Kundalini Community- Deb

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Hey Deb

 

thank you for your honesty and genuineness, you have a way of lighting up my

mood and putting a smile on my face. Your words have really hit a chord in me

and I appreciate the love, joy, and beauty you emanate in your posts, especially

this one ), it's the love that can heal and give shelter from the storm. I'll

be keeping this in my archives and when I feel down and out, I will reread these

heart-felt words, thank you.

 

I'm glad you liked the meditation tips, they really have inspired me and have

helped me get out of this funk i was in and wanted to share.

 

In my opinion, I think this feeling of longingness doesn't ever disappear,even

after Self-Realization, I think it's what keeps our efforts genuine because one

can easily get just as stuck in the absolute as being stuck in the ego. I look

at the word Human Being and contemplate it often. Many spiritual traditions say

annihilate the ego but that would be annihilating the human aspect of the

equation. I think they say this because of the imbalance, and so they try to tip

the see-saw to the Being aspect, maybe not realizing that it's about balance,

not total annihilation (or rather maybe the ego goes through such radical

transformation that it no longer looks like how it used to). I look at Human and

Being as like the yin yang symbol, you can't have one without the other no

matter how hard someone tries. And so to have balance, one must embrace both

qualities, Self-Realization and at the same time, realizing that we are here in

this body, with this name, with this personality...and it's all ok . I just

think that it's important to get grounded in Being, in the formless, in

presence, and thereby switching the term Human Being to Being Human. The

foundation is Being (and I've heard and experienced occasionally that joy, love,

freedom, peace emanate from here), and is a very important aspect because how

else is one going to build a house.

But this sense of longingness is the human side of the equation, and I feel it's

very important because it keeps us from getting stuck, it pushes us further. I

do agree with your friend that it's spiritual sickness/longing. I can only

describe it as knowing that there's something more than what I've been taught by

parents and school teachers and not being satisfied with the norm. A Zen Master

once said that the greatest capacity is the capacity to not be satisfied. The

only down side to this is that this longingness gets pretty strong that I do get

in that dark place and worry that I won't get to having one foot in heaven at

all times..., it also gets pretty lonely, no one to really talk to, no one seems

to get me. They think that I eat mainly vegetarian because of a political

stance, they don't know how to listen to their bodies nor would they understand

if I explained that's what I'm doing. They make many assumptions about me that

just aren't true, and there's no way for me to explain to them that I don't have

to be affiliated to a certain dogma or belief to follow my heart, which is fine

for them, that's where they're at. Ah, and to see what they would say if I told

them my Kundalini's activated, or what's happening to my interior consciousness

because of this...Haha. Well, I think I just went off on a little tangent

there...

 

Well anyways, I could be wrong about the longingness never going, it seems my

ideas and beliefs change daily now, just going with the flow, embracing what I

know, then letting it go . I think I've learned to embrace the dark but for

me, it's so hard to embrace the light, the inner joy aspect of the safeties has

been a tough one for me. So a couple of days ago I decided that whenever I

remember, I just smile, and after seeing the results so far I wonder: what came

first the chicken or the egg? Do I get in these dark places because of something

that is or isn't supposed to happen or do I get in these dark places because I'm

frowning? The main thing that I've noticed is that my mood does shift each time

I practice smiling mindfulness.

 

thank you, it's good to know that you have my back and how we're going to help

all in this community every sunday and I appreciate your prayers and support and

will be giving mine .

 

much love to you Deb and thank you for your genuineness

craig

 

 

 

 

 

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi Craig,

> Thank you too for your enthusiasm and for all your great posts and meditation

tips. I have enjoyed them so. There is something you wrote