Guest guest Posted June 25, 2009 Report Share Posted June 25, 2009 Before my K awakened, I was socially awkward. Not because I am a loser or anything like that, I just never felt like I could converse with people. Like I was different and had nothing to say. I was an introvert of sorts. The chick that listened to NIN and Marilyn Manson. I was the original emo kid before it was popular. I used to cut in the 90's. I used to frequent the goth clubs, smoking my cloves in the corner with all of my weirdo friends that played D & D and had l.a.r.p. meetings. You know the type. I used to have a lot of friends, but in my early adult years something happened to me and I began having panic attacks. I became my own worst enemy. I felt like everything I said or thought was being judged. I turned into a wallflower. I even felt weird around my WEIRD friends. Since my K awakened I have had all of my old friends back. I can now throw parties and people actually show up! Lots of people. People are stuck to me like glue. In fact, I don't even worry about what I used to. All of my old anxieties have vanished. It is like my life essence has flown back to me. Anyways, thought this was pretty cool to share. This has changed my life. Has this happened to anyone else? -Tiffany Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 25, 2009 Report Share Posted June 25, 2009 OMG Tiffany I love reading your post here about your life. I love people that are a little different - not bad different just willing to be open to walking the path untraveled. So great to hear how open you've become with everyone. Me too having been shy as a kid well don't get me wrong I still shake like a leaf if I have to get up in front of others and talk - I would rather shovel manure honestly - but I cannot help but see the beauty in all people and it feels so good doesnt it? It feels like this secret smile inside - So you party girl and have your house packed with people that love you as we all do here! Deb , " angelikdementia " <angelikdementia wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 25, 2009 Report Share Posted June 25, 2009 that's very good Tiffany I too have had many social awakenings and built up a lot of confidence. I still don't care much for small talk and talking for hours with people about nothing, but I'm not particularly nervous anymore. I just found my groove. Nervousness, anxiety, and any negative emotion based on fear is a blockage and K will work at this blockage, bringing these emotions to the surface. I think you are doing very well! mikael Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 26, 2009 Report Share Posted June 26, 2009 I had a best friend growing up, she turned goth at 15/16 and we became less and less close, she became more and more introvert and then she ended up in her 20's getting panic attacks. Reading your story made me think of her. She recovered after the panic attacks turned in to OCD and something like ME and is now training to be a doctor, I'm so proud of her. Good for you Tiff for becoming more social, there's a lot of good energy to be spread around in social situations. Enjoy yourself and be the goddess you were always destined to be :-)) I have always been social but I do have a very introvert side , the inner me, the other me that many do not know. Love elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 26, 2009 Report Share Posted June 26, 2009 Hi Tiffyany, Oh yes, I can relate! On probably a more subtle level. I kept to myself most of my growing up years. Not speaking most times so that I wouldn't look silly or be belittled by someone. Hiding in a corner reading books at events. I even fell asleep at a heavy metal concert! (But I blame that on the uncanny ability to be able to sleep anywhere if I want to, teehee.) And back then I simply just not having the desire to extend out much. However, in 2000 I started meditating for the first time and my K started activating at its very nice balanced pace. A spark up my spine and a swirling snake that left my belly aching for a day or two later. This started my transformation into the person I can actually say I like today! I know I've got a long road to go but I'm much more happy with myself, my life and the friends I have. And it will keep on evolving better. Thank you so sharing!!! Bliss, Maggie > > It is like my life essence has flown back to me. > > Anyways, thought this was pretty cool to share. This has changed my life. Has this happened to anyone else? > > -Tiffany > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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