Distrubing dream - Bruce

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Bruce, I just want to thank you for you help here and appreciate all your

thoughts on this. You have given me a lot to think about and consider. Both of

your post have been a help in understanding my dream somewhat. Sorry, I've been

so late in replying to you.

 

Wow! you have a good memory to remember all that from my different postings.

 

This you wrote definitely resonates and want to think on it more.

@@@ I view cars as frames, or beliefs, which give rise to actions through which

we navigate life. Perhaps there are beliefs about the masculine (resulting from

past experience) that you feel hold you back, or take you backwards in life,

taking you back towards places of anger or hurt or conflict that you want to

avoid.@@@

 

I like the layer or stages that you wrote about in the other post. Much to think

about. I really do want to get to the root of this male thing with me. It is

sort of a weird thing. All through life, I have really had more male casual

friendships than women. I don't know if it had to do with me having 3 older

brothers or what, but I just seem to relate easier with guys for some reason. I

like being female and glad that I am and I like James taking care of me and not

having to work at a job out side the home if I do not chose to. I don't like

him telling me what I can and can't do, just because he is the one working out.

I feel I do just as much work at home as he does out there. When I make plans to

do anything I let him know out of respect, but it isn't up to him to tell me if

I can or not. We believe in being equal, but there have been times when he has

tried to be the " boss. " We have our little rules and they work for us, most

of the time.

 

He didn't like my involvement with church and with taking a car load of kids

skating or whatever. He is a bit of a worry wart at times, thinking up all the

negative stuff that could happen. LOL! It didn't stop me, he just didn't like it

and complained a lot and that was a hassle at times. I am not wanting to get

back into to that now with other people's kids, I have my grandkids to keep me

busy enough right now.

 

I didn't have a good father relationship. One of my brother's gave me some

problems,too. He thought just because he was male he could boss me around and

tell me what to do. But I did not submit even though he beat me black and blue.

I didn't give in and I hated him for years for beating me up like that. I was

angry and full of hate for my father and mother,too, because they just stood

there and let him beat me. More so towards my father, my mother didn't really

have much say in it. I took a hard beating, but I didn't give up my rights.

 

Anyway, he is forgiven and we are friends again, but not real close.

 

I guess I am just not all that good at submitting/surrendering.

As long as it is my will to surrender or submit, I am fine with it, just don't

like the ideal of being forced against my will.

 

Thanks again Bruce.

 

Blessings & love,

Linda

 

, " bruce_oom "

<bruce_oom wrote:

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> Namaste,

>

> Hi linda,

>

> Thanks for posting your dream. A few things come up for me reading this, and

its more like different snippets of information coming together than and linear,

deductive process, and please feel free to accept or reject anything which I may

say..

>