Hi Kundalites - Wishing all a beautiful shaktipat

June 12, 2009

Hi everyone!!! Havent posted in awhile .... oh no...lurker here (:

I spoke to and have asked to be included in the shaktipat...Thank you,

thank you for this beautiful gift ... inserting Shakti dance here ...

okay back

Chrism asked me to post some of my experiences. I know I did about 6 months ago

or a year ago so please forgive me if you've already read some of this... (I see

you yawning)

I had the big spiders visiting me in the middle of the night ... almost forgot

to surrender as the Asian woman was laughing in my ear ... grabbed its leg (it

was quite large - oh and thats when she started laughing btw) and just as they

were retreating (guess they didn't like me pulling on their legs which btw felt

as real as this keyboard I'm typing on) but at the last moment I remembered it

was 3:00am Shakti time and although still afraid kept reciting " I surrender "

over and over and got zapped with incredible bliss running through my body like

liquid gold. I also had the tiger jump on my bed. This one was really intense

for me because I got up in the middle of the night to get water and when I got

back to bed - as I was sitting down (still quite awake) I saw a shadow move from

the corner of the room and this HUGE A** TIGER jumped up layed its body next to

mine and threw its head over my body! Yikes! It was HUGE!!!

I being the baby I am ... of course could feel the fear running through me but I

knew the Shakti symbol (thanks Chrism) and started petting it with one hand

repeating " I surrender " a million times ...still feeling fear my right hand got

caught in its mouth in between a fang .... ok some more fear...still repeating

" I surrender " while I'm still petting this tiger that I swear is as real as the

bed I'm on and I'm quite awake...and its telling me something but I notice

coming from the hall on the other side of me something is running toward me

fast!!! Ok tiger on the left ... hey Shakti is this you? Do I still surrender?

Yes ... Damnit Deb just surrender! So I keep repeating " I surrender " thinking

whatever happens happens...trust...so I keep saying surrender (yes still feeling

fear)

and just as this something jumps on me I'm yelling in my head " I

surrender....and my whole body breaks out in bliss so beautiful so incredible it

brings tears to my eyes and the energy running through me was so electrical,

liquid, gold, beautiful. Okay so those were some of my recapping of my surrender

lessons. Oh forgot before all this the big black wolf was always in my

dreams...waiting, waiting...and I felt fear too there. Then one night yes it

tore me apart...I actually woke up during that. And that was the beginning of

it. But then after that - the wolf would be in my dreams like protecting me in a

way...a prescence...sitting in the background strong and loving. So I still love

my wolf (:

Anyway I thought I should just recap that part of it in case you have the Shakti

symbols come in the middle of the night. It helped me to hear of others so I

hope this helps you to surrender because you will feel the most incredible

feeling when you do. So much love to all of you that get to surrender. (Oh and

btw ... I failed many many many times before I finally surrendered...Shakti

always gives more and more chances...and maybe you won't even need this lesson -

but I had some fear issues! ha)

Since that time about one to oneandahalf yrs ago, my third eye has begun

opening. Everything glows! Everthing is so beautiful. The very air vibrates and

blinks filled with energy - energy and aliveness where you think is just empty

space. Little lights fill the air. The prana moves and dances and vibrates and

when you look up at the sky, especially when the sun is out - the beautiful

moving lights bring me to tears. Everyone glows. Everyone is so beautiful, this

light they have. I see there head and body glow and its hard not to tell them

how beautiful they are glowing. (ok - not ready to have the men in the white

coats come lock me up yet)

But in the last few months the third eye area is vibrating intensely and feels

like something is stuck in there. It doesnt hurt - I just feel it strongly. And

now the glow of everything is stronger and larger. When its dark I put my arm or

leg up and I could be in complete blackness but the glow is so bright - not

because I have a brighter glow just because the Shakti has opened the eye. One

night I was in the car with a friend, a friend that lost her mom. She was sad

and we were talking. But then we started talking about all the fun we had with

her mom over the years. And as we were talking about all these things we

appreciated about her and the love " feeling " I guess was getting stronger, I

noticed her " light " her " glow " getting bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger.

So there is something to focusing on this love thing (:

This light glows off everything but also I notice on certain parts like the

fingertips and toes the light shoots off far far far! One day when I was sitting

in the sun I noticed it coming off my knee too? Shooting up into the air.

Oh and had wrote awhile back about how Shakti sticks to everything and

had wrote to put your intention of love onto things you touch and stuff. So I

was thinking about this post one night before falling to sleep and heard a gong

in one ear (usually a lesson then follows in a dream) and was shown how the

Shakti sticks...well this was a dream, but in the dream it looked like purplish

cotton candy sticking everywhere! (Okay I do like cotton candy)

Its not all been easy of course - very much emotional clearing and fear and all

my stuff coming up in my face. So that has been hard of course and then I can

feel bad about myself pretty easily...but I'm feeling more centered and this

light seems to be bringing me in deeper now in meditations. Before my mind was

so chattery I didn't know how anyone could be silent! (: But now the light comes

and I'm able to focus on that and it takes me in deeper. Sometimes my eyes are

open and it covers my whole body - sometimes my eyes are closed and it helps me

to finally " just be " - sometimes I do self-inquiry and ask " who am I " that a

beautiful friend taught me and that brings me in deeper until I just am quiet.

And then peace. Like a floating beautiful feeling wrapped up in love and gentle

spaciousness - like the sky and clouds. And the last week I started hearing

singing. This is when I get in deep. It is in my left ear. It sounds far away

still but I listen and then after awhile in the distant I hear the same voices

speaking but don't know what they are saying. They are all talking at the same

time and it sounds still too far away. Last night there were tones in my right

ear and the top of my head on the right side was sore. When I touch that part I

feel an immediate zap on my right kidney. I've felt alot on my left side but now

the right side is starting. Sometimes there is cold air blowing through my body

like I am not solid - it goes through one side and comes out the next. That is

rather odd and my lips quiver a lot and my eyeballs still have that pulsating

thing going on.

There is this big flower/orb/thing that pulsates over me. When I lay on the

trampoline in the sun its high in the sky. It shoots out prana at me. For a year

I didn't know what to make of it. Then I started talking to it, saying thank you

and sending it love. What do you say to a prana spitting pulsating orb? So now I

told it if it wants it can come closer and moves closer and closer and is

intelligent. When I talk to it it pulsates faster and spits more prana? at me.

So I would just lay there. But now I have learned to breathe it in deeply. I

breathe it in with my whole body as if my whole body could breathe. This is what

I think is bringing me in deeper in my mediations also somehow and I think has

helped the energy inside myself - the energy now on the right side to start to

activate. thinks I have a horseshoe type energy flow. Thats okay - I love

horses! (:

I also have had the gongs going off that gives me a lesson. One was on

controlling my thoughts as bugs by the hundreds were falling on me - I felt

inspired to say illusion strongly and they started to disappear but it took me

quite a while to get them to stop falling on me. (No worries this was a dream)

then I walked out and my niece was over and I started seeing bugs dropping and

got over anxious and was silently yelling illusion illusion every second and

made the bugs and her new puppy disappear. Well that is one example of some of

my lessons in my dreams. I am usually lucid and am waking up from the gongs

going off in one ear and then I know oh oh .... another lesson...

I still play with the lights when I'm in bed, they dance in between my

fingertips, they seem to have their own intelligence and are playful.

Sometimes I think I'm bi-polar - going from laughing a lot like hysterically. I

was in the grocery store asking where the " Moth Balls " were and the words coming

out of my mouth sounded so funny that I was crazy laughing...then the clerk

started laughing then customers coming by didn't know why we were laughing and

then they started laughing and it was a crazy laugh fest for a half hour...over

mothballs??? Well anyway they didn't have them. But it goes the other way too -

and sometimes the crying for no reason just starts and I have to stay away from

people because I will just start crying and crying and I don't know why. So the

emotional upheavel can get a little crazy for me. There is much housecleaning

from this life (:

I mention this because it has not all been so easy so know that its not always

easy and can be very difficult, at least for me. But also more beautiful than I

could have ever imagined. I was brought to the void a few times but each time I

chickened out. It was coming closer and at my hesitiation it went backwards ...

then I would get closer - it seems to be waiting. I hope I have another chance

and won't chicken out again. This last year I have felt much love in my heart

that I didn't realize I could feel. Its beautiful and sometimes hard. Many times

I don't feel so good about myself. Not always easy balancing this with this life

when noone around me knows and wouldnt understand. Its sometimes difficult to do

the paperwork that needs to be done - I don't know why but its hard to do those

things that don't seem to matter. I would rather be off in my forest. Oh and I

seen these little people? there a few times now, not on the path but off the

path as I like to go. I can't make out the features but there is for sure some

beings living in the forest. I love it there. And I love it at the lake. The

prana above the water is the most intense and alive that I've seen anywhere. I

think this is one of the reasons why to be in nature is so good for you and you

feel so good there.

So if the energy starts up your back during this shaktipat or if you feel like a

tornardo is in your mouth as it intelligently checks out each tooth (: just

keep repeating surrender surrender or if you start vibrating, especially around

3:00am at least that was the time for me. Even if you feel afraid, its okay just

keep saying you surrender and really try to knowing the most beautiful thing is

happening to you. I really had a hard time with this surrender so I hope by

writing this, it helps you. Oh and it feels really great if you do (:

So happy shaktipat everyone! Enjoy those body buzzes!!! Much love to you all!!!!

Chrism thought this might help so I hope it does. Thank you so much for

this beautiful gift you share with all of us and for all your help and for all

the people here sharing their stories and for all the ones out in lurkville! (:

May we all feel the grace of the divine and may we all send that out in love.

(Okay no more sap!)

Love to you all!

Deb

June 12, 2009

Thank you Deb! Your grace is a joy to read and in reading we are there with you.

Thank you dear friend! - chrism

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi everyone!!! Havent posted in awhile .... oh no...lurker here (:

>

> I spoke to and have asked to be included in the shaktipat...Thank you,

thank you for this beautiful gift ... inserting Shakti dance here ...

okay back

June 12, 2009

It is good to hear from you Deb. It's been a long time, but you have been in my

thoughts often. It sounds like you have become more balanced with it all. Loved

reading your long post. Don't be such a lurker! LOL!

Blessings,

Linda

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi everyone!!! Havent posted in awhile .... oh no...lurker here (:

>

> I spoke to and have asked to be included in the shaktipat...Thank you,

thank you for this beautiful gift ... inserting Shakti dance here ...

okay back

>

> asked me to post some of my experiences. I know I did about 6 months

ago or a year ago so please forgive me if you've already read some of this... (I

see you yawning)

>

> I had the big spiders visiting me in the middle of the night ... almost forgot