Crucifixion/birth of new -Julia-Sparrow

July 9, 2009

Hi Julia, I am happy that you found what I posted interesting. Just maybe the

whole post was not a totally boo-boo after all. Sparrow's taking the post wrong

sent me into a HUGE emotional storm. I cried and cried all afternoon. The sound

on my computer might as well been off for me, too, yesterday. Those funny videos

that were posted, instead of cheering me up, they made me cry all the more. I

cried myself to sleep last night and had resigned to myself that I would go into

lurksville and stay there forever and forever! Full moon madness kicked in I

think! If you had not replied to my post today, in the way that you did, I would

have stayed in lurksville for sure.

I read Sparrow's post to you yesterday and it inspired in me the " desire " to

post what I did. I think the post should have been to you and not Sparrow, but

my intuitive faculties are not the greatest or things just get haywire in my

mind. I should have put your name in the heading and wrote it to you, instead of

Sparrow. It was a big mistake on my part, because I knew you had been posting on

the christian kundalini group. I did not mean it, the way you took it Sparrow

and I was not and never have been offended by anything you have said. I am not

normally or at least used not to be a very emotional person....from years of

holding my emotions in I would think. So Sparrow I apologize again for my over

emotional reaction to your explaining. To me it did seem you were offended by

what I posted and it was not my intent to offend you. I definitely was not

wanting some religious debate with you or anyone else. It does not matter to me

what other people's beliefs are, or what color of skin or what country they are

from. I do not even think in those terms. To me they are all my brothers and

sisters and we have much to learn and experience through each other.

Julia, in all my crying yesterday I finally realized why it is so hard for me to

see the Holy Spirit as the same as Shakti/K-ma. I did not have a good father

relationship and not a real good mother either. I was very close to my granny

though...at least had that. I had a lot of anger for my dad because of the way

he treated her, my mom, me, and my youngest brother. I don't know why he was so

mean to my little brother, I guess because he was so much younger than my older

brothers and he could not do as much work as they did. He only had all of us so

as to have free farmhands, he didn't really care about any of us, only what work

we could do. I don't know why he had such dislike for me either, it sure wasn't

because I did not do my share of the work. I did more than my share trying hard

to get him to like me.

When I was baptized by the Holy Spirit, He came to me in the form of a loving

father, giving to me what I was missing. So it is very hard for me to switch now

and see Him as female after all these years. I still need Him as Father.

Love & light to all,

Linda

, Julia Ahern <jajahern

wrote:

>

> I know I said I would not reply and only read and read but I couldn't

resist... Hi Linda..

> What you say is very interesting... I think the Holy spirit is quite neglected

in Christianity...

July 10, 2009

Hi Linda, your reference to lurksville brought a big smile to me. Seems to

be where I like to remain, communicating via the written word is quite

difficult. Just wanted to say that there is so much love within this group,

we all want the best for each other. Don't worry...crank the fiddle music

and do an Irish jig around the room and that is sure to bring a laugh.

Considering I really don't know how to jig it sure made me laugh last night.

Irish laugh yoga?

I honour your bravery for leaving lurksville.

Love, Carla

2009/7/9 Linda <crazycats711

>

> Hi Julia, I am happy that you found what I posted interesting. Just maybe

> the whole post was not a totally boo-boo after all. Sparrow's taking the

> post wrong sent me into a HUGE emotional storm. I cried and cried all

> afternoon. The sound on my compu

>

July 10, 2009

Sorry Tiffany, that your feeling where hurt. My feeling ran rampant as well,

more so from your post than from Sparrows. Your post looked like mockery to me

and I see no smiley in it at all. Isn't this =) a symbol for a wink or

something? I do this for a smiley.

@@@ Have you ever read the Nag Hammadi library? It's pretty interesting. In the

gnostic texts, Jesus actually never was crucified. He merely laughed, invisible

beside them, at their stupidity.

Interesting reading the Gnostic Christian texts =)

-Tiffany S.@@@

And who are any to judge if the Nag Hammadi is the real thing over the books

that were chosen by the christain leaders of that time and age. Do we know more

than the christian leaders of that time, to judge which ones were authenic and

which were not?

To me the words Gnostic Christian is an oxymoron.

" There is actually no such thing as Christian Gnosticism, because true

Christianity and Gnosticism are mutually exclusive systems of belief. The

principles of Gnosticism contradict what it means to be a Christian. Therefore,

while some forms of Gnosticism may claim to be Christian, they are in fact

decidedly non-Christian. "

All the Gnostic site I visited and studied on the net would be insulted to be

linked as christian. They claim to be of no religion but get direct knowledge,

so I do not see why they even use the Nag Hammadi books at all except to prove

they are not christian. They say they are compatible with all religions " except "

christianity.

Many of those books were written hundreds of years after Jesus' time, using the

disciples names under false pretents to make them seem more authenic. That is

what my searching discovered.

Actually, I could say I am gnostic in a way, in that I got my knowledge of the

christian faith direct for Jesus himself. He came to me one night and continue

visiting with me for about six months before I ever became involved or joined a

christian church and it was at his request that I did. I guess one could say I

was channeling and the being could have just been some being pretending to be

Jesus, but he did teach me from the bible, which was my first time to ever read

it. He was very kind, loving, and a wonderful teacher. He is truly my Savior for

if He had not come to me that night, my life as Linda would have been ended and

I would not be here now or had the chance to teach many children of His love for

them.

I apologize agian Tiffany for I except what you said in a different light now.

Really in the context of what was written it truly did seem as mockery and a

slam against christianity. I hope you can see our point of view.

Blessing Tiffany