Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Hi Chrism, Right from the day my K started, there has been a constant animation. With my mind's eye, I observe the energy fluctuations moving past here and there - on top of the head,neck etc. When I am silent or I sit down for a class in the school, I am forced to observe these vibrations on top of the head - as they become more perceivable when I am silent. While I am talking to other people, I am consciously aware of the inner process going on - even though I do not heed attention to this. While I listen to the lectures, I am soon drawn back to the inner world to observe the inner happenings. At times, the energy vibrations, flutters make my attention suddenly go inside and make me wonder what is happening. The feeling to observe this is wonderful as if I am in a constant meditation. Though I am sitting in the lecture class, I am watching the internal process with my mind;s eye and hence am always internal and am absent in this external world. Hence, I am not able to concentrate/listen in the class. I am mostly physically present in the class. My focus/attention is internal and on the internal process. I wouldnt tell that I force my attention on this activity but it happens automatically. With my eyes open, though my physical eyes see the teacher, my mind's eye is always on this activity. I have also realized that true surrender is to merge constantly into the activity, when you just become the spectator - then there is no thought,nothing. But this is posing harm to my class lectures and hence I am losing out on grades. Kundalini also makes me intensely dispassionate and I have lost the sense of competition, and hence my ability to perform has come down. Books like " The magic of thinking big " , " Think and Grow rich " fail to re-charge me nowadays. I have become self content and not able to plan for my future. I have been a university 5th ranker and won many state level competitions in academics/music and got admit in a top business school. But the K activity is posing a heavy challenge to my studies. Any suggestions please ? Thanks, Skoogle. Bollywood news, movie reviews, film trailers and more! Go to http://in.movies./ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Hope you don't mind my suggestion, but what helped me through school was taping the lecture and listening to it later. blessings - christine -- In , Skoogle Msb <skoogle_msb wrote: > > Hi Chrism, > > Right from the day my K started, there has been a constant animation. > With my mind's eye, I observe the energy fluctuations moving past here and there - on top of the head,neck etc. > When I am silent or I sit down for a class in the school, I am forced to observe these vibrations on top of the head - as they become more perceivable when I am silent. > While I am talking to other people, I am consciously aware of the inner process going on - even though I do not heed attention to this. > While I listen to the lectures, I am soon drawn back to the inner world to observe the inner happenings. > At times, the energy vibrations, flutters make my attention suddenly go inside and make me wonder what is happening. > The feeling to observe this is wonderful as if I am in a constant meditation. > Though I am sitting in the lecture class, I am watching the internal process with my mind;s eye and hence am always internal and am absent in this external world. > Hence, I am not able to concentrate/listen in the class. I am mostly physically present in the class. > My focus/attention is internal and on the internal process. I wouldnt tell that I force my attention on this activity but it happens automatically. > With my eyes open, though my physical eyes see the teacher, my mind's eye is always on this activity. > I have also realized that true surrender is to merge constantly into the activity, when you just become the spectator - then there is no thought,nothing. > But this is posing harm to my class lectures and hence I am losing out on grades. > Kundalini also makes me intensely dispassionate and I have lost the sense of competition, and hence my ability to perform has come down. > Books like " The magic of thinking big " , " Think and Grow rich " fail to re-charge me nowadays. > I have become self content and not able to plan for my future. > I have been a university 5th ranker and won many state level competitions in academics/music and got admit in a top business school. > But the K activity is posing a heavy challenge to my studies. > Any suggestions please ? > > Thanks, > Skoogle. > > > > Bollywood news, movie reviews, film trailers and more! Go to http://in.movies./ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2009 Report Share Posted June 10, 2009 Kundalini is far beyond what the modern day classroom can offer or the rewards of an excellent education. This is GOD my friend. This is the divine source of all that is! There is no modern day or man made equivalent. There should be of course but in " this " society on " this " day on " this " world there is none. Your knowledge base is about to expand far beyond the parameters of didactic scientific based discourse. For you dear friend a time of inner education of a divine quality will begin, as you have described, to overtake your outward conscious ego based education. This will cause you some inner turmoil as so much has been given and directed for your success inside of the " normal " scholastic expectations and achievement. Surrender dear Skoogle. Surrender to the DIVINE IMPERATIVE. This is my suggestion for you at this time. Complete as much of your physical education as you can and then retreat into the arms of Krishna of Shakti of Shiva. Of the sacred trinity of which you are the sacred child. Hari Hari Krishna Krishna. - blessings, love and many blessings to you Skoogle. - chrism , Skoogle Msb <skoogle_msb wrote: > > Hi Chrism, > > Right from the day my K started, there has been a constant animation. > With my mind's eye, I observe the energy fluctuations moving past here and there - on top of the head,neck etc. > When I am silent or I sit down for a class in the school, I am forced to observe these vibrations on top of the head - as they become more perceivable when I am silent. > While I am talking to other people, I am consciously aware of the inner process going on - even though I do not heed attention to this. > While I listen to the lectures, I am soon drawn back to the inner world to observe the inner happenings. > At times, the energy vibrations, flutters make my attention suddenly go inside and make me wonder what is happening. > The feeling to observe this is wonderful as if I am in a constant meditation. > Though I am sitting in the lecture class, I am watching the internal process with my mind;s eye and hence am always internal and am absent in this external world. > Hence, I am not able to concentrate/listen in the class. I am mostly physically present in the class. > My focus/attention is internal and on the internal process. I wouldnt tell that I force my attention on this activity but it happens automatically. > With my eyes open, though my physical eyes see the teacher, my mind's eye is always on this activity. > I have also realized that true surrender is to merge constantly into the activity, when you just become the spectator - then there is no thought,nothing. > But this is posing harm to my class lectures and hence I am losing out on grades. > Kundalini also makes me intensely dispassionate and I have lost the sense of competition, and hence my ability to perform has come down. > Books like " The magic of thinking big " , " Think and Grow rich " fail to re-charge me nowadays. > I have become self content and not able to plan for my future. > I have been a university 5th ranker and won many state level competitions in academics/music and got admit in a top business school. > But the K activity is posing a heavy challenge to my studies. > Any suggestions please ? > > Thanks, > Skoogle. > > > > Bollywood news, movie reviews, film trailers and more! Go to http://in.movies./ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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