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, " ordinarysparrow "

<ordinarysparrow wrote:

>

> Namaste

>

> dear Tiffany

>

> please be gentle with yourself. . .and know your presence with the

> group is so very delightful. I have great respect for how you bring so

> much vitality to each and every post that you bring forth. . .that

> passion and vitality is a beautiful gift. . .

>

> that intensity will take you far and your ability to put things on the

> table and speak from such a place of honesty about your awakening is

> refreshing and courageous. . .

>

> please don't feel like you owe an apology for you are demonstrating what

> so many of us have or have gone through and you have the authenticity to

> " what i am is what other's will see and receive. " Surely that is a

> large part of the journey; I Am that I Am starts with exactly where you

> are this day and each time you speak from places of such honestly you

> are bringing the light forward. . .I really like who you are and the way

> you are Tiffany. . ..

>

> another thing i see really healthy about you i will try to explain. . .

>

> years ago i worked with a dear psychiatrist that had started up the

> PTSD treatment hospitals for Vietnam Vets. . .and one day in supervision

> he remarked; " The inability to withstand ambiguity leads to splitting. "

> That one sentence became a textbook of instruciton for me on the

> spiritual path.

>

> truly being a child of K Ma we take each step with a certain amount of

> ambiguity in the unknowing of what will come next. . .Tiffany you have

> so clearly shown that when you dive in with such a beautiful strong life

> force and encounter all the unknowing that you have the ability to

> experience and then you bounce right back up and be ready for the next

> dive into the unknown without living in a split " You show us each time

> that you have a deep inter alignment with what is self-correcting and

> healing. . .you are a gift to each of us. . .You have the soundness to

> hit the wall and then get back up and try again without splitting from

> yourself or others, this is deeply sense about you Tiffany.

>

> truly yesterday i had the feeling that energetically that K Ma was

> bringing up a constricted pocket of clearning that felt like when a

> large amount of energy that to be moved upward and cleared out. . .

>

> what you went through this weekend with the experience with you Mom and

> family was really intense. . .and one of the things i have noticed is

> you ar very intelligent and might have a tendency to do the head piece

> first, and then because you can grasp that so quickly it can seem a bit

> surprising when the other layers start to work their way to release,

> such as tender, hurt, and vunerable that might be under the more easily

> accessible anger that becomes evoked by the traumatic interaction such

> as with your Mom. . .

>

> so it might be helpful to just see if you can identify a pattern of how

> you deal with issues. . .for example this weekend; what came first?

> Fear because of the concern of your children and sister, then maybe

> anger, then anger signaled you into the mental, and you pushed through

> to setting boundaries and also declaring a strong intent for

> forgiveness. . .????. . .just some observation that may fit or not?. .

> .so there may be issues of third chakra that got evoked that has to do

> with the how you feel about yourself, and also embracing the more

> vunerable feelings of sadness, abandoment, rejection, and lack of loving

> connection with your Mom's heart these days???? Forgivenss takes times

> and whatever feelings you are having these days are important to embrace

> in each layer, for in their revealing you will find nuggets of gold. . .

> Perhaps what Ma is telling you is that at times with spiritual

> principles and concepts that they can put us into a spiritual straight

> jacket if we claim them before the entire process had cleared?

> Awareness. . .expression . . .containment. . .So very often spiritual we

> try to go from awareness to containment and then find it leaves us with

> spiritual bypass. . .and sure enough Ma has to take us through the whole

> process again. . .

>

> K Ma does such a deep cleansing. Once i could deal with things from

> the mental plane and because i was more cut off from my body, and

> emotions, and things would seem resolved by the mental, whereas once K

> Ma was activated she leaves no floor or level unswept. . .i believe. . .

>

> Ma is working very strongly with you these days and doing deep

> cleansing, this too shall pass, and there will be much goodness and

> beauty brought forth. . .

>

> Tiffany just my 2 cents worth. . . and may or may not be a reflection

> of your own deep knowing. . ..and what does not fit just sweep it along

> with the other that is being cleared these days. . .I just get the

> feeling that vunerability is a frightening space for you dear Sister,

> and that vunerability is truly your greatest strength. . . .In the past

> you probably where in situations where your vunerability may not of

> been honored and it was very appropriate to layer up. . .but here i

> trust and claim that we will not knowingly hurt you or step on your

> goodness. . .we want the very best for you. . .

>

> often time with K Ma the passages will energetically follow the birthing

> phases that you have known with the birthing of your children. . .and

> often times when the baby is moving through the birth cannal there can

> be a real sense of disorientation. . .and truly to the infant it must

> seem more like a deathing. . .before the light is revealed. .. dear

> Sister, you have what it takes to withstand ambiguity. . .this is trust.

> . .

>

> love and light

> ordinary sparrow

>

>

> , " angelikdementia "

> <angelikdementia@> wrote:

> >

> > Yeah it's going away. Or is going away. I kind of got stuck in a weird

> place yesterday. I was very arrogant, confused and judgemental. I think

> it was a MAJOR fight of my ego or something like it. The apathy turned

> to a fight or flight syndrome.

> >

> > I think I need to rest with the energy as it is. I feel a vacation is

> necessary. I need to focus on my life here for the moment while the

> energy fills the pieces.

> >

> > If I have said anything offensive to anyone I apologize. It's very

> difficult to break down walls when they have been concrete enforced

> steel doors. It's hard to surrender and it is very hard to listen to

> others sometimes. I feel like a baby freshly born. Vulnerable, confused.

> But as the baby opens their eyes, learns to walk, the confusion leaves.

> I know this and I can't turn back.

> >

> > All of my life I have had my armor. My armor is being stripped away,

> showing the vulnerable and penetrative flesh beneath. It is very scary

> and comforting at the same time.

> >

> > I am glad I have all of you on this list to help me with this

> transition. Thank you as well for all of your sound advice. Thank

> you electra and everyone else who has listened to the drama play out and

> gave me your words of wisdom. I know you have all been here before.

> >

> > I just hope this is another phase. I would like to hear others

> experiences with this. I am greatly confused and have a sense of

> spiritual vertigo.

> >

> > I will take your advice Electra and relax. Perhaps take a long shower

> and watch something amusing.

> >

> > I have been through a lot in the past week. So much that it has been

> greatly painful. Shakti is taking all of my old scars and making me see

> them. All of my fears and making me face them. It is quite shocking and

> intense. Every thing about me is being changed and sometimes it is hard

> to get grounded again.

> >

> > Perhaps I should ask for some healing energy? I feel like a bunny in a

> field of snakes.

> >

> > -Tiffany

> >

> >

> >

> > , Elektra Fire

> elektra.fire@ wrote:

> > >

> > > Dear Tiff,

> > > I hear ya, my bullsh*t meter went very much like that recently and

> since detoxing I have felt a bit similar on days to what you just

> described, I feel a bit " inbetween " something but not sure what.

> > > Its just another phase,

> >

>