re: checking in after shaktipat

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Had a phone session with with a mini shaktipat to see about readiness for

the upcoming solstice. I'm feeling really good. Woke in the middle of the

night with a sharp pain in my right lower rib cage but breathed into it and it

went away. When I had a massage today, the guy found that my whole lower rib

cage, diaghram was more open. I feel happy. Went and climbed a mountain near

my new place in the am that overlooks the city. Its really beautiful.

 

In talking to Chrism, my work has been in connecting with the sacred male.

After my activation almost three years ago, I pulled in. There was a rightness

to that. Now I feel a desire to move out some, connect with people,

particularly men. My K wants that for me. Its as if I feel like a whole new

person doing this. I met a guy on the mountain today. I'm having a lot of

awareness thats coming about the rupture I have with the masculine. I love male

playful energy but at a fairly early age, I lost my three male playmates within

a years period, one to leukemia, another that was sent off by racist graffiti,

and another turned his affections to another girl. I've guarded my heart for a

very long time. I'm feeling ever so ready to walk through whatever I'm supposed

to to heal but I can't do it by my lonesome.

 

As for my physical energy, I feel great after the shaktipat. Will keep you

posted. I think I found a new sacred spot. I tried it out yesterday & plan to

go the next few days to see if it feels right.

Love and blessings,

Jan