Guest guest Posted July 2, 2009 Report Share Posted July 2, 2009 For the longest time I have said over and over again that I do not know " how to " do this or that when it comes to Kundalini. This has been my truth- I see others figuring out the " how to' and the " wherefore " and I just do not seem to get it - Yet I read the articles and listen to the words of the teacher and I think some of it is sinking in - I am looking at how I react to things- not good most of the time - yet I am seeing the irritation and the quick response when something happens to me. The first step is to realize what the reaction is then figure out how to change that initial reaction- this I know - so I got the first part of the equation down. Today we had a special day at camp - we changed the schedule to celebrate the July 4th holiday. So I had a list of what ages would be coming in - so at 12:00 in walks the Kindergarten kids and I said why are they here I have first coming in - the counselor got really upset and replied if you do not want them we will leave and began to corral the kids - so I said no it is ok - I just did not know and I am not sure I have enough materials - there was more of an exchange and I was really caught off guard and was wondering what the heck was going on - then the 19 first graders came in with the second graders and a third grader - a room full of kids and I could not get the reaction of the counselor out of my head - I felt really bad and was thinking of a way to approach her - after the class she came back in and apologized - I was so relieved and of course told her it was ok - she blamed it on her pregnancy hormones I said it gave me an opportunity for tolerance forgiveness and gratitude- so a lesson was learned by me - I like knowing what to expect - I plan things and feel thrown off when all of a sudden here is a different situation. I know I have to be more open to changes - I know I need to be more tolerant of others- and I know there will always be tests for me to learn from - I felt different during and after this instance- confused and concerned that I had said something to this lady that was not nice - I find I question myself all the time - now what did I do - what did I say - How did I react -thinking the worse - I have been told I look at the worse case scenario and yes I do that includes with me and my actions- always thinking I am at fault or have been not a good person - and of late the situations have turned out not to be me at all - I am given the lesson that I am not as bad as I tend to think at times - amazing - So is this balancing my emotions ?? am not sure yet - I do know that I am seeing things in a new light - I am listing my faults that need attention - the suggestion is to have ready a reaction - a reversal of feelings - I found I did not get really upset today - I was concerned but not angry - that is good for me - and had she not come to me I would have gone to her - a start- yes?? Such mini steps - I am not now doing the tibetans for they rev up my energy and since I am not fully emotionally balanced this is not a good thing - maybe this is why I have not had too many flareups of late - HUMMMMMM- imagine that ?? I just made a connection - will wonders never cease--- Blessings to all of you who have your emotions in balance - e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 Hi, Just a quick little piece of advice which works for me sometimes and maybe will work for you. " I like knowing what to expect - " . I am learning that it is good to plan ahead, but also to be ready for anything that can happen, including everything going totally in the opposite direction as you planned. Even if everything goes the other way, it is still just a happening/experience in your life. If you don't label it as " bad " / " wrong " it wont be. Mike On Thu, Jul 2, 2009 at 9:43 PM, . wrote: > > > For the longest time I have said over and over again that I do not know > " how to " do this or that when it comes to Kundalini. This has been my > truth- I see others figuring out the " how to' and the " wherefore " and I > just do not seem to get it - > Yet I read the articles and listen to the words of the teacher and I think > some of it is sinking in - I am looking at how I react to things- not good > most of the time - yet I am seeing the irritation and the quick response > when something happens to me. The first step is to realize what the reaction > is then figure out how to change that initial reaction- this I know - so I > got the first part of the equation down. > > Today we had a special day at camp - we changed the schedule to celebrate > the July 4th holiday. So I had a list of what ages would be coming in - so > at 12:00 in walks the Kindergarten kids and I said why are they here I have > first coming in - the counselor got really upset and replied if you do not > want them we will leave and began to corral the kids - so I said no it is ok > - I just did not know and I am not sure I have enough materials - there was > more of an exchange and I was really caught off guard and was wondering what > the heck was going on - then the 19 first graders came in with the second > graders and a third grader - a room full of kids and I could not get the > reaction of the counselor out of my head - I felt really bad and was > thinking of a way to approach her - after the class she came back in and > apologized - I was so relieved and of course told her it was ok - she blamed > it on her pregnancy hormones I said it gave me an opportunity for tolerance > forgiveness and gratitude- so a lesson was learned by me - > > I like knowing what to expect - I plan things and feel thrown off when all > of a sudden here is a different situation. I know I have to be more open to > changes - I know I need to be more tolerant of others- and I know there will > always be tests for me to learn from - > I felt different during and after this instance- confused and concerned > that I had said something to this lady that was not nice - I find I question > myself all the time - now what did I do - what did I say - How did I react > -thinking the worse - I have been told I look at the worse case scenario and > yes I do that includes with me and my actions- always thinking I am at fault > or have been not a good person - and of late the situations have turned out > not to be me at all - I am given the lesson that I am not as bad as I tend > to think at times - amazing - > > So is this balancing my emotions ?? am not sure yet - I do know that I am > seeing things in a new light - I am listing my faults that need attention - > the suggestion is to have ready a reaction - a reversal of feelings - I > found I did not get really upset today - I was concerned but not angry - > that is good for me - and had she not come to me I would have gone to her - > a start- yes?? > > Such mini steps - I am not now doing the tibetans for they rev up my energy > and since I am not fully emotionally balanced this is not a good thing - > maybe this is why I have not had too many flareups of late - HUMMMMMM- > imagine that ?? I just made a connection - will wonders never cease--- > > Blessings to all of you who have your emotions in balance - > e > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 The one thing I've learnt is it's good to look at yourself, but do it with a sense of humour, don't be too hard on yourself, you are only human. When you can learn not to judge yourself harshly, but with love and compassion and a bit of a giggle, you will do it for others also. Always look on the light side of life, dee dum dee dum dee dum dee dum..... Do you remember that scene in The Life Of Brian, when they are all singing on their crosses, classic, and yet really worth remembering. You are doing just great love, Hugs elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 Thanks dear Elektra. , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > The one thing I've learnt is it's good to look at yourself, but do it with a sense of humour, don't be too hard on yourself, you are only human. When you can learn not to judge yourself harshly, but with love and compassion and a bit of a giggle, you will do it for others also. > > Always look on the light side of life, dee dum dee dum dee dum dee dum..... > Do you remember that scene in The Life Of Brian, when they are all singing on their crosses, classic, and yet really worth remembering. > You are doing just great love, > Hugs > elektra x x x > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 hi E, well, personally I think revving up the energy from the tibetans is a good thing and if it causes ego boundaries to be bought into awareness, thats an even better thing.. you can see them and work with them and start to go to higher threshholds of tolerance... I read a zen book and one of the messages was 'welcome the weeds in the garden'.... personally, I weed every day.. haha.. and never like it when it happens, yet am grateful after because thats how I transform.. love Bruce , " " . wrote: > > For the longest time I have said over and over again that I do not know " how to " do this or that when it comes to Kundalini. This has been my truth- I see others figuring out the " how to' and the " wherefore " and I just do not seem to get it - > Yet I read the articles and listen to the words of the teacher and I think some of it is sinking in - I am looking at how I react to things- not good most of the time - yet I am seeing the irritation and the quick response when something happens to me. The first step is to realize what the reaction is then figure out how to change that initial reaction- this I know - so I got the first part of the equation down. > > Today we had a special day at camp - we changed the schedule to celebrate the July 4th holiday. So I had a list of what ages would be coming in - so at 12:00 in walks the Kindergarten kids and I said why are they here I have first coming in - the counselor got really upset and replied if you do not want them we will leave and began to corral the kids - so I said no it is ok - I just did not know and I am not sure I have enough materials - there was more of an exchange and I was really caught off guard and was wondering what the heck was going on - then the 19 first graders came in with the second graders and a third grader - a room full of kids and I could not get the reaction of the counselor out of my head - I felt really bad and was thinking of a way to approach her - after the class she came back in and apologized - I was so relieved and of course told her it was ok - she blamed it on her pregnancy hormones I said it gave me an opportunity for tolerance forgiveness and gratitude- so a lesson was learned by me - > > I like knowing what to expect - I plan things and feel thrown off when all of a sudden here is a different situation. I know I have to be more open to changes - I know I need to be more tolerant of others- and I know there will always be tests for me to learn from - > I felt different during and after this instance- confused and concerned that I had said something to this lady that was not nice - I find I question myself all the time - now what did I do - what did I say - How did I react -thinking the worse - I have been told I look at the worse case scenario and yes I do that includes with me and my actions- always thinking I am at fault or have been not a good person - and of late the situations have turned out not to be me at all - I am given the lesson that I am not as bad as I tend to think at times - amazing - > > So is this balancing my emotions ?? am not sure yet - I do know that I am seeing things in a new light - I am listing my faults that need attention - the suggestion is to have ready a reaction - a reversal of feelings - I found I did not get really upset today - I was concerned but not angry - that is good for me - and had she not come to me I would have gone to her - a start- yes?? > > Such mini steps - I am not now doing the tibetans for they rev up my energy and since I am not fully emotionally balanced this is not a good thing - maybe this is why I have not had too many flareups of late - HUMMMMMM- imagine that ?? I just made a connection - will wonders never cease--- > > Blessings to all of you who have your emotions in balance - > e > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 Dear e, Thank you for sharing. It is a very humbeling experience to read about the struggles other people are having and I am so grateful for it because I see my own struggles reflected in the posts of others, and it somehow helps me, it validates my being lost and helps me to look at me longer and further ... I don;t mean in anyway to be judgmental or dismissif of what you said , but I think you sooooo seem to get it!!! I am trying to do as you are doing and look .. really look at how I am reacting to things. Since yesterday I am feeling an irritability arise in me..... I am struggling with that ... I could so do with out this.. steps forward and steps backward... but I believe even the " backward " ones or the times of standing still is all progress.. we often don't see at the time.... At least I hope this is the case lol Thank you e...Love Julia. ________________________________ . Friday, July 3, 2009 5:43:16 AM Emotional balancing... For the longest time I have said over and over again that I do not know " how to " do this or that when it comes to Kundalini. This has been my truth- I see others figuring out the " how to' and the " wherefore " and I just do not seem to get it - .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 Dear Bruce, I love that... " Welcome the weeds in the garden " Thank you . Love Julia. ________________________________ bruce_oom <bruce_oom Friday, July 3, 2009 5:06:15 PM Re: Emotional balancing... ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 3, 2009 Report Share Posted July 3, 2009 No offense taken - I have been told by others that I get it I just do not believe it so I cause myself pain and suffering. The feelings do come and go like waves on the ocean. Some days I feel really settled and balanced and on other days I am all over the place. I have struggled with the safeties trying to figure out how one does honesty trust forgiveness and the others- seems to me that one needs situations to " do " these - guess maybe I am making it too hard?? So for now I am trying to be mindful of my reactions and then proceed. And forgiveness is the biggy - so many have posted how they handle forgiveness I am still looking for my way. The new situations that occur are not so hard to forgive it is the old ones that plaque me - so I do what I do how I can when I do and if the do is not good enough I will eventually redo the do --- sorry could not help meself Be patient with yourself - this is not rocket science although at times it feels like it and I hear the bliss state can be equated to rockets in motion. Hope to achieve that before my time here is over. Sending you love and balance e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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