My thoughts and questions

July 25, 2009

Hi Guys,

Just some comments on posts and my feelings.

It would be great if could write a book about Kundalini and if he did, I would put a copy in everyone's Christmas stocking. But as someone who has written a book (In 1982), It takes time, a lot of study and burning a candle at both ends for many nights. It cannot be done properly while trying to earn a living. I was getting benefits at the time so all my basic needs like housing, heating and food were catered for, but I dont know if there is a similar system in US? If not, would need our financial support.

I went to the bathroom first thing this morning and as I had my we & , I looked down at my feel and they looked like 'webbed' feet. Just like a duck !! The image was with me just a few seconds but long enough for me to know I was not seeing things. My feet were okay after that. Has anyone else had webbed feet?

Some of you know I was having problems at work. Well, the Manager ate a dodgy meal on Thursday so Fridays meeting was cancelled and tonight he went into hospital. All work has been put on hold untill he is better (his orders). I'll say a few words for him in my Sunday group meditation. The guy who's car broke down has had problems with his 8yr old daughter who has an 'Attachment Disorder'. They have lost their home as she tried to drown another small child they were living with. I'm advising him to get her help on Monday as when left untreated this disorder leads to Psychopathic tendencies.

I sat watching sport on TV this afternoon and my old cat came to mind, so I burst into tears. Not little tears but a torrent from nowhere. The cat had died 15yrs ago but during that time I was mourning being apart from my children and custody issues. An aunt and a close friend had also died within the same week, and I was asked to give a talk and lead a hymn at both burial services. The loss of my cat was way down on my list of troubles.

It taught me not to become complacent while in this awakening. It will drag up all kinds of stuff you thought was over and dealt with. I remember I was on anti-depressants at the time because I was on the verge of a breakdown due to my violent marriage and loss of my children. Those pills suppressed the worse of my feelings and let me get by day by day. They let my nerves rest. Now I'm better I am feeling the residue of past hurts coming to the surface to be cleansed out. Although they still touch me they do not cause the pain they would have at the time.

Probably most of this means nothing to others in the group, but put it to one side and it may be relevant one day.

Have a great weekend and I'll think of you all in tomorrows (Sundays), meditation.

Blessings, Skydancer x

July 25, 2009

dear lady:

your post about simple observations means very much to me and it made me smile-

i find that so many on this list have such very interesting happenings that to

others are ordinary- it goes back to the idea that we travel thru a process

whereby we are realigned in all ways- yet we are still who we are - just a new

version-

i am happy you are able to offer assistance to your co workers who seem to need

some guidance in regards to relating to others- you are a good role model to

those folks- a k lady who is loving and kind even when the situations are toxic-

kudos to you Sky -

thinking of you and your cat- i cry when i think of my little bird who now has a

new home - yes big huge tears full body weeping - for the loss and the love i

feel for him

so i can relate -

thank you for the meditating for the intentions of all here on the group - we

are one fortunate membership...

love to you

e

July 25, 2009

Hi Iona,

I certianly can identify with the grieving over your cat. I too, grieve at times

over mine who have passed on before. They all were like chilldren to me, even

the one I had when I was only a teenager. A beautiful white persian that was

given to me by a boyfriend. She went everywhere with me that was possible. She

loved riding on the dash of my red firebird, flying down the road racing with

whom ever. She and I lived dangerously back then. I love that car,too. I

even grieved over not having it any more at moments and my youth. LOL! Lots of

forgiving and grieving and moving on to other things. *sigh* Lots of memories!

I have not experienced anything like web feet, but nothing surprises me any

more.

Your job sounds like a great opportunity.

Love,

Linda

, iona winton

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> Hi Guys,

>

> Just some comments on posts and my feelings.

>

> It would be great if could write a book about Kundalini and if he did,

I would put a copy in everyone's Christmas stocking. But as someone who has

written a book (In 1982), It takes time, a lot of study and burning a candle at

both ends for many nights. It cannot be done properly while trying to earn a

living. I was getting benefits at the time so all my basic needs like housing,

heating and food were catered for, but I dont know if there is a similar system

in US? If not, would need our financial support.

>

> I went to the bathroom first thing this morning and as I had my we & , I looked

down at my feel and they looked like 'webbed' feet. Just like a duck !! The

image was with me just a few seconds but long enough for me to know I was not

seeing things. My feet were okay after that. Has anyone else had webbed feet?

>

> Some of you know I was having problems at work. Well, the Manager ate a dodgy

meal on Thursday so Fridays meeting was cancelled and tonight he went into

hospital. All work has been put on hold untill he is better (his orders). I'll

say a few words for him in my Sunday group meditation. The guy who's car broke

down has had problems with his 8yr old daughter who has an 'Attachment

Disorder'. They have lost their home as she tried to drown another small child

they were living with. I'm advising him to get her help on Monday as when left

untreated this disorder leads to Psychopathic tendencies.

>

> I sat watching sport on TV this afternoon and my old cat came to mind, so I

burst into tears. Not little tears but a torrent from nowhere. The cat had died

15yrs ago but during that time I was mourning being apart from my children and

custody issues. An aunt and a close friend had also died within the same week,

and I was asked to give a talk and lead a hymn at both burial services. The loss

of my cat was way down on my list of troubles.

>

> It taught me not to become complacent while in this awakening. It will drag up

all kinds of stuff you thought was over and dealt with. I remember I was on

anti-depressants at the time because I was on the verge of a breakdown due to my

violent marriage and loss of my children. Those pills suppressed the worse of my

feelings and let me get by day by day. They let my nerves rest. Now I'm better

I am feeling the residue of past hurts coming to the surface to be cleansed out.

Although they still touch me they do not cause the pain they would have at the

time.

>

> Probably most of this means nothing to others in the group, but put it to one

side and it may be relevant one day.

>

> Have a great weekend and I'll think of you all in tomorrows (Sundays),

meditation.

>

> Blessings, Skydancer x

>

July 26, 2009

webbed feet? quack quack! :-)) Can't say I've had that one before. Could be pretty useful though for swimming and such.I know what you mean about those far off distsant things coming up from nbowhere, thats been my weel this week. I had a dream of something that lead a memory to emerge just this morning. A seemingly insignificant memory compared to others, yet something that needed clearing all the same. So, onwards we go, webbed foot infront of webbed foot :-))Hugs and love elektra x x x