a little story and in need of a lot of help

[Guest guest]

Can anyone accually mess up a shaktipat?

 

i kind of heard things like,

putting you out of the balloon.

 

 

 

I even met a girl that day because of a friend.

 

We had a conversation at a few days later, next thing I know is that she

made a cross in front of me and said; I forgive you. I felt as if she cut me

in half.

 

That was on a Goa party. In the morning of the Goa party, I’m standing in

the sun, gazing…

when I got hit by the light and saw what appeared to be woman as vampires

and men as werewolves. I was chocked, so I ran to a friend. Who only said,

you saw it? I said yeah, but others see me like that to. He said in reply:

well, then there is no problem. Just enjoy the Sun and gaze in it daily,

with a 10sec per day adding. In the morning, the girl drove me home. When

entering my place and having a little conversation. I felt tired, as if my

energy was being sucked out of me. She said she began to fall in love with

me. I kind of had the same feeling, but with what I saw, I was very careful.

She then left. More or less because I wanted her to leave.

 

With the same girl, a day later, having a conversation at night. The

conversation was about the fact that everybody needs to learn, even those

who make mistakes. En even then, they still should be able to get chances.

Even if they made the mistake again. She said to me; rapers and murderers

belong in hell. (She was raped once and in my own lifetime, at the age of 11

a girl of 9 asked to be raped. i refused, but the seed was there, and i

kinda messed with it to. this subject is for the both of us a big issue)

When looking at her, I almost saw past the fabric of our reality. It was as

if I was on lsd, but without taking it. She scared the shit out of me. (my

apologies for my expression)

 

The whole falling in love thing stopped right there.

 

 

Since then, I have a lot of trouble with everything that’s happening. I

mean, I distrust people. This girl really fucked me up.

 

hope there is someone who can help me.

 

kind regards,

 

Thierry

 

--

ShinSham

DTL Heer Lorcan

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Firstly, welcome Thierry.

 

Secondly, we don't use sware words on the list, if you really need to please

write like this sh!t as we get censored by in to the adult section. Even

the word s3x should be written like that.

 

Thirdly, I'm not sure what it is your trying to ask, have you received

Shaktipat? Have you kundalini syptoms? Are you wondering what happened between

you and that girl?

If thats the case, I can't really say without knowing more details such as, did

this happen after shaktipat?

 

I do know kundalini can make your fears and worries seem real and come to life,

I do know that there is all kinds of crazeeness in this world and especially

around these party areas where people take dr*gs and such, entities love to

feast on that and vampires love to hang out for a tasty energy snack. And

spiritual retreat areas also attract all kinds of weird people, I should know

I've met quite a few in my travels around asia.  Always best to take care of

yourself and if you get a bad feeling, get away.

 

Many blessings and love

 

elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hey Elektra,

 

my apologies for the sware words. It’s just a lot to take in. and feel

unsure how to deal with these experiences.

 

 

I think I received a Shaktipat when i was listening to an audio recording

from themastergathering website.

The clearing the believe system file. Since then my life is upside down.

The shaktipat happened about 3 months ago.

but i failed miserable, because i was so unprepared for the whole event.

 

i felt like being sucked in the here and now moment. but broke the whole

thing of after seeing with closed eyes 3 flashes equal to the sunlight.

the first thing i heard after that was a woman yelling; my god, doesn't he

have any idea what is....

the first thing i saw, a few hours after, when going out of my house, where

like demons in a human skin.

 

 

the first evening after that day, i heared a scream, as if a woman was being

molested. i thought it came from upstaires in the building where i live. so

when to see if it was so. when opening my door and going up the staires, i

heard a man yell; look, look, he's going to do it.

 

it frose me up, looked around but saw no one. so i just went back into my

appartment.

 

in the beginning after the event, i felt a magnetic field at the back of my

brain. as if the 2 parts wanted to join. i tried meditating. but never

accomplished the joining. at a evening, i went for a walk to the park. tried

to meditate there, but after a while, just gave up. when walking back to my

house, i felt the magnetic field again. And a girl on the street, a few

meters in front of me said; why won't you talk to me.

 

looking back to most of the experiences, i feel as if i'm missing out.

 

 

when walking on the street, i heard a woman say, this marriage will never

work.

 

 

when standing at a expresso-van, a woman was talking about love and

relationships.

 

i entered the conversation. told her my idea's.

 

something about a girl you have in your vision, that if you stay true to the

vision and are worthy, she will come in to the physical life.

 

the thing was, this woman, i guess in her 30's. She looked like the girl i

envisioned when i was a boy.

 

when telling her i made a mess of things. she got a text message of her

ex-husband. saying he was sorry, and wanted to talk about it.

her only reply was, well, i guess i'll listen. she seem to find it amusing.

 

 

when contemplating over light and darkness. a man and a woman walked towards

me.

 

when passing me, the man said, it's about me. the woman only replied; i

wonder why.

 

 

then the girl i met and the goa party the day after.

 

 

when meditating at night, about a week ago, i was at the blaarmeersen

(recreation center with a beach)

i was meditating on the beach, when a sound like a balloon that was letting

air out, appearened.

i dismissed it, because it came from the outside. it stopped for a while,

but it came back.

 

when hard concentrating on the noise within my head, a high pitch tone, the

other sound when away again.

 

 

ow, uhm, when re-listening to the audio tape, this time complete, i had to

laugh and cry, because i missed out on so much.

and the weird thing is; it is like some of the things on the tape are

changed.

in stead of agreeing to the clearing of the believe system, it said this

time that my subconscious let me know that I’m scared and wish to hide. I

have been unable to delete the pattern in my brain.

 

The thing is: it true... the whole experience from then until present

moment, it scared me a lot.

 

i feel like hiding, i had a problem trusting anyone before this al happened.

well, this event made that worse.

 

 

there are more things i can tell you, but then i would be making a report

for at least 10 pages.

 

if you want, i'll do it. maybe it's usefull. and would give a better inside.

 

 

The main question is: can someone be but outside of the whole creation

bubble.

 

if so; can someone counteract to it?

 

 

to be honest, since the evening of listening to the audio file, i'm unsure

what real and what dream or illusion.

 

it's like as if i'm living in a illusion when being awake.

 

 

after years of searching what this whole thing is with religion

 

the only book i found that has more or less a good discription in it, it the

red lion by maria svepes.

 

i study alchemy in my free time. it's a book by about a guy who killed his

teacher to get the red powder of gold.

 

he wanted eternal life, but got a hell before getting there.

 

by the end of the book, it more or less explained. that all that is, is just

our own imagination.

 

it's our consciousness that makes up all of this.

i tend to agree with it. more or less due to the fact that the quantum

fysica world said a similar thing.

 

 

but i have almost no idea how to deal with al this.

 

you can say, meditate...

 

but then the question arrises, ok, but what then?

 

 

 

Thierry

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Firstly, I would recomend visiting our web site and read the section " the

safeties " and also " the tibetans " and start applying them to bring some balance

back in to the mind and body.

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com

 

No one is outside of creation and yes, spiritual openings are not always pretty

fluffy bunnies and hearts and roses, they are often disturbing and scary,

especially when the mind and body have not been conditioned properly before

hand. Slow is always the best speed.

 

All is not lost dear, and I too live in a world that is plenty like a dream, I

call it dreaming awake. The trick is to cleanse the fear out of the equation,

eating healthy foods and drinking plenty of water, watermelon helps reduce fear

and calms the mind.

 

Our Master teacher has been offline for a few days as he is on the road,

but I'm sure he can give you even better advice then myself. The most important

thing to remember is that you are not alone in this, you have friends here who

will send you love and support and answer your questions. Try to cultivate a

sense of inner joy within yourself as best you can.

 

Love elektra x x x