Guest guest Posted May 28, 2009 Report Share Posted May 28, 2009 Hey guys, been a while since I last posted but have been focusing on a lot of personal changes. Hope everyone is well! I have been tussling with the idea of God in my mind of late. This is the part of this process thats been the biggest change for me. I have for many years " prided " myself on a very logcial and scientific approach to life, shunning the idea of God and religion with a whole barrage of well thought out arguments. Im sure you've met the type! Well, to find myself suddenly having such a u-turn in thoughts and belief has resulted in me having to look closely again at my beliefs and thoughts and to rethink everything I thought I knew. The problem it has left me with is identifying with God. I don't know where to start. I feel false praying when I dont know who Im praying to. I feel like Im writing to someone Ive never met before and I feel like a fraud after so many years of rejecting the idea of prayer. This post isn't a question, nor is it me asking for an answer. Im guessing I need to just open myself up and see where my own feelings take me. But Im interested to see how other people feel and if they encountered similar feelings when they were suddenly presented with the concept of Kundalini in their lives? Love to you all and my best wishes Andy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 28, 2009 Report Share Posted May 28, 2009 Hi andy. This concept is new to me also but i feel so so blessed to even have the knowledge and proof, that god the creator whatever is real. how blessed am i that in this lifetime i even have the knowledge that god is real. I wear rosary beads and have bought a bible and yet i do not consider myself a christian. i think jesus was just another one of the enlightened ones. only now when reading the bible am i seeing things that i feel make sense in the kundalini terms. I knew when i was younger that religion was not for me and ive allways said to myself " stand back, and see the bigger picture " Its strange because as i walk around the supermarket buying my vegetables i still do not think i am a vegetarian, even though i feel i will never eat meat again. the same goes for kundalini and god, i still dont feel religous i just feel lucky to know the truth. people spend all there life and many lifetimes wanting to know just to have an ounce of proof and yet all my life i have been given truths and proof of that there is more. One of the things that i have found most profound is prayer. and yet as i still dont consider myself a christian prayer has been the most touching thing i have experianced. when i pray for others and myself and forive i can just feel my heart chakra melt and go menthol. when i pray in forgiveness i feel as if i slip into a meditation really quickly and then i start picking away at the woven basket that is my sins or things that weigh me down. One of the biggest things that i was drawn to before the awakening started was science and physics. i would listen to hours of university lectures on weird stuff like string theory and quantum stuff. certain things would just make the hairs stand up over my body and water come to my eyes with the realisation. The double slit experiment, dual particle reality. I felt like telling everyone i knew about it and saying HOW PROFOUND how can this not have an effect on the way you view life??? but there is no point people dont really want to know. I feel like when i am praying i am praying to the intelligent highest vibration. i rememeber waiting for a bus one night after a late shift looking at the chart of the electromagnetic spectrum, i could not beleive it after not paying much attention at school about science. radiowaves, sound , microwaves, and on and on and on...infinate. just mind melting but so profound that going home and watching soap operas on tv with my housemates just didnt cut the mustard with me. How lucky that you know that god/creator/highest vibration is real and knows you. talk to him. In fact im glad i can actually talk to christians about god now it has sort of opened up more doors for me lol! love and blessings to all mark in london yes i ramble on... , " andyrpreston " <andyrpreston wrote: > > > This post isn't a question, nor is it me asking for an answer. Im guessing I need to just open myself up and see where my own feelings take me. But Im interested to see how other people feel and if they encountered similar feelings when they were suddenly presented with the concept of Kundalini in their lives? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 28, 2009 Report Share Posted May 28, 2009 God can be whomever you want him/her/she/it to be..............He/She/Her/It will reveal himself/herself/itself to you when you truly seek.............. Blessings on this journey inside yourself. You will not find God outside yourself, no matter how many churches/cathedrals/trees/rocks you visit............God is INdwelling.........Inside you.... Namaste, and excited for your journey.............. Julie --- On Thu, 5/28/09, andyrpreston <andyrpreston wrote: andyrpreston <andyrpreston God or, a god? Thursday, May 28, 2009, 4:17 PM Hey guys, been a while since I last posted but have been focusing on a lot of personal changes. Hope everyone is well! I have been tussling with the idea of God in my mind of late. This is the part of this process thats been the biggest change for me. I have for many years " prided " myself on a very logcial and scientific approach to life, shunning the idea of God and religion with a whole barrage of well thought out arguments. Im sure you've met the type! Well, to find myself suddenly having such a u-turn in thoughts and belief has resulted in me having to look closely again at my beliefs and thoughts and to rethink everything I thought I knew. The problem it has left me with is identifying with God. I don't know where to start. I feel false praying when I dont know who Im praying to. I feel like Im writing to someone Ive never met before and I feel like a fraud after so many years of rejecting the idea of prayer. This post isn't a question, nor is it me asking for an answer. Im guessing I need to just open myself up and see where my own feelings take me. But Im interested to see how other people feel and if they encountered similar feelings when they were suddenly presented with the concept of Kundalini in their lives? Love to you all and my best wishes Andy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 29, 2009 Report Share Posted May 29, 2009 Really interesting responses. I think you're very much right in that I need to find god inside of me, and maybe need to not look for anything in particular, but just look. Mark, I can completely tune in to what you are saying. You sound like you have come from the same line of thinking but are now much further down the path than I am! Gives me a lot of reassurance Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 30, 2009 Report Share Posted May 30, 2009 Hi Andy, I studied science and grew up in a traditional church, then for a long time had no relationship. I like what craig wrote about the 3-2-1 of God.. its an approach using perspectives that resonates with me and which I uses a lot, trying to move through all three. Part of the implications of the 3-2-1 of God is that if all perspectives aren't taken, they become disowned and arise as shadow material.. anyway, back to your questions. I rejected God for a long time, and the way I figured on reflection is that I was just stuck in my little ego thinking I was the center of the world and it was all about me.. lol.. and thats all part of the game, to wake up.. and God is always waiting for us to turn to Him again... I sometimes wish I had something concrete to relate to. I wish that Jesus was there hovering over my bed at night and we could have a real chat and get away from all this faith and syncronicity and live the mystery stuff.. haha.. so when I do pray, I just imagine supportive beings and Christ being near, and I just trust that I am heard... The K. process has taken me through stages, of being taken into the void where there is just nothing except a voice saying 'I AM', of feeling the bed of love that powers the uuniverse and me, of experiencing the LIght that shines behind all things, and a bunch of other experiences. I am at a point where I feel united with God, and I know, without a doubt, that God responds to me, through countless ways if I am open. I just stopped wondering if I was heard, and I realized that I am heard. It wasnt a smooth journey reaching that point of knowing.. lol.. I feel that my second person relationship with Christ is one of relating to a presence. I had some dreams, one of which I went into the Masters Chambers. Christ was outside, and he washed my feet before entry. On entry, there was water flowing inside, and the Master was in a grand room. I didnt see Him; there was just a presence, of magnificent benevolence, of tremendous power and I was humbled into reverence. One of the prayers I do then is to try and call on that presence, to see and feel it again and to try and merge with it, contemplating it and if I get distracted, to offer my distraction to God and then return to the presence. Thats my prayer, a prayer of union. Other times I simply pray from my gut and from my heart, and I pray as if I am talking to my closest friend in the world and i know I am heard... If you ask God for something with which to relate to Him or Her with, he will respond to your need... some lines from Rumi come to mind.. 'My heart has burned with passion and has searched forever for this wondrous beauty I now behold'.. love and blessings Bruce , " andyrpreston " <andyrpreston wrote: > > Hey guys, been a while since I last posted but have been focusing on a lot of personal changes. Hope everyone is well! > > I have been tussling with the idea of God in my mind of late. This is the part of this process thats been the biggest change for me. I have for many years " prided " myself on a very logcial and scientific approach to life, shunning the idea of God and religion with a whole barrage of well thought out arguments. Im sure you've met the type! > > Well, to find myself suddenly having such a u-turn in thoughts and belief has resulted in me having to look closely again at my beliefs and thoughts and to rethink everything I thought I knew. > > The problem it has left me with is identifying with God. I don't know where to start. I feel false praying when I dont know who Im praying to. I feel like Im writing to someone Ive never met before and I feel like a fraud after so many years of rejecting the idea of prayer. > > This post isn't a question, nor is it me asking for an answer. Im guessing I need to just open myself up and see where my own feelings take me. But Im interested to see how other people feel and if they encountered similar feelings when they were suddenly presented with the concept of Kundalini in their lives? > > Love to you all and my best wishes > > Andy > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2009 Report Share Posted May 31, 2009 Hey Andy, I enjoyed the responses to your original questions...there's always a lot that we can learn about " God " , " The Source " , " The One " , etc...it's a matter on how you accept and bring it into your life. I like Craig's comments... they read nicely and can easily be implemented. As I read your post, the book series " Conversations with God " , by came to mind. It's a three book series that discussed a very wide spectrum of questions from Creation to " I AM " . If you haven't already read it, I think that it would make a really good read for you (IMHO)...take it any context that fits your life...just remember " Everything is a metaphor to all of us. The meaning of the metaphor will be experienced and interpreted differently to everyone based on their own reality " For me, I experienced God at first hand and hold the experiences close to my heart. When I pray I open up a dialogue with God and just wait to hear what comes from it... " We are all Creators " . I also believe that God is within us...the inner world is far greater than the outer world and I believe this is where we start our search. Be Well, Ernie , " andyrpreston " <andyrpreston wrote: > > Hey guys, been a while since I last posted but have been focusing on a lot of personal changes. Hope everyone is well! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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