latest shinanigans

[Guest guest]

Holding you in divine love, compassion and forgiveness dear Elektra. It is time

for " you " and I am here as a witness for you as you begin your re assimilation.

Blessings and trust, friendship and freedom for you dear Elektra! - chrism

 

, Elektra Fire

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> After a lovely solar plexus activation in Lhasa I am now left with the task of

unglueing my clogged up sacral chakra. I have been guided that it is now myself

who needs forgiveness.

[Guest guest]

You have not comitted any sin.Kindly read story of Pingala from Srimad Bhagvatam......                                                                ............................shrikant--- On Wed, 29/7/09, Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:Elektra Fire <elektra.firelatest shinanigans Date: Wednesday, 29 July, 2009, 1:46 PM

 

 

 

 

After a lovely solar plexus activation in Lhasa I am now left with the task of unglueing my clogged up sacral chakra. I have been guided that it is now myself who needs forgiveness.I did something I was not very proud of and it caused me years of guilt and shame, the exact emotions that clog up the sacral chakra. I believed I had HIV and yet I had unprotected s3x with someone I love very dearly, putting their life at risk and not taking responsibilty for my actions. This one episode has been a defining part of my reality. I lived in fear of having a disease, which I didnt have, and yet some how I totally believed I had it with all my being. I suffered years of anguish and despair, guilt and shame, I would cry and petition God but I just couldnt bring myself to admit I thought I had HIV to my soon to be husband. How awful is that?

I considered myself a

murderer and a liar.I have been unable to have enjoyable s3x since I was 20 due to this extreme guilt and shame, and now its my turn for forgiveness. I deserve it as much as anyone else.I was young and afraid.I confessed everything to my husband eventually, and he actually just laughed at me, to him it was nothing. I told him had I had the disease it would not be nothing, it would be very serious. He just smiled and said, "yes, well that never happened did it" and shrugged it off. I somehow felt I was not punished enough by him, I felt like I needed to be severly punished for my irresponsible actions.He forgave me so easily as if I had done nothing wrong. But to me, someone who has high moral standards, I had commited the most hainous crime imaginable. I had lied and put someones life in danger. I felt like I didnt deserve to be forgiven so easily.I am confessing all this now as its time for me to reclaim my divine

birthright of s3xuality and fertility, its time for me to be forgiven by myself, I have forgiven so much in my life and yet forgiving myself seems to be the hardest thing. I am working on it as we speak.Just telling you all my most darkest shadow secret, my most shameful action seems to help me release it. As I write this now tears are flowing so I'll say, bless u all and thanks for helping me forgive myself, love elektra x x x

 

 

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[Guest guest]

So beautiful you are, in your tears.

 

So fragile, open, bathed in unknowing.

 

If it is to be so - let the light shine in a great divine embrace.

 

With you in love and light - bravery is breaking forth today!

[Guest guest]

Dear electra:

tears of release all- what a wonderful gift you are to me - to share your pain -

you are not alone in secrets of shame - i feel shame in that i have not faced my

demons and here you are so blatantly laying yours on the table - Kudos dear lady

....

 

i love reading chrism's demonstrate surrender verse. i send it to you now for

you have most wholeheartedly done just that - surrendered wholly and with

grace...

 

Demonstrate Your Surrender

 

Show me. Let me see what you are willing to surrender that you may come into a

full and pure expression of Kundalini. Demonstrate this.....please. Let me see

what you are willing to give up. What you are willing to leave. What you are

willing to expose. Tell me, show me. Demonstrate what you will surrender. And

how you will surrender it. Reveal yourself. I gave up everything and died seven

times. What are you willing to let die inside yourself? Your conceit? Your

honor? Your fears? Your pride? Your power?

 

If you struggle and resist you will fail in your attempt and then be consumed by

that which you refuse to let go of. Surrender it. Let it go. Is it guilt? Reveal

it to me. Is it pain? Give it to me. Is it your truth? Serve it to me.

 

Let me know what you can give in the deepest and most lighted to the rankest

most depraved aspects of what you hide behind your eyes and behind your heart.

Because I will go there and breathe deep of your sorrows and your

accomplishments. I will help you clear your shames and your joys and loves and

all of those experiences that you keep private, the exudate of your soul.

 

It all gets exposed. Amplified and brought into the plain view. All with eyes to

see will know and already do know. Nothing is private here and all these secrets

are weighed for contents and intention and set aside as the useless dross of the

ego. Let it go. Give it to me that I may help you.

 

There is no shame. There is only release and surrender. Open yourself and allow

all aspects of your soul to be given the room to breathe. By loosening the

burden of what you hold dear, good or shameful, wretched or loving. Surrender it

all and let the Divinity that is starting to express, breathe the new breath of

existence inside the new space you have created with your surrender. - blessings

- chrism

 

i know you -i love you and i always will dear electra...

e

[Guest guest]

Bless you Elecktra. Courage is with you as you move into self forgiveness.

 

Bliss and hugs,

Maggie

 

 

Just telling you all my most darkest shadow secret, my most shameful action

seems to help me release it. As I write this now tears are flowing so I'll say,

bless u all and thanks for helping me forgive myself, love elektra x x x

>

[Guest guest]

Well done Elektra - don't be too hard on yourself!! Your husband, best friend

and confidant has forgiven you - as you have said it is only for you to forgive

yourself.

 

Remember that to forgive is to set the prisoner free and then to discover that

the prisoner is you.

 

Enjoy the release that forgiveness brings! Blessings - Jonathan

[Guest guest]

Namaste

 

love to you Elektra. . . .you heart and courage is most beautiful. . .

..the release of this such a blessing. . . .and as i read i see and feel

your purity of heart and being. . . one of the things K Ma has shown me

is that often times out of our places of deepest wounding we find our

greatest gift and purpose. . .

 

in my own life my as a young child my father attempted to set up a

situation where i would have to make the decision to prostitute my body

and if i refused it meant the death of a beloved horse, i was 9 years

old and this pressure went on for months. . .i refused and the horse was

brutally killed. . . so much like you i carried the guilt, the shame,

the disguise of myself as being the one that cause the death, in the

process of the protest i also got out my father's gun and when he tried

to take it from me, i tried to kill him. . . so not only in my mind had

i been the caused the beloved pet's death i was also a murderer in my

heart of hearts, for when my rage went off, which is did like a red hot

poker up from the belly to the finger that pulled the trigger, there

was no intent within except to kill. . . For so much of my life nothing

that anyone said positive about me would be true because i knew to the

depth of being the capacity to kill my own father lurked within.

 

for me that was the wound that the Dali Lama speaks about; " For some,

if they are strong enough to be weak enough they are given a wound that

does not heal, and it is the gift that kept the heart open. "

 

truly the " little murderer " in me is the one that could not say; " except

for the grace of God there go I " , instead the greater teaching; " there

go I " . I ended up working with survivors of abuse, and women and men

on Death Row, and so many times wading through the murk, i would say,

" there go I " , and Elektra in each case the team was able to removed the

death penalty verdict to life without parole.

 

just hearing your heart on the forum i know this incident has already

brought deep transformation for how you are now in the world. Truly you

have so much to offer.

 

i have a conviction that every wound bears a gift and that often those

wounds are where we find our deepest spiritual purpose. . . sometimes K

Ma is such joker with Her Divine Play. I often smile, for all these

years later, i have surrendered the body in what many would view as

aligned with the archetype of the " sacred prostitute " . . . .out of the

wound came the gift of deeply claiming the body, and out of the wound

came my most challenging sacred purpose.

 

Elektra on the other side of this is a gift that is needed for both

yourself and the greater collective, dont know how that will look, but

deeply truly this was Divine Play for a higher purpose. .

 

no need for shame, you where being refined in the fire, and only good

can come from this, nothing except smoke and mirrors challenging you to

bring forth who you truly are, and that is good stuff. . .

 

much love, respect and honor to you dear Sister

ordinary sparrow

[Guest guest]

Those words of Deli Lama are most helpful thank you Sparrow.

Richard.

Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

 

 

ordinarysparrow <ordinarysparrow

 

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 19:27:14

 

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Namaste

 

love to you Elektra. . . .you heart and courage is most beautiful. . .

.the release of this such a blessing. . . .and as i read i see and feel

your purity of heart and being. . . one of the things K Ma has shown me

is that often times out of our places of deepest wounding we find our

greatest gift and purpose. . .

 

in my own life my as a young child my father attempted to set up a

situation where i would have to make the decision to prostitute my body

and if i refused it meant the death of a beloved horse, i was 9 years

old and this pressure went on for months. . .i refused and the horse was

brutally killed. . . so much like you i carried the guilt, the shame,

the disguise of myself as being the one that cause the death, in the

process of the protest i also got out my father's gun and when he tried

to take it from me, i tried to kill him. . . so not only in my mind had

i been the caused the beloved pet's death i was also a murderer in my

heart of hearts, for when my rage went off, which is did like a red hot

poker up from the belly to the finger that pulled the trigger, there

was no intent within except to kill. . . For so much of my life nothing

that anyone said positive about me would be true because i knew to the

depth of being the capacity to kill my own father lurked within.

 

for me that was the wound that the Dali Lama speaks about; " For some,

if they are strong enough to be weak enough they are given a wound that

does not heal, and it is the gift that kept the heart open. "

 

truly the " little murderer " in me is the one that could not say; " except

for the grace of God there go I " , instead the greater teaching; " there

go I " . I ended up working with survivors of abuse, and women and men

on Death Row, and so many times wading through the murk, i would say,

" there go I " , and Elektra in each case the team was able to removed the

death penalty verdict to life without parole.

 

just hearing your heart on the forum i know this incident has already

brought deep transformation for how you are now in the world. Truly you

have so much to offer.

 

i have a conviction that every wound bears a gift and that often those

wounds are where we find our deepest spiritual purpose. . . sometimes K

Ma is such joker with Her Divine Play. I often smile, for all these

years later, i have surrendered the body in what many would view as

aligned with the archetype of the " sacred prostitute " . . . .out of the

wound came the gift of deeply claiming the body, and out of the wound

came my most challenging sacred purpose.

 

Elektra on the other side of this is a gift that is needed for both

yourself and the greater collective, dont know how that will look, but

deeply truly this was Divine Play for a higher purpose. .

 

no need for shame, you where being refined in the fire, and only good

can come from this, nothing except smoke and mirrors challenging you to

bring forth who you truly are, and that is good stuff. . .

 

much love, respect and honor to you dear Sister

ordinary sparrow

[Guest guest]

Yes, self forgiveness is the hardest thing for anyone to do. Everyone makes

mistakes. You did learn a great lesson from this experience and I know it has

made you a better person because of it. I am glad that you are clearing this and

the most of love to you!!

 

-Tiffany S =)

 

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

>

> After a lovely solar plexus activation in Lhasa I am now left with the task of

unglueing my clogged up sacral chakra. I have been guided that it is now myself

who needs forgiveness.

>

[Guest guest]

wow, Sparrow, thank you so much for sharing your story with me and all of us here, what a privilage it is to be amongst such amazing people with such open hearts. I feel as if nothing is impossible with this group behind me. Your story touched my heart deeply and brought tears to my eyes, indeed, GoD has been weathering us like coal in to diamonds :-))The greater the pain the greater the capacity to feel love and joy. Sorrow and struggle really is a teacher and I can see the Divine comedy behind it all, the joke really was on me big time, I lived in fear of something as if it was real only to find out it was a lie. What a great lesson, FEAR is FALSE, its a lie only LOVE is REAL and ETERNAL.No child should have to go through such things as you, to make choices and feel responsible, I think we all have the capacity to kill within us , I know I do,

I have a mini Hitler waiting to get control but I choose not to allow it, I say NO thank you only GoD may guide this body.What great work you went on to do because of it, helping others on death row, I take my hat off to you, even though I know you don't need any compliments, you did it as a sacred service to humankind. Bless u for that.You are a blessing and an inspiration dear one, thank you again, every sacred word kisses my soul, honesty has such a healing caresslove youelektra x x x

[Guest guest]

Elektra and Sparrow,My prayer today is that to all of us here and everywhere who have "put something down", may you never pick it up again. May you and I walk away, and shake the dust from our feet.The wounds heal, the scars remain as a reminder of where we have been, and why we choose to take a different path. All that has been confessed here, to others, and to God has been "good for our souls." What beautiful power we have been given from these people who abused us. The power to survive under any circumstance, the power to not only survive, but rise from the ashes, and share our pains and wounds in the hope that our stories serve the purpose of giving hope.Namaste, beautiful strong women. Walk in your own beauty.Julie--- On Wed, 7/29/09, Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:Elektra Fire <elektra.fireRe: latest shinanigans Date: Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 10:25 PM

 

 

wow, Sparrow, thank you so much for sharing your story with me and all of us here, what a privilage it is to be amongst such amazing people with such open hearts. I feel as if nothing is impossible with this group behind me. Your story touched my heart deeply and brought tears to my eyes, indeed, GoD has been weathering us like coal in to diamonds :-))The greater the pain the greater the capacity to feel love and joy. Sorrow and struggle really is a teacher and I can see the Divine comedy behind it all, the joke really was on me big time, I lived in fear of something as if it was real only to find out it was a lie. What a great lesson, FEAR is

FALSE, its a lie only LOVE is REAL and ETERNAL.No child should have to go through such things as you, to make choices and feel responsible, I think we all have the capacity to kill within us , I know I do,

I have a mini Hitler waiting to get control but I choose not to allow it, I say NO thank you only GoD may guide this body.What great work you went on to do because of it, helping others on death row, I take my hat off to you, even though I know you don't need any compliments, you did it as a sacred service to humankind. Bless u for that.You are a blessing and an inspiration dear one, thank you again, every sacred word kisses my soul, honesty has such a healing caresslove youelektra x x x