Whats going on here? am

I releasing blocks by shifting perspectives? It's really intense and hasn't let

up since beginning voice dialog (I do it about once a week). Sometimes I can

push through, but other times I'm just staying as present as I can be through

this heat and intensity...

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> > > > Craig

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