Apathy... (Watch this crazy dialogue with myself lol) - Bruce

July 12, 2009

hi Bruce,

I appreciate your writing here. I'm kinda laughing at myself reading this as I

realize my posts are filled with wth and damned and on and on! I am thinking

about this and am thinking about the 800 or so rs and kinda ducking

right now. (:

I realize I may have not been so respectful and I apologize for my language.

Whats funny is that up until about a year or two ago I never ever swore. Then I

went through this questioning and questioning of society. (and btw what I'm

saying here I know you did not mean I'm just explaining how I went from someone

who never swears to this me now)

Anyway it was like watching the video sparrow put in about that group and the

little girl there. I bet they never swear. And there are people that I had an

obligation with Friday night and as I was sitting there all night it was about

These people SHOULD be doing this or THese people shouldnt be doing that...all

night judgements on everyone else. I guess what I'm saying is that I've met

people who spend their time (and I'm sure you have to) judging and telling them

their way is the right way and looking down at others for all sorts of things,

and also met others that swear, or drink or smoke weed or do things that are not

considered good in society (and mind you I'm not saying anyone should start this

- Shakti has a nasty way of cleaning house!ha) All I'm saying is that depending

on the person, I have found more love in someones heart with the latter than the

former. I know you just want the best for us btw!

i came from a strict background and wouldnt dare to say a swear word ever! As a

matter of fact in middle school the teacher had all the kids read a paragraph

out loud. So I skipped to my part and the word " hell " was in there. I was

completely horrified! I wouldn't dare say the word - I was afraid I would get in

trouble, but I didn't want the kids to make fun of me either, I was shy and

honestly I didn't want any attention drawn toward me. So when it was my turn, I

just read out loud really fast and skipped the hell word hoping noone would

notice. But everyone did and the teacher stopped me and made me read the

sentence over again. So I skipped the word again and it turned into this huge

thing where he kept trying to explain it wasn't a swear word and now all the

kids in class are laughing and shouting just say it! And I wouldn't. I didn't

want to get in trouble at home, I thought if I said that, then I wouldn't be a

" nice " girl anymore.

So I mean earlier than now I have been questioning society beliefs of course.

But really in the last couple of years I would look at a belief I had and look

for its opposite. Was really trying to break these belief patterns. I looked up

the strangest youtube videos and watched so many different belief systems - all

in this perhaps breaking of my ego structure - breaking of these childhood

beliefs, breaking of any sort of belief that felt in any way like a " should " or

a " Shouldnt "

And for me when I swear I have love in my heart, its like when you stub your

toe...I never have malice in my heart. And when I hear someone else, its a word

it has the power and meaning you give it or the person saying it. Having said

all that its really helped me to lighten up about life in general. But I do

understand completely completely what you are saying. I will clean it up a bit

my friends! Its funny even in my daily life I don't swear much - I do say " What

the and then leave it blank alot " but when I type I think I spill out my

thoughts...that must make me a closet swearer! ha

You see my typing chakra is wide open, my throat chakra needs some help. So a

shout out to you 800 or so people - sorry if I was disrespectful - I hope not to

move on to drugs and alcohol next. lol

PEOPLE that was a JOKE!

Thank you Bruce though because honestly it feels like I'm just talking to the

people that talk and I feel safe and don't get me wrong I feel safe with all you

lurkers but don't want you to think I don't respect all of you. And Bruce I know

you have no judgements here - I know you just want our highest good for each of

us.

I know words have vibrations too...Thanks!!

Deb (:

July 12, 2009

Dear Deb,

you are sooo cool ....and

you sooooo lift me up.... and

you soooo are funny...

I love the way you write and.... you are soooo right,,that typing chakra

is soooo open

You rock......thank you dear Deb, much love Julia.

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flowerpowers7777 <flowerpowers7777

Sunday, July 12, 2009 10:59:53 PM

Re: Apathy... (Watch this crazy

dialogue with myself lol) - Bruce

..

July 13, 2009

Dear Julia,

I wish we could all have our own Julia with us each and every day making us

feel so good about ourselves - Thank you my friend for your so very kind

words...I think you rock too! Its kinda a rockin' place with so many beautiful

people - I hear there are 800 more out there Julia...so what do you think, how

to get them to want to come out and play? Any ideas?? i suppose we could pass

you around to brighten their day but I think you're kinda busy there! haha

Oh and Julia I loved what you wrote on the Saturday Night Post! I loved

everything and appreciate you sharing how you feel and about the mercy and us

judging ourselves, it was very beautiful...

Oh and I'm still laughing at your cousin and the craic? story! hahaha

Much love to you and yours!

Deb

, Julia Ahern <jajahern

wrote:

July 13, 2009

HAHA I curse like a sailor. It is just a part of my language. My grandpa was a

drill sergeant and my parents cursed like there was no tomorrow. My hubby curses

and my friends do. I never really think about it, but to me cursing is second

nature. It never bugs me. They're just words to me. I'm not offended. I don't

really care to change that about myself either **grin** But I do know when to

not say those words (Like in front of the elderly)

**Shrug**

-Tiffany S

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

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> hi Bruce,

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> I appreciate your writing here. I'm kinda laughing at myself reading this as I