update, psychedelics, rebalancing, multidimensional self

[Guest guest]

Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the energy

of the kundalini more since for me it has been a process of trying to come back

into balance since a very intense top down activation partially catalyzed by

ayahuasca and mushrooms several years ago. He recommended that I start running

which is exactly the intuitive guidance that I had received the night before

when meditating on that topic. So, it is good to know that I can trust my inner

teacher too! I am still struggling to become balanced again but it is all a

learning process albeit at times an insanely frustrating one. My advice to

everyone out there is do not use psychedelics as a means of spiritual awakening.

Also, I love you and whatever you decide to do it is fine with me!

 

Although I can't subtract my own use of psychedelics from all of the good

experiences that have come of that avenue, I definitely can't subtract it from

the bad either, and there has been a lot of rigorous and painstaking backsliding

and rebuilding of my psyche and emotional and mental expressions since then

which I could stand to have skipped all together even if it meant I would have

had to move at a more leisurely pace of learning and development. But that's not

how it happened for me based on the decisions I have made. I can't even imagine

what that would have looked like since all of the decisions I was making at that

time seemed reasonably good to me as well. All I can do is continue to try and

make the best decisions I can and maintain balance and sanity as much as

possible while attempting to live my most joyful and loving expression of self.

 

I guess this is just a process of becoming a really good conscious decision

maker and nothing else. Just utilizing our power of decision in the most

enlightened way we can. If there is anyone on this forum who is struggling to

rebalance after such an experience or if anyone knows someone who has become

activated through usage of psychedelics I could perhaps lend advice and a

compassionate ear to possibly help them on their journey towards balance again

and greater experience of wholeness. It can be beneficial to be completely blown

apart and put back together again but I wish I now could tell me then " it ain't

broke don't try and fix it! " during those days when I was storming the gates of

heaven. I'm sure I was trying to tell myself that on some level, but I just

wasn't listening very well. So, now I'm trying to become a better listener to

myself and find out what advice I can get from my wiser future self. I guess the

lesson for me still remains: be gentle and accepting of yourself and the

decisions you have made and forgive and love yourself because despite what you

may think or feel about yourself you are actually perfect and that is all you

could really ever be. Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace

to shine through.

Love,

Travis

[Guest guest]

And your grace is shiny indeed Travis! Thank you for your update! - blessings

and much love to you! - chrism

 

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace to shine through.

> Love,

> Travis

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you for writing.

Thank you for being honest.

Thank you for growing.

Thank you for looking back and seeing possibilities instead of obstacles.

Thank you for your generosity.

 

That's the message I can turn my computer off to, with a rested heart.

 

Namaste

[Guest guest]

Blessings Travis, good to hear from you and learn from your words of wisedom.We always think we want things in a hurry, with a big bang and fireworks, we need fast adrenaline pumping action in this day and age, but slow and tortoise like has a lot to offer just doesnt seem as exciting as it takes longer and more endurance to get there, perhaps more discipline.I'm so happy you are getting yourself on track, get those sweat bands out and run for the hills my friend :-))blessings and love elektra x x x

[Guest guest]

Good for you - to have come thru a really rough time and now you are seeing some

balance and good things happening. Your sharing may help others find an easier

way to find the inner self.

 

Thank you for sharing it is good to know that people survive the traumas they go

thru.

 

Blessings...and enjoy that beautiful city of yours...

e

[Guest guest]

Hi Travis,

 

You seem to be in a really good state of mind about your experiences and looking

to add value to others through what you have experiened, and that is a good

example for me.

 

I also enjoy running, and run 2 or 3 times a week. Head pressure is a continual

issue for me, (its manageable now... yet still there) and I love just getting

into the body and the legs and running for a while.. usually 30-50 minutes each

time.. i find its a good way to move and release energy..I often run with my

tounge on the roof of my mouth and breathe the energy down if its too strong..

 

love and good lungs

Bruce

 

 

 

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the

energy of the kundalini more since for me it has been a process of trying to

come back into balance since a very intense top down activation partially

catalyzed by ayahuasca and mushrooms several years ago. He recommended that I

start running which is exactly the intuitive guidance that I had received the

night before when meditating on that topic. So, it is good to know that I can

trust my inner teacher too! I am still struggling to become balanced again but

it is all a learning process albeit at times an insanely frustrating one. My

advice to everyone out there is do not use psychedelics as a means of spiritual

awakening. Also, I love you and whatever you decide to do it is fine with me!

>

> Although I can't subtract my own use of psychedelics from all of the good

experiences that have come of that avenue, I definitely can't subtract it from

the bad either, and there has been a lot of rigorous and painstaking backsliding

and rebuilding of my psyche and emotional and mental expressions since then

which I could stand to have skipped all together even if it meant I would have

had to move at a more leisurely pace of learning and development. But that's not

how it happened for me based on the decisions I have made. I can't even imagine

what that would have looked like since all of the decisions I was making at that

time seemed reasonably good to me as well. All I can do is continue to try and

make the best decisions I can and maintain balance and sanity as much as

possible while attempting to live my most joyful and loving expression of self.

>

> I guess this is just a process of becoming a really good conscious decision

maker and nothing else. Just utilizing our power of decision in the most

enlightened way we can. If there is anyone on this forum who is struggling to

rebalance after such an experience or if anyone knows someone who has become

activated through usage of psychedelics I could perhaps lend advice and a

compassionate ear to possibly help them on their journey towards balance again

and greater experience of wholeness. It can be beneficial to be completely blown

apart and put back together again but I wish I now could tell me then " it ain't

broke don't try and fix it! " during those days when I was storming the gates of

heaven. I'm sure I was trying to tell myself that on some level, but I just

wasn't listening very well. So, now I'm trying to become a better listener to

myself and find out what advice I can get from my wiser future self. I guess the

lesson for me still remains: be gentle and accepting of yourself and the

decisions you have made and forgive and love yourself because despite what you

may think or feel about yourself you are actually perfect and that is all you

could really ever be. Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace

to shine through.

> Love,

> Travis

>

[Guest guest]

namastie Travis

 

I watched a ram das video once where he said , " I ate one lsd and then spent

the rest of my life working out what happed to me. "

 

I think that this is why you have come out of this in a positive way is because

you are willing and ready to " do the work within " .

 

ram das film about addiction and attatchment

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3ixRqOauq4

 

this is Terrance McKenna and ram dass talking about their awakenings.

It's in 4 parts.T McKenna opened with mushrooms , ram das lsd.

 

love firefly

 

 

 

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the

energy of the kundalini more since for me it has been a process of trying to

come back into balance since a very intense top down activation partially

catalyzed by ayahuasca and mushrooms several years ago. He recommended that I

start running which is exactly the intuitive guidance that I had received the

night before when meditating on that topic. So, it is good to know that I can

trust my inner teacher too! I am still struggling to become balanced again but

it is all a learning process albeit at times an insanely frustrating one. My

advice to everyone out there is do not use psychedelics as a means of spiritual

awakening. Also, I love you and whatever you decide to do it is fine with me!

>

> Although I can't subtract my own use of psychedelics from all of the good

experiences that have come of that avenue, I definitely can't subtract it from

the bad either, and there has been a lot of rigorous and painstaking backsliding

and rebuilding of my psyche and emotional and mental expressions since then

which I could stand to have skipped all together even if it meant I would have

had to move at a more leisurely pace of learning and development. But that's not

how it happened for me based on the decisions I have made. I can't even imagine

what that would have looked like since all of the decisions I was making at that

time seemed reasonably good to me as well. All I can do is continue to try and

make the best decisions I can and maintain balance and sanity as much as

possible while attempting to live my most joyful and loving expression of self.

>

> I guess this is just a process of becoming a really good conscious decision

maker and nothing else. Just utilizing our power of decision in the most

enlightened way we can. If there is anyone on this forum who is struggling to

rebalance after such an experience or if anyone knows someone who has become

activated through usage of psychedelics I could perhaps lend advice and a

compassionate ear to possibly help them on their journey towards balance again

and greater experience of wholeness. It can be beneficial to be completely blown

apart and put back together again but I wish I now could tell me then " it ain't

broke don't try and fix it! " during those days when I was storming the gates of

heaven. I'm sure I was trying to tell myself that on some level, but I just

wasn't listening very well. So, now I'm trying to become a better listener to

myself and find out what advice I can get from my wiser future self. I guess the

lesson for me still remains: be gentle and accepting of yourself and the

decisions you have made and forgive and love yourself because despite what you

may think or feel about yourself you are actually perfect and that is all you

could really ever be. Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace

to shine through.

> Love,

> Travis

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you for being honest Travis. Many people may find there way here via the

same route as you but are embarrassed to be open and honest. With your offer of

help you can look at and relate to these members in a way that I an others could

not.

 

Your insight will be a valuable asset to the group.

 

Blessings, Skydancer x

 

, " Tiffany " <Tiffany

wrote:

>

> Thank you for writing.

> Thank you for being honest.

> Thank you for growing.

> Thank you for looking back and seeing possibilities instead of obstacles.

> Thank you for your generosity.

>

> That's the message I can turn my computer off to, with a rested heart.

>

> Namaste

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you for this post Travis. I have been tempted in the recent past to use

psychedelics with the intention of awakening, and I've also experimented with

them. But I can see now how much unnecessary pain that it could bring. It's

good to be on this path with you.

 

Much love,

Adrian

 

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the

energy of the kundalini more since for me it has been a process of trying to

come back into balance since a very intense top down activation partially

catalyzed by ayahuasca and mushrooms several years ago. He recommended that I

start running which is exactly the intuitive guidance that I had received the

night before when meditating on that topic. So, it is good to know that I can

trust my inner teacher too! I am still struggling to become balanced again but

it is all a learning process albeit at times an insanely frustrating one. My

advice to everyone out there is do not use psychedelics as a means of spiritual

awakening. Also, I love you and whatever you decide to do it is fine with me!

>

> Although I can't subtract my own use of psychedelics from all of the good

experiences that have come of that avenue, I definitely can't subtract it from

the bad either, and there has been a lot of rigorous and painstaking backsliding

and rebuilding of my psyche and emotional and mental expressions since then

which I could stand to have skipped all together even if it meant I would have

had to move at a more leisurely pace of learning and development. But that's not

how it happened for me based on the decisions I have made. I can't even imagine

what that would have looked like since all of the decisions I was making at that

time seemed reasonably good to me as well. All I can do is continue to try and

make the best decisions I can and maintain balance and sanity as much as

possible while attempting to live my most joyful and loving expression of self.

>

> I guess this is just a process of becoming a really good conscious decision

maker and nothing else. Just utilizing our power of decision in the most

enlightened way we can. If there is anyone on this forum who is struggling to

rebalance after such an experience or if anyone knows someone who has become

activated through usage of psychedelics I could perhaps lend advice and a

compassionate ear to possibly help them on their journey towards balance again

and greater experience of wholeness. It can be beneficial to be completely blown

apart and put back together again but I wish I now could tell me then " it ain't

broke don't try and fix it! " during those days when I was storming the gates of

heaven. I'm sure I was trying to tell myself that on some level, but I just

wasn't listening very well. So, now I'm trying to become a better listener to

myself and find out what advice I can get from my wiser future self. I guess the

lesson for me still remains: be gentle and accepting of yourself and the

decisions you have made and forgive and love yourself because despite what you

may think or feel about yourself you are actually perfect and that is all you

could really ever be. Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace

to shine through.

> Love,

> Travis

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Travis,

Thank you for writing this. To some extent I can identify a lot with what you

said. My heart goes out to you. I am very happy for you that you that you were

able to get to this point and put the pieces back together. It must have been a

long ride...

Glad you are here.

love,

Matt

 

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the

energy of the kundalini more since for me it has been a

> Travis

>