a little story and in need of a lot of help - Thierry

[Guest guest]

Hello Thierry,

You have attracted some difficult experiences into your life by

virtue of your thoughts and actions. Intentions and actions will attract similar

consciousness as reflections of our inner selves into our external experience.

 

I will suggest that you clean up your thoughts and fantasies. Raping the nine

year old even if only in the mind or playing around with that idea is going to

attract some very ugly experiences your way.

 

Un-plant that seed from your mind!

 

Stay away and I mean far away from any of these people. See them no more unless

you wish to be dinner. You have not developed yet the discipline of mind and

control of your intentions well enough to be in there presence as remain a free

person.

 

Most people haven't so don't feel bad.

 

I do not recommend sungazing.

 

Take all of these people out of your life as soon as you can possibly do so.

Begin to become a humble servant of love and kindness towards others first.

Begin to clean up and remain clean by not falling into your desires and

fantasies of s & xual or any kind of nature but for you I see this as being mainly

a s & xual issue.

 

As Elektra suggested get your self deep into the safeties! Do the emotional

safeties the forgiveness and graciousness and compassion and love and honesty

and integrity. Forgive others and forgive yourself. Then move into the

meditative aspects.

 

Do no physical aspect of the safeties until you have cleaned up your thoughts

and intentions. No worries Thierry this happens to many people and you merely

need to change the way you think and act. Be honest with yourself my friend. -

 

 

 

 

, Heer Lorcan

<Heer.Lorcan wrote:

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> Can anyone accually mess up a shaktipat?

>

[Guest guest]

Hey Crism,

 

thanks for the advice. i'll work on it.

 

and yes, the whole s & xual thing is a big issue for me.

considering my mother's occupation around the time i was conceived and born.

and then that girl at the age 11.

be serious, this is far from what it suppose to be...

for me, knowing was most important.

the thing was, i liked this girl very much. and she got mad at me, for

refusing.

that hurted alot...

when in puberty, well, i had trouble with most people and especially girls.

that one girl was still in my mind. then i started playing on a fantasie

level only with what she asked me.

i just wanted to understand what it was, to know how it would have been.

why she asked in the first place.

i guess i'll never make that mistake ever.

i did do some stupid things

but i never intented it to be like this.

women in general have earned my respect.

maybe a little to much, cos i'm kinda scared, and seem to have trouble

giving myself.

the only type of women i almost never have trouble with, are those of elder

age.

but a relationship with a women who could be my grandmother, is far from

what i desire.

with women of my age, it seem to lack whatever i find with women of older

age.

and vice versa ofcourse...

i sure have some work on myself...

 

there has to be a middle way, a golden road.

i refuse politely to be dinner.

 

Thank

--

ShinSham

DTL Heer Lorcan

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

No worries about girls or being able to attract a girlfriend. This will come as

you eliminate more of the fears from your life. You have more important issues

presently. Please remember that some of your mistakes will haunt you so do your

best not to participate in the fantasies that can bite back. - blessings

Thierry. - chrism

 

 

, Heer Lorcan

<Heer.Lorcan wrote:

 

> i did do some stupid things

> but i never intented it to be like this.