Elektra? Sky

[Guest guest]

Dear Sis,

 

I was feeling great until Monday actually, when all this anger and bitterness

and violence came out from deep within, I was letting go of some Father issues,

and yes, I did feel awful, I wasn't even friendly to the tibetan locals who

tried to come and sit with me as all the venom was rising to the top in the

park. they tried to speak to me, I just stood up and ignored them and walked

away, my emotions were too intense I couldnt speak.

But, Mother Nature or is that Mother Nurture, took care of me, she helped me

understand that these deep emotions were the reason I had been dreaming of

violently beating up people in my dreams. It was horrid.

 

I had this one dream the night before the anger erupted, of beating a bad woman

who was holding a baby to protect herself, I didnt care, my anger was so

powerful I rationalised the baby was young and could be reincarnated soon so I

beat her and let the baby get injured badly if not fatally. I woke up in such

turmoil having witnessed this in my dream I pleaded to the universe " show me

where this anger and violence comes from? " nearly in tears.

I then fell back to sleep and had a therapy dream with Oprah !!! I told her

everything about my violent dream just minutes before, she was really kind and

she bought be some kind of milk shake with avocado and made me drink it. I think

it was some magic dream juice!!!

 

The very next day I had my break through in the park, all the anger came out and

I realised it was from the beatings my father used to give me as a child, severe

beatings by anyones  standards, and for me, horrific as I was very sensitive and

hated violence.

I hated my Dad and would wish he would die. I wished it every day for a while. I

never forgave that, I forgot about it as it was so long ago, I focused on more

general forgiveness but this issue needed special attention.

 

So, thanks for your love and concern dear sis, hugs and peaceful dreams (I

promise , no more assasin Elektra!) x x x