Guest guest Posted June 13, 2009 Report Share Posted June 13, 2009 When i entered there was anticipation of giving up the negative holdings of the egoic and was so open to that, but what i found much more difficult were the concepts where the egoic defends with the positive. .. . i had kept the ego safe by beliefs and lots of energy into " right relationship " and " reverence for life " , in concepts of fairness, gentleness, my understanding of justice,and commitment to following spiritual discipline, such as little egoic formulas like " if i am fair, gentle, just with another, then the other will be that way with me " .. . .if i give my best and if i am sincere then the person will respond in like manner. . . When all my positive egoic formulas where met with what i experienced as cruelty, which is a button i wear that can easily provoke rage, i would find a cesspool of raw sludge i had stored underneath. . . all the programming of cause and effect were thrown to the ground. . . . and began to see the egoic attachments to what i thought was positive as well as the ones i considered negative. . .all the egoic formulas where dust in the wind. . . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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