a sharing ...

[Guest guest]

i used to listen to a fella named Dan Fogelburg , a musician , who does many

lovely ballads - mostly folk music but did get into a number of types of genres

- very into the native american culture - saving the earth and honoring all

peoples.

 

he died last year i think it was - i was saddened for he was still young 50 and

had many more songs to share -

 

i listened today to one of his early cd's this is one i used to daydream and

fantasize to - he tells stories of love and heart ache and love of ships and

life -

 

i have been feeling rather strange which i know is nothing unusual with

Kundalini but this is a new strangeness- i see myself going thru the motions of

living yet am not really here not wanting to be here and not really interested

in anything here ( here being this realm )

 

there is a longing that i feel a strong longing - the music today helped me to

verbalize it and i wanted to share with all of you.

 

i just realized after writing a really long post that this is a longing to bring

to me not so much the wanting to run away although i feel that often - or this

morning heading toward the mountain and wondering what it would feel like to go

thru it kind of like harry potter going thru the brick wall at the train

station-

 

wanting to feel whole maybe ?? so just some thoughts i cannot relate much to

all the intellectual discussions i am too wrapped up with my emotions and my day

to day living - trying to sort it out and feel like i can be somewhat sane in

this new world - i do not much like it really - running away or joining a group

sounds much more appealing yet i will not allow myself the freedom to do that -

and am not sure Shakti has that in mind for me but believe me a nunnery sounds

very inviting at this time -

 

my sister is bringing to me all kinds of " STuFF " i do not like " STUFF " i want

to be free of it yet how does one lead a normal life here without it - and then

there is the bringing in of more " stuff " to make the new place livable - WHAT

THE H***am I doing here ???

 

am already thinking of how to get rid of this " STUFF " when i next move - George

Carlin would be proud of me for realizing the insanity of all this " STUFF " say

if anyone needs any STUFF you are welcome to come look at it all---

 

i am feeling trapped with all the settling - wanted to be settled now well - it

is a yoke i feel and somehow i have to accept it and live with it and be

somewhat in a normal persona an acceptable persona while working and living here

- a K community sounds really nice at this point - then i can drop that persona

and be who i really am -

 

manifest manifest may i manifest my desires ...

 

thank you for being here - here i can be my old grumpy k self sometimes ---feels

real good ---

blessings to all

e

[Guest guest]

I have been feeling a little of this " apathy " also as Tiffany put it, I have

also been feeling stuck in my place of residence and feeling the urge to return

to nature but alas, GoD wants me to be here in the City as He/She made sure I

would have no money last month to travel so I had to stay put, finally I'm

allowed a holiday to Tibet, my present for being a good girl. :-))

 

Stick in there , we are in an inbetween worlds phase globally as the

increase in vibration continues, the planet is in flux and so are we all.

 

Much love elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

 

I shall look up this Dan Fogelburg - maybe he's on youtube. Thanks for the tip!

Just want to say I know that feeling too...we'll have to double up on our

Kundalini Communtiy Prayers! I want to see you in a jetpack my friend! I know

what you mean by stuff! It seems like something else to take care of...dust,

move around...ha! My mom use to like to buy me little statues for every

holiday...a little valentines statue, on and on, but she knows now that I love

her and her gesture but no thanks...see I'm holding out on my 800 Kundalite

statues...can't wait to see her expression with that! haha

Much love to you - those kids at that school are going to be very lucky

to have you walking the halls! But I do know what you mean...

Thinking of you...Bradly and I will have to swoop down on our dragons and pick

you up for a midnight dream ride...we'll scoop all the stuff you don't want on

the dragon tails and drop it down to all the good little boys and girls...it'll

be like christmas in July for them (:

I don't mind wearing the santa suit...although...hmmm....we do know a bearded

guy! ha

Deb

PS

If you don't like dragons...I hear theres a fabulous selection of flying

unicorns just waiting for someone to take them for a night ride! (:

Oh oh - was that another rambling?

 

 

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