Guest guest Posted June 13, 2009 Report Share Posted June 13, 2009 These are great posts yes there is no-where to hide. You are monitored 24/7. Shakti can sure let you know. Richard Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network selena255 <selena Sat, 13 Jun 2009 11:08:05 Re: Rapid Format Awakening: Nowhere to Hide Hi Sparrow, What you say is right on! Poor teachers take a lot of bashing from their own students during the process, LOL! Patience and forgiveness of a supernatural kind is what makes the difference between a bogus guru and the real deal. Yes, the RFA is excruciating. The ego is challenged in all sorts of ways, in all the places where it hurts the most. The pitfalls are tailored on each individual in such a way that no stone is left unturned, and you have to confront all of your own demons one by one, all the time. The most painful part is that your own conscience keeps assessing your performance 24/7 and is aware of all your failures. The ultimate challenge is that of being able to forgive oneself in the face of such glaring flaws, even as you lose the ability to fool yourself into self-complacency. Long periods of self-loathing and moral torture are to be expected--what they call the dark night of the soul, perhaps. Once the process begins, there is no hiding. Sel Kundalini-Awakening <%40> -Systems-1 , " ordinarysparrow " <ordinarysparrow wrote: > > Namaste > > dear Chrism > > This is so on target for me personally. . . will not go into it at > length. . .but with one of the teachers from India this is such an apt > description of what it can look like. . . > > i do not have words to describe the force and the drive of what this > beloved teacher put me through for about seven years. . .it blew every > conceivable frame or imagination of what a teacher was " suppose to be > like " . . .the times i called him a brutal b_______ are not countable. . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 13, 2009 Report Share Posted June 13, 2009 Oh these are great posts and so helpful this is the life behind our eyes being described here. This thread has come about due to Chrisms RFA post. See what that has done for us all!!!!!! Its brought us out to describe this part of our " inner " life. What you write yes it all comes up for me too........the 24/7 Shakti monitoring Sel spoke of. Richard Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network flowerpowers7777 <flowerpowers7777 Sat, 13 Jun 2009 19:36:44 Re: Rapid Format Awakening: Nowhere to Hide Thank you all for writing about the ego. These conversations are really very helpful. It seems the kundalini brings all those hurts and pains to the surface again. This has been most challenging for me. The unconditional loving others is one thing, but to get through the pains and hurts is something else. Forgiveness toward others seems to be easier but even if you have forgived and can unconditionally love there still can be such intense emotional pain, perhaps directed at the self. So of course I am assuming this is all ego then. That illusion of being unworthy,or unloved, hurt or vulnerable. For most of my life I have been good at repressing but I notice now this is an impossiblility...oh sometimes I miss those good old days ha - so when emotional pain rears its beautiful head and there is no hiding - how do you observe when you are emotional? Does that make sense? I can have that knowing that its a process and say that to myself and have trust that eventually I will get through this stage and when I'm in deep mediation I can feel that sense of peace and then I'm thinking what was all the fuss about...but then in daily life when you are feeling that how do you observe and feel at the same time? It seems when I can get to observing this pain then I'm not feeling it really and wonder if I am just repressing because it keeps coming back. I am the queen of repression (: And of course when this emotion is there even though it is a different circumstance it is still the same feelings of childhood or teenage years. Its funny (okay not) when you think you must finally be through all your stuff ... there are more surprises waiting! Sometimes I can start laughing so hard and so long at myself and then I feel better! And I think look at that, you just released all this stuff...and then I feel so free its great!And I think yes! I'm done with all the emotional stuff! Yeah (: But then it won't be long and bam I'm all sad again and emotional. I swear one can think they are going crazy through all this! And honestly if I didn't know about this happening to others I would have probably called the men in the white coats by now... so thank all of you that tell your stories it is more than helpful and is much appreciated. I'll just keep my surfboard here handy as I ride those waves ... and btw they are quite high during the full moon for me, wondering if anyone else here notices this? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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