Guest guest Posted June 9, 2009 Report Share Posted June 9, 2009 I feel off today. I am easily irritated today and with my research that is the blockage of the third eye. I feel awkward and lackluster. I can't see very well and all I see is glitter. Everything is hazy. This started when I first opened my eyes today. I cant focus. I feel like I am in the middle of something that I can't articulate. I feel connected but confused. I have little patience for others like " Hurry up and talk... I know what you are saying. Or just stop talking " I can't explain myself today. Like my question on the 5 Tibetans. Oh I give up! lol I feel like I am having a hard time discerning the breakthrough that is about to occur. About a lot. But I am quick in intelligence and have no patience for superfluous thought. I am stuck in the middle of something. Or in between. I don't know how to explain. I am sad but happy. My bullshit meter is going off times a million. I don't feel like any phenomenon is of interest to me anymore and I am apathetic. I really just want to go to my own private beach and meditate but I can't. I have responsibilities. I've had this feeling before. Like something is happening and I need to be patient. All of this mystical crap is such bullshit to me now because it is insignificant. I no longer am in a world of wonder. Since the beginning of this experience I was washed away by wonder. Now it has less meaning. Like all of this wonder was just ignorance. Like it is so simple whats the big deal. My ego has silenced herself and is in her own little world. Wherever that is. I cannot find her. I really don't care to anyways. I just see she has left. Nothing holds my interest at this point. Can anyone relate with this part of the experience. I can't articulate very well right now. I can't focus. I am sorry if I seem hostile today but I am in a very weird place. -Tiffany Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2009 Report Share Posted June 9, 2009 LOL!!! After I posted that email something happened and The block is gone! I can't explain it. I closed my eyes, the wind blew something fierce. I am changing at this very moment. Anyways... just wanted to update. And ouch the top of my head is burning lol. -Tiffany , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: > > I feel off today. I am easily irritated today and with my research that is the blockage of the third eye. I feel awkward and lackluster. I can't see very well and all I see is glitter. Everything is hazy. This started when I first opened my eyes today. I cant focus. I feel like I am in the middle of something that I can't articulate. I feel connected but confused. I have little patience for others like " Hurry up and talk... I know what you are saying. Or just stop talking " I can't explain myself today. Like my question on the 5 Tibetans. Oh I give up! lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2009 Report Share Posted June 9, 2009 LOL! Its a wild ride Tiffany. - blessings and smiles! - chrism , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: And ouch the top of my head is burning lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2009 Report Share Posted June 9, 2009 Namaste dear Tiffany glad it all worked it's way up. .maybe K Mama was just burping her baby? love and light sparrow , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: > > LOL!!! After I posted that email something happened and The block is gone! > > I can't explain it. I closed my eyes, the wind blew something fierce. I am changing at this very moment. Anyways... just wanted to update. And ouch the top of my head is burning lol. > > -Tiffany > > > > > , " angelikdementia " angelikdementia@ wrote: > > > > I feel off today. I am easily irritated today and with my research that is the blockage of the third eye. I feel awkward and lackluster. I can't see very well and all I see is glitter. Everything is hazy. This started when I first opened my eyes today. I cant focus. I feel like I am in the middle of something that I can't articulate. I feel connected but confused. I have little patience for others like " Hurry up and talk... I know what you are saying. Or just stop talking " I can't explain myself today. Like my question on the 5 Tibetans. Oh I give up! lol > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Dear Tiff, I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. Its just another phase, I just got out and about in the fresh air, stayed away from people who wanted to chat, switched the internet off. Then I watched some really funny TV series called " my name is earl " and had a nice shower, did extra yoga and meditation and lots of herbal tea. x x x hope it passes x x xlove e. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned to a fight or flight syndrome. I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the energy fills the pieces. If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused. But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves. I know this and I can't turn back. All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away, showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary and comforting at the same time. I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before. I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of spiritual vertigo. I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower and watch something amusing. I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard to get grounded again. Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a field of snakes. -Tiffany , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Tiff, > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > Its just another phase, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 HI All! Been doing my stuff and lots more meditation than ever before, reading your messages or as many as I have time for. Two things; what does Nameste mean? I have been reading around this awakening subject and noticed it comes up a few times. Also I am not getting any amazing physical stuff that many of you describe, but I have never been one to be ill or particularly negative and have been working with natural energies for a while now, so maybe my physical changes are small and regular so have become my normal. Lets hope so, though I did have twp really bad headaches in Feb, never had anything like it, then they were gone, and as I dont really get headaches gone for good I expect. However I do believe I am being helped in my present financial and survival and feel part of something and I think if it wasnt for my belief that we are all linked and loved, I dont know where I would be because the last year is just one challenge after another and there is no let up. So thanks all on earth and around. Second thing, I am assuming that Kundalini is open to anyone no matter what has occured in thier past? Good or bad or even very bad. Many people have said about the awakening it has helped them deal with any psycological problems they thought they had or were diagnosed with and I am thinking it may help this person to understand why he has done what he did. This is our own journey and we are not to judge others and I am just a catalyst to help others find the way. Would I be on the right track? Hugs all. --- On Wed, 10/6/09, angelikdementia <angelikdementia wrote: angelikdementia <angelikdementia Re: Frustrated!!! Wednesday, 10 June, 2009, 5:25 PM Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned to a fight or flight syndrome. I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the energy fills the pieces. If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused. But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves. I know this and I can't turn back. All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away, showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary and comforting at the same time. I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before. I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of spiritual vertigo. I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower and watch something amusing. I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard to get grounded again. Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a field of snakes. -Tiffany Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire@ ...> wrote: > > Dear Tiff, > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > Its just another phase, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 One thing that happens is that we have 2/3/4 issues all coming up to transmute at the same time.........these are running side by side. It can make life tense. It will go in phases and not always be like this. Richard Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network angelikdementia <angelikdementia Wed, 10 Jun 2009 17:25:56 Re: Frustrated!!! Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned to a fight or flight syndrome. I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the energy fills the pieces. If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused. But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves. I know this and I can't turn back. All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away, showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary and comforting at the same time. I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before. I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of spiritual vertigo. I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower and watch something amusing. I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard to get grounded again. Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a field of snakes. -Tiffany Kundalini-Awakening <%40> -Systems-1 , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Tiff, > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > Its just another phase, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Namaste dear Tiffany please be gentle with yourself. . .and know your presence with the group is so very delightful. I have great respect for how you bring so much vitality to each and every post that you bring forth. . .that passion and vitality is a beautiful gift. . . that intensity will take you far and your ability to put things on the table and speak from such a place of honesty about your awakening is refreshing and courageous. . . please don't feel like you owe an apology for you are demonstrating what so many of us have or have gone through and you have the authenticity to " what i am is what other's will see and receive. " Surely that is a large part of the journey; I Am that I Am starts with exactly where you are this day and each time you speak from places of such honestly you are bringing the light forward. . .I really like who you are and the way you are Tiffany. . .. another thing i see really healthy about you i will try to explain. . . years ago i worked with a dear psychiatrist that had started up the PTSD treatment hospitals for Vietnam Vets. . .and one day in supervision he remarked; " The inability to withstand ambiguity leads to splitting. " That one sentence became a textbook of instruciton for me on the spiritual path. truly being a child of K Ma we take each step with a certain amount of ambiguity in the unknowing of what will come next. . .Tiffany you have so clearly shown that when you dive in with such a beautiful strong life force and encounter all the unknowing that you have the ability to experience and then you bounce right back up and be ready for the next dive into the unknown without living in a split " You show us each time that you have a deep inter alignment with what is self-correcting and healing. . .you are a gift to each of us. . .You have the soundness to hit the wall and then get back up and try again without splitting from yourself or others, this is deeply sense about you Tiffany. truly yesterday i had the feeling that energetically that K Ma was bringing up a constricted pocket of clearning that felt like when a large amount of energy that to be moved upward and cleared out. . . what you went through this weekend with the experience with you Mom and family was really intense. . .and one of the things i have noticed is you ar very intelligent and might have a tendency to do the head piece first, and then because you can grasp that so quickly it can seem a bit surprising when the other layers start to work their way to release, such as tender, hurt, and vunerable that might be under the more easily accessible anger that becomes evoked by the traumatic interaction such as with your Mom. . . so it might be helpful to just see if you can identify a pattern of how you deal with issues. . .for example this weekend; what came first? Fear because of the concern of your children and sister, then maybe anger, then anger signaled you into the mental, and you pushed through to setting boundaries and also declaring a strong intent for forgiveness. . .????. . .just some observation that may fit or not?. . ..so there may be issues of third chakra that got evoked that has to do with the how you feel about yourself, and also embracing the more vunerable feelings of sadness, abandoment, rejection, and lack of loving connection with your Mom's heart these days???? Forgivenss takes times and whatever feelings you are having these days are important to embrace in each layer, for in their revealing you will find nuggets of gold. . . Perhaps what Ma is telling you is that at times with spiritual principles and concepts that they can put us into a spiritual straight jacket if we claim them before the entire process had cleared? Awareness. . .expression . . .containment. . .So very often spiritual we try to go from awareness to containment and then find it leaves us with spiritual bypass. . .and sure enough Ma has to take us through the whole process again. . . K Ma does such a deep cleansing. Once i could deal with things from the mental plane and because i was more cut off from my body, and emotions, and things would seem resolved by the mental, whereas once K Ma was activated she leaves no floor or level unswept. . .i believe. . . Ma is working very strongly with you these days and doing deep cleansing, this too shall pass, and there will be much goodness and beauty brought forth. . . Tiffany just my 2 cents worth. . . and may or may not be a reflection of your own deep knowing. . ..and what does not fit just sweep it along with the other that is being cleared these days. . .I just get the feeling that vunerability is a frightening space for you dear Sister, and that vunerability is truly your greatest strength. . . .In the past you probably where in situations where your vunerability may not of been honored and it was very appropriate to layer up. . .but here i trust and claim that we will not knowingly hurt you or step on your goodness. . .we want the very best for you. . . often time with K Ma the passages will energetically follow the birthing phases that you have known with the birthing of your children. . .and often times when the baby is moving through the birth cannal there can be a real sense of disorientation. . .and truly to the infant it must seem more like a deathing. . .before the light is revealed. .. dear Sister, you have what it takes to withstand ambiguity. . .this is trust. .. . love and light ordinary sparrow , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: > > Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned to a fight or flight syndrome. > > I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the energy fills the pieces. > > If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused. But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves. I know this and I can't turn back. > > All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away, showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary and comforting at the same time. > > I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before. > > I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of spiritual vertigo. > > I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower and watch something amusing. > > I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard to get grounded again. > > Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a field of snakes. > > -Tiffany > > > > , Elektra Fire elektra.fire@ wrote: > > > > Dear Tiff, > > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > > Its just another phase, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 We are blessed by your process dear Tiffany! You are the mirror for those who are also in this process and the teachings that you give through the actions and experience of your process upon your ego and your emotional body is as a reminder and a premonition and a validation for those who are walking towards, walking upon and have walked this sacred path. Thank you Tiffany and hold fast dear friend! , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: > > Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Nfamaste dear Caroline [0] <http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_kirlK7AfRHM/SjAPFXSioBI/AAAAAAAAA1Q/Tyq2GULt-\ 64/s1600-h/namaste+two.jpg> [0] <http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_kirlK7AfRHM/SjAPFitlYFI/AAAAAAAAA1Y/Q5O1aqMRS\ dQ/s1600-h/namaste2spiral.jpg> and here is a very through article on the meaning of Namaste http://www.exoticindiaart.com/article/namaste/ <http://www.exoticindiaart.com/article/namaste/> it was good to read your post and sure that will be able to help you on the other issue. love and light sparrow , Caroline Weekes <island.babe wrote: > > HI All! Been doing my stuff and lots more meditation than ever before, reading your messages or as many as I have time for. Two things; what does Nameste mean? I have been reading around this awakening subject and noticed it comes up a few times. Also I am not getting any amazing physical stuff that many of you describe, but I have never been one to be ill or particularly negative and have been working with natural energies for a while now, so maybe my physical changes are small and regular so have become my normal. Lets hope so, though I did have twp really bad headaches in Feb, never had anything like it, then they were gone, and as I dont really get headaches gone for good I expect. However I do believe I am being helped in my present financial and survival and feel part of something and I think if it wasnt for my belief that we are all linked and loved, I dont know where I would be because the last year is just one challenge after another > and there is no let up. So thanks all on earth and around. > > Second thing, I am assuming that Kundalini is open to anyone no matter what has occured in thier past? Good or bad or even very bad. Many people have said about the awakening it has helped them deal with any psycological problems they thought they had or were diagnosed with and I am thinking it may help this person to understand why he has done what he did. This is our own journey and we are not to judge others and I am just a catalyst to help others find the way. Would I be on the right track? > > Hugs all. > > --- On Wed, 10/6/09, angelikdementia angelikdementia wrote: > > angelikdementia angelikdementia > Re: Frustrated!!! > > Wednesday, 10 June, 2009, 5:25 PM > > > > > > > > > > > Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned to a fight or flight syndrome. > > > > I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the energy fills the pieces. > > > > If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused. But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves. I know this and I can't turn back. > > > > All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away, showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary and comforting at the same time. > > > > I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before. > > > > I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of spiritual vertigo. > > > > I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower and watch something amusing. > > > > I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard to get grounded again. > > > > Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a field of snakes. > > > > -Tiffany > > > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire@ ...> wrote: > > > > > > Dear Tiff, > > > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > > > Its just another phase, > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Hi Dear Elektra, I know the programme " My Name Is Earl " is not Kundalini related but it can tell you a lot about a man trying to erase his Karma. It's one of mine and J's favourite programmes. Blessings, Skydancer x , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Tiff, > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what. > Its just another phase, I just got out and about in the fresh air, stayed away from people who wanted to chat, switched the internet off. Then I watched some really funny TV series called " my name is earl " and had a nice shower, did extra yoga and meditation and lots of herbal tea. x x x hope it passes x x xlove e. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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