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Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as directed by

Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and seemed to be coming along

well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They became overwhelmed and set in

motion a chain of events that has removed the opportunity of Kundalini

activation for many other people.

 

This is as a great teaching for me.

 

No matter how much I am given to restructure and assist the person in the

understanding of ego and of a placement of ego into a submissive format to the

adult consciousness of a person I will be limited by the fears and over whelming

experience of the individual as " they " respond to the Kundalini and from there

determine how they will respond to the ego training.

 

Each person has a certain combination that the Kundalini reads and slowly brings

into the opening. Some are slow and some are faster than others. The

applications of Shaktipat are endless as they span the lengths of time and the

expression of the many cultures this earth has supported.

 

This was an " Ancient Approach " From a time of the practice of complete

submission of the egoic aspects of a person in all areas of the human expression

of the individual toward the teacher and the Goddess and God. Ancient shamanic,

limited tantric, and Essenic energetic priniciples of remote application were

gifted.

 

This was a rapid infusion of change and clearing and infusion in a repetitive

nine count repeated application. This was applied through the Shamanic and

limited tantric and heart based activation sequences given for this specific

individual. Releasing controls of the self and of the personality traits of the

expressive ego. With direct expression on the body energetic through infusions

in mixed format to encourage a heart based activation. And so it was given for

the Kundalini to begin the ego training of the person as well as the Shaktipat

as the ego training progressed which it did.

 

It was too much. They became overwhelmed.

 

I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not cogent of

what was being done. A different person not in an understanding of Kundalini or

the process has been calling and telling people of what in her mind and limited

understanding has been a breach of integrity by me. Some have had their

confidence in me deeply disturbed as they trust her opinion.

 

Some belong to this group.

 

So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

 

Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism

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As much as it may be called for an individual person the RFA will need to be

done in a way that is non compromising for the person and the teacher. I feel

until this can be worked out " this way " is no longer an option, as you state

Richard, here in our culture. -chrism

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Dear Chrism,

 

>So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

 

Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism<

 

Looking forward to the Shaktipat ~ The stronger the better!

 

Thank you Love, Angelina

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

>

> Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as directed by

Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and seemed to be coming along

well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They became overwhelmed and set in

motion a chain of events that has removed the opportunity of Kundalini

activation for many other people.

>

> This is as a great teaching for me.

>

> No matter how much I am given to restructure and assist the person in the

understanding of ego and of a placement of ego into a submissive format to the

adult consciousness of a person I will be limited by the fears and over whelming

experience of the individual as " they " respond to the Kundalini and from there

determine how they will respond to the ego training.

>

> Each person has a certain combination that the Kundalini reads and slowly

brings into the opening. Some are slow and some are faster than others. The

applications of Shaktipat are endless as they span the lengths of time and the

expression of the many cultures this earth has supported.

>

> This was an " Ancient Approach " From a time of the practice of complete

submission of the egoic aspects of a person in all areas of the human expression

of the individual toward the teacher and the Goddess and God. Ancient shamanic,

limited tantric, and Essenic energetic priniciples of remote application were

gifted.

>

> This was a rapid infusion of change and clearing and infusion in a repetitive

nine count repeated application. This was applied through the Shamanic and

limited tantric and heart based activation sequences given for this specific

individual. Releasing controls of the self and of the personality traits of the

expressive ego. With direct expression on the body energetic through infusions

in mixed format to encourage a heart based activation. And so it was given for

the Kundalini to begin the ego training of the person as well as the Shaktipat

as the ego training progressed which it did.

>

> It was too much. They became overwhelmed.

>

> I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not cogent

of what was being done. A different person not in an understanding of Kundalini

or the process has been calling and telling people of what in her mind and

limited understanding has been a breach of integrity by me. Some have had their

confidence in me deeply disturbed as they trust her opinion.

>

> Some belong to this group.

>

> So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

>

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism

>

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That's a shame. I know that in the years I have been on this group

Chrism has proven to be nothing but helpful, caring and knowledgeable.

I have needed some special attention due to my flow being so strong and

other issues from my accident, migraines, etc. has always been

attentive, supportive and a huge help to me. There are many times I

don't know what I would have done without the support of and this

group. I would hope that people would judge by their own experiences

with him rather than listening to others.

 

In my time here, it seems every few months some kind of challenge comes

up. Someone challenging Chrism's teaching, motives, suggesting he is

running a cult, he is getting rich off this group, etc. Seems cyclical.

 

I just wanted to give my point of view on this. There are SO many

people who have benefitted from this group and the support provided. It

would be a shame to have people suffering through the K experience alone

due to misunderstanding.

 

Sarita

 

 

, " chrism "

<> wrote:

>

> Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as

directed by Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and

seemed to be coming along well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They

became overwhelmed and set in motion a chain of events that has removed

the opportunity of Kundalini activation for many other people.

>

> This is as a great teaching for me.

>

> No matter how much I am given to restructure and assist the person in

the understanding of ego and of a placement of ego into a submissive

format to the adult consciousness of a person I will be limited by the

fears and over whelming experience of the individual as " they " respond

to the Kundalini and from there determine how they will respond to the

ego training.

>

> Each person has a certain combination that the Kundalini reads and

slowly brings into the opening. Some are slow and some are faster than

others. The applications of Shaktipat are endless as they span the

lengths of time and the expression of the many cultures this earth has

supported.

>

> This was an " Ancient Approach " From a time of the practice of complete

submission of the egoic aspects of a person in all areas of the human

expression of the individual toward the teacher and the Goddess and God.

Ancient shamanic, limited tantric, and Essenic energetic priniciples of

remote application were gifted.

>

> This was a rapid infusion of change and clearing and infusion in a

repetitive nine count repeated application. This was applied through the

Shamanic and limited tantric and heart based activation sequences given

for this specific individual. Releasing controls of the self and of the

personality traits of the expressive ego. With direct expression on the

body energetic through infusions in mixed format to encourage a heart

based activation. And so it was given for the Kundalini to begin the ego

training of the person as well as the Shaktipat as the ego training

progressed which it did.

>

> It was too much. They became overwhelmed.

>

> I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not

cogent of what was being done. A different person not in an

understanding of Kundalini or the process has been calling and telling

people of what in her mind and limited understanding has been a breach

of integrity by me. Some have had their confidence in me deeply

disturbed as they trust her opinion.

>

> Some belong to this group.

>

> So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone

who is partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the

ramification of the choice in participation. The Shaktipat expressed

through chrism is getting stronger and stronger and it will become

crucial for a complete and total surrender and understanding of what

occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even then no one is

ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

>

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all -

chrism

>

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>So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

 

You are not kidding when you say it can be strong and felt like

I was very drunk or drugged for about a week in the Shaktipat

around a year or two ago! We must definitely be prepared to

be unprepared! I have been in this group for several years and

I know that you have been very helpful and there are some good

people that have been in this group as long as I have or longer

and don't know what we would do without you!

 

Thank you once again for everything! You are an Angel!

 

Best, Angelina

 

, " gypsyeyes_101 "

<gypsyeyes_101 wrote:

>

> Dear Chrism,

>

> >So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

>

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism<

>

> Looking forward to the Shaktipat ~ The stronger the better!

>

> Thank you Love, Angelina

>

> , " chrism " <@>

wrote:

> >

> > Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as directed

by Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and seemed to be coming

along well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They became overwhelmed and set in

motion a chain of events that has removed the opportunity of Kundalini

activation for many other people.

> >

> > This is as a great teaching for me.

> >

> > No matter how much I am given to restructure and assist the person in the

understanding of ego and of a placement of ego into a submissive format to the

adult consciousness of a person I will be limited by the fears and over whelming

experience of the individual as " they " respond to the Kundalini and from there

determine how they will respond to the ego training.

> >

> > Each person has a certain combination that the Kundalini reads and slowly

brings into the opening. Some are slow and some are faster than others. The

applications of Shaktipat are endless as they span the lengths of time and the

expression of the many cultures this earth has supported.

> >

> > This was an " Ancient Approach " From a time of the practice of complete

submission of the egoic aspects of a person in all areas of the human expression

of the individual toward the teacher and the Goddess and God. Ancient shamanic,

limited tantric, and Essenic energetic priniciples of remote application were

gifted.

> >

> > This was a rapid infusion of change and clearing and infusion in a

repetitive nine count repeated application. This was applied through the

Shamanic and limited tantric and heart based activation sequences given for this

specific individual. Releasing controls of the self and of the personality

traits of the expressive ego. With direct expression on the body energetic

through infusions in mixed format to encourage a heart based activation. And so

it was given for the Kundalini to begin the ego training of the person as well

as the Shaktipat as the ego training progressed which it did.

> >

> > It was too much. They became overwhelmed.

> >

> > I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not cogent

of what was being done. A different person not in an understanding of Kundalini

or the process has been calling and telling people of what in her mind and

limited understanding has been a breach of integrity by me. Some have had their

confidence in me deeply disturbed as they trust her opinion.

> >

> > Some belong to this group.

> >

> > So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

> >

> > Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all -

chrism

> >

>

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Thanks for your testament to Chrism, Sarita. I, for one, feel a deep trust in

Chrism. As much as I can trust a man at this juncture in my life as this has

been part of my challenge and journey. I have only been here a short while but

I have felt a deep resonance and rightness when I read his words and when I have

received personal insights and recommendations. And I am gaining a deeper trust

in Kundalini as well and that was not the case at the beginning when I would

have sleepless, blisteringly hot, fluttering nights and not know what was going

on with me.

Love and blessings,

Jan

, " Sarita " <sarita1969

wrote:

>

>

> That's a shame. I know that in the years I have been on this group

> has proven to be nothing but helpful, caring and knowledgeable.

> I have needed some special attention due to my flow being so strong and

> other issues from my accident, migraines, etc. has always been

> attentive, supportive and a huge help to me. There are many times I

> don't know what I would have done without the support of and this

> group. I would hope that people would judge by their own experiences

> with him rather than listening to others.

>

> In my time here, it seems every few months some kind of challenge comes

> up. Someone challenging Chrism's teaching, motives, suggesting he is

> running a cult, he is getting rich off this group, etc. Seems cyclical.

>

> I just wanted to give my point of view on this. There are SO many

> people who have benefitted from this group and the support provided. It

> would be a shame to have people suffering through the K experience alone

> due to misunderstanding.

>

> Sarita

>

>

> , " chrism "

> <@> wrote:

> >

> > Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as

> directed by Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and

> seemed to be coming along well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They

> became overwhelmed and set in motion a chain of events that has removed

> the opportunity of Kundalini activation for many other people.

> >

> > This is as a great teaching for me.

> >

> > No matter how much I am given to restructure and assist the person in

> the understanding of ego and of a placement of ego into a submissive

> format to the adult consciousness of a person I will be limited by the

> fears and over whelming experience of the individual as " they " respond

> to the Kundalini and from there determine how they will respond to the

> ego training.

> >

> > Each person has a certain combination that the Kundalini reads and

> slowly brings into the opening. Some are slow and some are faster than

> others. The applications of Shaktipat are endless as they span the

> lengths of time and the expression of the many cultures this earth has

> supported.

> >

> > This was an " Ancient Approach " From a time of the practice of complete

> submission of the egoic aspects of a person in all areas of the human

> expression of the individual toward the teacher and the Goddess and God.

> Ancient shamanic, limited tantric, and Essenic energetic priniciples of

> remote application were gifted.

> >

> > This was a rapid infusion of change and clearing and infusion in a

> repetitive nine count repeated application. This was applied through the

> Shamanic and limited tantric and heart based activation sequences given

> for this specific individual. Releasing controls of the self and of the

> personality traits of the expressive ego. With direct expression on the

> body energetic through infusions in mixed format to encourage a heart

> based activation. And so it was given for the Kundalini to begin the ego

> training of the person as well as the Shaktipat as the ego training

> progressed which it did.

> >

> > It was too much. They became overwhelmed.

> >

> > I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not

> cogent of what was being done. A different person not in an

> understanding of Kundalini or the process has been calling and telling

> people of what in her mind and limited understanding has been a breach

> of integrity by me. Some have had their confidence in me deeply

> disturbed as they trust her opinion.

> >

> > Some belong to this group.

> >

> > So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone

> who is partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the

> ramification of the choice in participation. The Shaktipat expressed

> through chrism is getting stronger and stronger and it will become

> crucial for a complete and total surrender and understanding of what

> occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even then no one is

> ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

> >

> > Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all -

> chrism

> >

>

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Sigh - It's a shame that many people would rather try to tear down a person who

is only there to help others , rather than taking self responsibility , they

would rather look outside themselves for someone to blame then to look within .

The internet and new technology allows information to be at our finger tips from

anywhere in the world , i believe this to be double edged sword . I'm a firm

believer in tough love , and you would see me as the person whom will help a

person up and dust the dirt off them , only to tell them that they are exactly

where they are supposed to be .

 

If a person is asking for kundalini and receive it , then i believe they are

exactly where they are supposed to be . The battle with the ego comes for us all

and in time it will get easier . I hope that in time these people who condemn

chrism will become thankful for their gift and for the master who gave them the

nudge needed for their ascent .

 

 

 

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism

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I've been out of town (again) and while I've been keeping up with most of the

messages, I've been sort of silent. (But I'm still with you all!)

 

I just wanted to voice my opinion here. I don't know who this person(s) is, but

it's unfortunate. I have had only wonderful experiences with and trust

him completely. I believe most of the people on this board feel this way. He has

been a real blessing and I feel very lucky to have crossed paths with him (and

all of you). I hope one day this person will come to realize this about you.

 

Looking forward to tonight's Shaktipat!

 

- Peace

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

 

> I am now accused of all manner of sordid activity from one who is not cogent

of what was being done. A different person not in an understanding of Kundalini

or the process has been calling and telling people of what in her mind and

limited understanding has been a breach of integrity by me. Some have had their

confidence in me deeply disturbed as they trust her opinion.

>

> Some belong to this group.

>

> So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

>

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism

>

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Thank you for your honesty and openness,

beloved Chrism. I look forward to being

unprepared. lol!

 

There will always be voices against

movements of transformation. I guess we

just take it in stride and hope that

those who are called to it listen to

their inner voice and heart, and not

be steered away from their path by

any voices outside themselves. I guess

that, too, may be a testing for them.

 

Almost three years for me here. Nothing

but good has come of it, and I am

deeply grateful. Let your Light shine!

 

Love, dhyana

 

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

>

 

> So it is with a great deal of emphasis that I ask each and everyone who is

partaking of the Shaktipat to know and understand the ramification of the choice

in participation. The Shaktipat expressed through chrism is getting stronger and

stronger and it will become crucial for a complete and total surrender and

understanding of what occurs to be had by the person before receiving it. Even

then no one is ever really prepared. So be prepared to be unprepared! - lol.

>

> Let this serve as a FYI about what Kundalini can do. - blessings all - chrism

>

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Brother, I am saddened to hear of your troubles. It is painful to be

mistrusted and to have one's integrity questioned and challenged.

Yet it can be a great gift as well, to realize one's own

impeccability. The Sacred Enemy gifts us with clarity of vision and love

of God-in-me/God-in-thee, once we breathe in the fear, anger, grief and

pain.

 

Blessings on you, Brother, for following your path, even over the

cliff's edge. May you relax and enjoy your wings -- and the view!

 

Peace and Love, Shaz

 

 

 

 

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Hi all – this is an interesting issue and regrettably one that will arise often

again in the future.

 

As per Andy's comments I too trust the bearded (old?) man (you are taking flak

on that one chrism!!) - lol.

 

The process of awakening brings with it so many new facets to our being that we

are sometimes overwhelmed and confused while unraveling all that new input. Our

human aspect is (thankfully though sometimes frustratingly) `fragile', and

invariably seeks validation re new `discoveries' just to be sure – all ego

driven but real to us all the same. Questioning teachings is not a bad thing

provided that is driven by the underlying desire to find, know and comprehend

the truth. Sadly in that quest outside influences, internal imbalances arising

from the changes taking place, and unmanaged egos sidetrack or derail that

process. Often the `derailed' person is blinded to the truth and doesn't even

see the error of their actions and, in their fear and confusion, turns on the

teacher.

 

In `finding' and knowing ourselves we obtain that ability to discern and to see

the lessons being offered through such `attacks' or challenges. We also `loose'

that anger that invariably results as a knee-jerk response from being attacked

or seeing someone that we love and respect being attacked, with anger being

replaced by a different form of love in seeing just where the protagonist is in

their being, and accepting them as they are and offering help where we can.

Such attacks become nothing more than lessons for us – to be taken as given and

moved forward from. A lesson re egos, surrender to the knowledge that all is

known and orchestrated on a higher level for a specific purpose, and above all

in understanding more fully the nature of unconditional love.

 

Blessings all - Jonathan

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Dear Chrism:

I have nothing but confidence in you as a person and a teacher. I understand the

affects of an awakened kundalini. I have educated myself through the extensive

info on the site. We have been in correspondence concerning an accelerated

awakening and I understand your prospective. We take an informed chance in our

awakening, be it slow or fast. We understand that the awakening is for our

advanced spiritual progress and that it affects those close to us and those who

we come into contact with. I conjunction with this we constantly keep in mind

forgiveness and recapitulation and the change that these practices bring to our

soul.

 

I, and all on the site, love you for who you are and what you do.

 

Love,

Jake

 

--- On Thu, 6/11/09, chrism <> wrote:

 

 

<>

Re: Teachers and Trust - Lately

 

Thursday, June 11, 2009, 8:31 PM

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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>It's a shame that many people would rather try to tear down a person who is

only there to >help others , rather than taking self responsibility , they would

rather look outside >themselves for someone to blame then to look within .

 

This reminds me of what Vernon Howard said, " Healing fails to occur because it

is easier to harm another than heal oneself. "

 

Carolyn

 

 

 

 

 

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I believe I can be the devils advocate here. I can personally attest to feeling

such emotion in regards to surrendering and teaching. You watch the media

programming and all people have thrown into their faces is " Another cult

suicide " " On the 5 o clock news... Cult leader takes followers money and rapes

little kids " Etc on and on.

 

They never talk about the good guys. It's funny to think that Jesus was at one

point construed as a " cult leader " In essence a cult is a minority group that

follows a way of life that is not typical to the general public. Therefore this

can be seen as such. Well, I guess it is technically a cult lol.

 

I have noticed that the power of the Kundalini is indeed very overwhelming to

the person whom is unable to surrender. Take that " Fear " of surrender which is

what is is.... FEAR. And it will be magnified. This person will then fail this

fear test and become consumed.

 

This person lacks personal responsibility and projects their own insecurities on

those around them. In fact, there is no " evil cult " essence here. Sure it is

surrounded with love and the following of a teacher whom is a little more

knowledgeable. But do most christians not follow the guidance of a preacher? It

is all the same.

 

I don't think they connected the dots. Guidance is merely guidance. has

not been typical of an evil Guru. Even when he is wrong, he admits to error. I

find that very assuring. I like that in a teacher. For they are learning as

well.

 

It is very scary to surrender to something so powerful, but they are not

surrendering to Chrism. They are surrendering to the source. A guru

definitively means a teacher of spiritual wisdom, literally, one who takes you

from darkness to light. That is all.

 

I wouldn't worry about it too much as that is something they must realize within

themselves. Anyone with half a brain knows what the truth is.

 

Simply put, this person is in the fear phase. They will either sink or swim.

That is their choice.

 

 

 

 

 

, " chrism " <>

wrote:

>

> Lately I have been working with an individual in a rapid format as directed by

Kundalini. They were put through many severe tests and seemed to be coming along

well. They were given strong Shaktipat. They became overwhelmed and set in

motion a chain of events that has removed the opportunity of Kundalini

activation for many other people.

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thank you all for the posts here....I have been reading them all...I will have

to stop and get some work done~!  LOL

I have not shared what has and is happening with me to anyone... except my

husband... and even then not a lot.Part of it is because it is actually quite

difficult to expess what is happening..... and of courseI would be certified

insane by everyone exceptJohn who knowsI am insame anyway~~!  ~~Also I have had

no urge to talk about it althoughI now feel I would like to share a bit here. It

has been good to hear other people talk about ego and trust and fear and bliss

and love etc... it is good to knowI am not alone in my journey. 

  I have started  drinking hot water and honey with lemon in it sometimes, I

just knowI must~!

~(I also opened a bottle of wine tonight andI knowI must not~!) 

I was led to lie down this evening and as sometimes occurs, as I become still

and connected, I am unable to move... my toes can always move but nothing

else.... It went on for some time...~While I am unable to move I get movements

up and down my spine but also eveywhere else you can think of~! ~Sometimes it

fells like energy sometimes like a force sometimes like an

emotion........Someone mentioned in a post that they felt like a baby was moving

in their stomach...  yes I have experienced that too and the movement moves up

and under my ribs, both sides.   It is like it is trying to expand that whole

area... also the movements vary from very large wide  and heavy  to small and

light and narrow... sometimew there can be heat or fizz or bubbles or waves and

sometimes there is movement upwards and downwards at the same time~Yikes~some of

these movements are actually impossible, my body and muscles could not do this

at my will.    ~Anyway today for

the first time this time whole body shaking and jerky movement started and my

head vibrated from side to side or up and down and at a very very fast

pace....all whileI was lying down~ I had some short l burts of delight and

bliss.  I know from beforeI will have no pain from this and no muscle pain

tomorrow~~~~ I also remembered that as a child I experienced extreame bliss and

a communion with the divine...I cannot remember if I had an actual choice about

this but I definitly remember that I made the decision  to stay alive here

because myMom and dad would have been so sad if I died ..( i was a healthy kid,

soI was not going to die) but I remember that I wanted to go to heaven~! It is

funny really becauseI have spent a huge amount of time as a teen and an adult

being fearful of dying~!!  ~ ~When Kundalini started last time  my fear of dying

left me...I felt so connected and one with everything, death and life were the

same thing.  ~all that

came back to me today andI wanted to share it.  ~Thank you all.

 

 

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