Day 5, day 6 begun...Brad.. on the edge

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hi Brad,

 

nice to hear of your being appreciated.. thats so important to get feedback from

the world, and love coming in. You radiate so much goodness that i cant imagine

it not coming into you My process has been also been active in the legs and

arms this week, with both of them having continuous pulses and twitches and

whatnot in various places. I have also had a lot of twitches in the back of my

skull above my ears, and at night when I sleep it feels like there is a heart

beating on the top of my crown. Its hard to tell how connected I am to the

shaktipat as my process is very active by itself anyway, yet on the first three

days I was having powerful surges in my lower abdomen. It could be that I have

been doing a lot of tibetans and thats cranking up the voltage down there.

Usually after the Tibetans and alternate nostril breathing I say affirmations

about what I want to create in my life, and I find thats a good time to do it as

I am connected to the lower chakras.

 

Internally, still prolific dream activity, more opening to feminine energy, and

a dream about being on the edge a couple of nights ago. In my dream, I am in a

beach house and i drop something which rolls out the house onto a verandah,

stopping near its outer edge. The verandah doesnt have a railing, and I am

afraid to retrieve my object as I notice I am hundreds of meters above the sea

and I am afraid of heights. I caustiously go to the edge and its a howling gale.

I look over and see the ocean far below with powerful waves and white horses. A

large ship seems to be in danger of running aground. End of dream.... That dream

made me think of your bug.. living on the edge and being blown by the wind.. a

bit like me in the dream..

 

I like how you saved the bug and put it somewhere safe. take it as an important

message. We shouldnt be afraid to go the edge with K, and we may get blown

around a little, yet there are always safe hands waiting for us. God gave us

free choice, and if we can choose to push ourselves a little into the realm of

our discomfort and stay there, then there is an opprtunity for transformation

and greater levels of peace and tranquility after. I feel the more we skilfully

test our limits, the more we encourage the K. process

 

I feel one of the reasons my K. is so active is that I push my edge all the

time. I dont mean going into darkness; I mean having a philosophy of continuous

improvement in every area of life, and seeking to be more conscious in that

area, so growing the edges. That, combined with some type of awareness practice

is powerful. All personal growth seems to require a kind of

effort-breakdown-rebuild process..

 

 

One of my key practices now is running. When I run, I try and stay connected to

my legs of abdomen as a point of concentration, and if my mind wanders (avoiding

the moment), I surrender the wandering mind to my higher self and return to the

point of concentration. Today at the gym I ran 10km, keeping my tounge up,

concentration on the legs, using the music to kepe my in rythym, and after about

30 mins things started changing color around me.. was an interesting state to be

in.. lol..As I reach my training limits, the tendency to avoid the present

increases and its a challenge to continue the run and stay connected and feel

the resistance with as much unflinching awareness as possible. This practice of

voluntarily creating resistance and staying present to it has been invaluable in

being able to hold the sometimes very challenging K. expression, and my

understanding of what K does is that it continually raises the bodies ability to

handle higher levels ( or thresholds) of energy, and as each threshold is

reached, and before breaking through (transformation happens) things can get

uncomfortable, so learning how to stay uncomfortable as you hold the creative

tension is key....

 

I tend to push hard (very masculine) and then when things get gritty, I

surrender to the process (very feminine).. and both work together well for me...

 

anyway, rambling on.. that late night coffee has kept me awake.. haha..

 

love

Bruce

 

 

 

Well as we drove it got to the edge, and decided to just keep walking on the

edge- the most dangerous place where the wind would hit it, where the slightest

bump could dislodge it, it was living on the edge... lol a message?

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[Guest guest]

Wonderful Bruce! " Living on the Edge " ...! Maybe you can have the presence of

mind next time in the dream to leap off the cliff, go down to the wild surf and

run with the horses? Go fly out to that boat and see what's going on there?

 

I run using the Shakti Prayer as a Mantra. " Earth Air Fire Snow... "

 

I asked about it one time and he said it was okay. It really goes in a

nice rythm with my breath once I get going.

 

Presently the plum tree on the small mountain nearby is offering a buffet of

fresh organic plums. Gotta partake tomorrow. I always take a few extra with me

on the way back too and offer them to the old security guard I see all the time

on my jog. These plums are so amazingly delicious, so much better than the store

bought ones.

 

be well!

 

bradly