surrender...

[Guest guest]

chrism,

I have been quite lethargic all day today, and yesterday...due to a cold.

I was in a strange mood, I could not sit still and focus on the meditations,

the chackra breething, or anything else at all.. was out of sorts, plus my nose

is stuffy, and my head felt full and uncomfterble..

I slept a good deal.

 

then I went for a walk outside this evening, and it was a beautiful, soothing

experience.. I felt the roots that connect me to earth, I saw them branching out

under my feet, I felt I am not alone, and will never be, I was embraced.. it was

very beautiful.. I keep crying when I do the safeties, the surrender, the love,

the gratitude, the forgiveness.. but then, I am quite a teary person of late, so

it doesent surprise me that much there is something about tears that is

extremely soothing.

 

how do I know if I am doing the safeties enough, consistently? I certanly try

to.. but sometimes I just cant find anyone to forgive, anything that I feel a

resentment to.. but maybe I am just not going deeply enough? probably so.. but

then, it seems to be taking form, so I dont worry much. it's mostly a

listening, for things emerge when I listen.. and also being patient.

 

I am full of contradictory feelings, impatient on one side, a part of me want is

all to happen right away, because I deeply fear nothing will happen, that I will

go nowere, that is it not ment for me to find....

on the other side, just this new kind of being in touch with things, this

surrendering and listneing to what has always been there makes me feel so good,

it feels so right, how can I fear nothing will come? it is already come..

 

I feel like I have slowed down, not that my life was very fast before either,

but now it's like I have slowed down inside, in a more concious way, and that my

inner wish is to slow down more and more..

I find myself more patient, trusting.

but still I have expectations, envies, fears, impatiences.. I try to see them,

feel them and then surrender them, as they come, when I feel they are tightening

me.

 

well, thank you, chrism and all of you, I am ever so grateful.

hugs,

lucia

[Guest guest]

lucia:

 

be patient with yourself- the process is unique to each individual - you are

Italian - we Italians are passionate beyond words and the emotions will go thru

many stages - I cry each day - used to last a long time now it is short and

brief - I do not feel bliss or joy often just sadness for loss of what I was and

had and the fear sets in with tears - yet there are moments when all seems well

- like when I read the posts of the group members or I see the mountains or the

sky or feel the cool breeze or laugh with family- these are the precious moments

to savor when things seem too much or too not right-

 

how do you know if this is right for you how do you know if K will come and stay

- you are here dear lady- you are where you are suppose to be - K will grace you

and you will enjoy a lifetime of precious moments some good some not so good but

all gifted and orchestrated by your Kundalini Shakti-

 

you may not understand all that is happening yet know that you are being guided

and gifted and that you are loved - always there is love-

accept and be not afraid -

 

Maggio la stretta di Kundalini Shakti in sue mani e lo benedite durante questi

settimana e regalo di Shaktipat voi con la tolleranza del suo amore… ti amo...

 

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[Guest guest]

chrism and , thank you both...

your italian is DELIGHTFUL!!! thank you SO much for that!

 

lucia

 

 

> accept and be not afraid -

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> Maggio la stretta di Kundalini Shakti in sue mani e lo benedite durante questi

settimana e regalo di Shaktipat voi con la tolleranza del suo amore… ti amo...

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