Shaktipat Level 2 July 11th 2009 in Bushwillows c/o Heidi

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Well where do I begin, as I feel I am really still " landing " from it. Hmmm,

well as with all things, I double guessed even following through on my yes on

this. That happens to me all the time, so nothing special here. For some

reason, my personality asks for a push to get me there, even my birth was

induced after I played with my parents with multiple false labors. Surely it

has to do in part with taking the full brunt of the responsibility of my

choices.

 

So I arrive in a mood. Also not unlike my personality, being of cancer

astrology sign with only 6 hours of sleep the night before, which for me oft

causes the next day to resemble a drunken stupor.

 

Since the 1st day after Shaktipat 1, after I did the 5 Tibetans on my own in the

backyard, I've been dealing with daily nausea. It was the beginning of Level II

that I was taken aside and gently pointed toward the likelihood (reality) that

it is the weakness of my practice with the other safeties that is causing this.

A guidepost if you will to point me where I MUST go, since my heart was

obviously still resisting direct communication and flow.

 

Another thing touched on as I was taken aside near after arrival, was the topic

of anger and how that was going to be touched on through this Level 2,

especially important being that it is such a highly senstivive topic for

seemingly everyone to be addressed and most of all to own.

 

Oddly enough, not a week prior, my boyfriend & I were out to dinner with a

psychotherapist. He had pointed out to me that anger is always a cover for

fear. How perfectly orchestrated that piece of info was provided to me in prep

for this Level 2 experience. I do so find that synchronicity factor frequent in

my life, most blatant in how the angels and unseen realm are jumping up and down

in excitement as they see me even slightly approaching each next step on my

journey. That brings a smile to my face and I do so feel their support and for

that I am deeply grateful which I express within and here outwardly. Doing so

seems to increase how often it happens, or I figure really it brings it more

into my focus so I am more oft conscious of it, because in reality, there are

countless beings always rooting for us at every step.

 

So touched more on the fears and how those would be challenged and how to

deal with that process... That is when the light came on to parallel the anger

covering up the fear, so him touching on the fear was really the truer core of

the anger. He took the more direct route.

 

For some reason though I kept raising my hand about anger. As I felt the need

for an interim stepping stone between where I was and the fear he spoke so

vehemently about.

 

Ergo I was awarded with a TIGER SHAKTIPAT. YIIIIIKES!

 

Ouch, bang, boom is what that is all about.

 

I was an example of getting the anger knocked out of you for all to see before

them. Very block shattering with unforeseen after-effects of empowerment to

know that my body will return to its elastic rubbery quality of younger youth at

whim.

 

Another theme within the Tiger Shaktipat was about forgiveness. Of course, when

dealing with anger and fear. Forgiveness is key. The importance of forgiving

was indeed beat into me. I own that I have taken that on very diligently since

and feel/know its extraordinary healing benefits.

 

So I transcended the fears involved in even allowing the Tiger Shaktipat, as I

didn't know what that involved. A leap into the unknown, through the fear, to

shatter the anger, that covered the fears as invitation of those forth so that I

may transcend those as well that are in my path toward the awakened life. Phew!

Wild ride!

 

Some notes of progress since:

I do feel a heightened sense of fear overall, rather than the evident yet unfelt

anger as previous. & last night, I felt my heart for moments which brought

tears to my eyes. I did my best to stay with that and stay open to that as it

waned in and out a touch, but for certain I felt it for moments. I excitedly

look forward to living there (my heart) and from there (my heart) more and more

as I grow my already burgeoning trust and faith in the process. I would like to

say my full trust and full faith, however as evidenced in my life, I haven't yet

claimed that reality. I'd be lying. It is there for me to claim at any and

every moment, however it seems I like most everyone else must ease into those

shoes.

 

Until Next Time,

Blessings Abound,

Heidi

[Guest guest]

Hi Heidi,

 Thanks for sharing these..i am still in awe of what i witnessed with your tiger

shaktipat.

It comes as a bit of shock to see anger & fear literally beaten out of a

person's body. Being a part of that group we have to witness so as to get a grip

on our own fears. As mentioned, it had to take a courageous girl like you

to show us how to deal with anger & fear..it was certainly a learning process

for all of us. So thank you so much for being the tiger shakti girl!!!

 

love & blessings to you,

edgar

 

 

 

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Thursday, July 16, 2009 11:56:06 AM

Shaktipat Level 2 July 11th 2009 in

Bushwillows c/o Heidi

 

 

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Ergo I was awarded with a TIGER SHAKTIPAT. YIIIIIKES!

 

Ouch, bang, boom is what that is all about.

 

I was an example of getting the anger knocked out of you for all to see before

them. Very block shattering with unforeseen after-effects of empowerment to know

that my body will return to its elastic rubbery quality of younger youth at

whim.

 

 

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A big HOWDY to Heidi!!

 

Wow...wa wow...wa wow,wow,wow!

 

Don't know what to say except thank you for your courage and strength and for

sharing this with all of us! I think the next time I feel anger or fear I will

think upon your experience and it will help me to release it...(no need to call

the tiger...hear that Shakti? ha)

 

See where else in the entire world would I ever be honored to be graced with

such amazing discoveries and experiences as I do here?

I am thankful for you sharing and thankful for this place.

 

Much love to you and know by your sharing you help me and others and I'm so

grateful!

 

May the doves fly by your window!

Deb

 

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