Doctor Sparrow :)

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Hi everyone,

 

hope you are all well. I have been hiding in lurkerland... haha.. been reading

the posts daily but have not been inspired to write.. Shakti has been moving

strongly within in the last two weeks. I feel it as too much energy inside me, a

lot of inner snake movements, and I often feel as though earthquakes are

happening, and funny enough, there have been several earthquakes in Taiwan

recently. Sometimes I cant tell the difference..its happening now as I write...

 

It's been an exhuasting and confusing time. Today I feel better, and Sparrow was

sewing me up in my dreams last night. A good friend was getting hammered and all

cut up by powerful waves in my my dream state and I ran into Sparrows room to

help. AT first she was shy, and then I saw her face and she immediatly grabbed

her surgical thread and needle and started stitching up the wounds without

anasthetic.. (thanks Sparrow )

 

Dreams have been too prolific to mention. This wave started with some

synchronicity with a beautiful young woman, whom I have felt deeply attracted to

for some time, yet for professional reasons have kept distant. Syncronicity

bought us together a few times, and we ended up becoming l%vers. The s#x with

her was long and meditative, and seemed to accelerate furthur changes. (Chrism

- are the opposite s#x energy circuits necessary for some levels of

transformation?)

 

I had about ten days of confusion, waking up in a fog, exhaustion, being in a

type of fog all day long, and like I said, many prolific dream sequences. I had

a good rest the last few days, and today still feel tired, yet my strength is

returning and so is some level of clarity, although it comes in waves. Last

night I must have woken up five times with all kinds of dream sequences..They

ended positive with surfing some really giant waves and making the ride..haha..I

didnt want to fight the process but somehow end up doing so when it gets intense

for longer periods, and surrender really becomes an excercise of trust beyond

the fog of inner confusion. At times I feel handicapped by the process; when

Shakti gets to work it doesnt feel like a blessing and I want to climb back into

the matrix..lol..

 

i have been feeling a need to purfiy again, to cut out coffee which I like, and

to go vegetarian for a while (at least cut out the red meat and chicken).. so

started that today..

 

I have been having impulses today do a Phd in Chemistry when I return to SA; I

cant tell if its my ego trying to grab onto some certainty for the future,

whether I can even get accepted into a school or get funding as its a while

since I did my Masters, or whether I even really want to do it, I am having

urges to be useful, to be constructive and be helpful, to change the world for

the better, and to continue learning and studying and developing, so

surrendering that urge and waiting for guidance...

 

love to all

Bruce