Guest guest Posted June 18, 2009 Report Share Posted June 18, 2009 The last couple of weeks have been like a roller coaster ride for me. Early on, I was feeling very angry at pretty much everything that crossed my path...my wife, kids, friends, neighbours, relatives, mom and dad, society, the world.....I have no idea what came over me...I wouldn't express as I wanted to...just scream out for hours. A couple of days after that, I felt a sense of sadness come over me that at times I would find myself crying, especially in prayer. I must admit that I didn't do the safties as regular as I should have and learned a lesson there. Just last week, things started to balance out as I disiplined myself to the Safties. I would, and still do, get feelings of bliss all over my back...from heart to head and heal (in both directions) and from heart to right and left arms. I've been working on the heart chakra for sometime, especially when it came to forgiveness...this made a lot of sense why it originated from there...open your heart and receive the gift of bliss...I think Shatki knows something about positive motivation. Whenever I would ask God, Jesus, Shatki, Archangels, etc. for something, I would get this spinal sweep that would last 30 sec to 1 min. I thought that it might have something to do with the Scatterfields or K preparing for it. My third eye and golden helmet us extremely active and I feel it whenever I'm in deep thought...or whenever I think about it, it gets activated. As I lay down to sleep at night, I hear conversations...they seem so real...some voices I recognize and others I don't. I asked Shatki to answers about this...and behold..the topic was on Coast to Coast last night- WOW. Appartently, I tapped into the first layer of the Cosmic plane. It was recommeded to stay away from it as it may slow down my progress. I'm new at all this and would like to learn more...any takers . Here's the link to the speakers website (there's a FREE DOWNLOAD of her book): http://www.outofbodytravel.org/howtobooks/outofbodyexperiences.html This week has been really good as I'm really enjoying everything about life...laughing, playing, no anger, no sadness...just me being me of past. Looking forward to 'topping up' my K activity and journey in the next couple of weeks. And with Chrism, we know it all 'Premium'..lol. Be Well, Ernie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 18, 2009 Report Share Posted June 18, 2009 Hi Ernie, Oh I can so relate with this emotional rollercoaster...you are not alone in it...I enjoyed reading how you have been dealing with it because we can all help each other out here! I love when you get that " recognition " from the k energy when you hand it over...feels like a sign that this is what we are to do with these feelings, so thanks for posting this. Its interesting the " hearing things " too! I too often wonder if I am to just ignore it or focus on it. It seems the " deeper " I am in the " higher " sounds I am hearing if that makes sense...I think alot of us have these lucid dreams that turn into obes and such, but I wonder about that too. I once was in a dream where I became " aware " and was so excited that I decided I was going to visit a friend...so as I was about to fly through the wall on my way, a prescence came up behind me and basically said to me something like " would I like someone just dropping in on me without their permission first? " And I was like " Shoot! " kinda head bowed down, darnit I guess not...so I didn't go and then was taken back to my house where I grew up for some I guess learning. Another time I felt hands push me out of my body to show me something. But it was really dark and I saw my crib as a child and for some reason I chickened out and went back in my body. Okay - another failed lesson in surrender! ha I forgot also about saying " LIGHTS ON " - that may have helped a bit. I'm so glad that this week is going so well for you - many wishes that it continues and your shaktipat is beautiful. Thank you! Deb , " boltonben111 " <erniebeneventi wrote: > > The last couple of weeks have been like a roller coaster ride for me. Early on, I was feeling very angry at pretty much everything Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 18, 2009 Report Share Posted June 18, 2009 heh that sounds like a carbon copy of my last week or two Ernie. I was angry and feeling really close to rage at next to nothing. Everything was making we burn with anger for no reason. I worked through that and sorted myself out, and then yesterday found myself crying whilst meditating because I was imagining a lotus flower blooming from my crown and my dads face appeared in it. Just crying because he's such a great guy, which is unusual for me. Then asked for help to make me strong enough to support my colleagues at work who are under stress, and I've been a powerhouse of work and ideas since then! Rollercoaster ride through life... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 18, 2009 Report Share Posted June 18, 2009 The lotus with your dads face in it...wow I feel like crying for you too! In a nice way (: What a beautiful gift...Glad you are feeling so full of energy and ideas! (: Oh oh ... I see I've posted quite a bit...better walk away from the computer and get some work done before takes away my membership! ha Deb , " andyrpreston " <andyrpreston wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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