Guest guest Posted July 29, 2009 Report Share Posted July 29, 2009 Since I'm telling you all my deepest secrets I thought I'd share one more thing, as I"m really clearing out the closet.I was a s3x worker as a teenager , I used to be a str1pper and also an escort.I was thrown out of my home at 17 by my mother and had no money, was confused and angry with men and relationships, I was working as a dancer when the opportunity arose to make good money giving "extras", all the other girls were doing it so I joined in.I always felt it was liberating for me somehow but it also left scars in some ways. I was a drug addict at the time also on sp33d. My hubby knows everything about this and infact I shared a flat with him when we first met and I was still a working girl. I would tell him all about it and he found it fascinating.there you go, you know my deepest secrets now, we are surely blood family.Heres to letting go of the past.love elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 29, 2009 Report Share Posted July 29, 2009 The strength in this group is inspiring. I am struggling to feel the joy that is all around me, so I draw strength and inspiration from you Elektra, and others. What an amazing and powerful group. Thank you for sharing.... Carla2009/7/29 Elektra Fire <elektra.fire Since I'm telling you all my deepest secrets I thought I'd share one more thing, as I " m really clearing out the closet. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Wow, thats cool you are talking about it cause I had a feeling this stuff went on, but to shy to say anything and dont' want to be rude. You still got the shakti going on in your texts. I feel so blessed to read anything you write. You got a special shakti channel in your writing. love and light, j.b. , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Since I'm telling you all my deepest secrets I thought I'd share one more thing, as I " m really clearing out the closet. > > I was a s3x worker as a teenager , I used to be a str1pper and also an escort. > > I was thrown out of my home at 17 by my mother and had no money, was > confused and angry with men and relationships, I was working as a > dancer when the opportunity arose to make good money giving " extras " , > all the other girls were doing it so I joined in. > > I always felt it was liberating for me somehow but it also left scars > in some ways. I was a drug addict at the time also on sp33d. My hubby > knows everything about this and infact I shared a flat with him when we > first met and I was still a working girl. I would tell him all about it > and he found it fascinating. > > > > there you go, you know my deepest secrets now, we are surely blood family. > > Heres to letting go of the past. > > love elektra x x x > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 I know when I tell all my secrets, I know that you will all love me anyway, but I feel as if when I am telling you I am releasing it all to Shakti Ma, and yes, if it helps everyone release something all the better, we are all connected. Thanks Tiffany for your support and love x x x elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Elektra, You are such a wealth of knowledge and experience. We are so lucky to have you among us and willing to share yourself. I embrace who you are throughout time. I feel so honored to be witness to at least a little bit of your growth and unfolding. BlessU Sam , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Since I'm telling you all my deepest secrets I thought I'd share one more thing, as I " m really clearing out the closet. > I was a s3x worker as a teenager , I used to be a str1pper and also an escort. > I was thrown out of my home at 17 by my mother and had no money, was confused and angry with men and relationships, I was working as a dancer when the opportunity arose to make good money giving " extras " , all the other girls were doing it so I joined in. > I always felt it was liberating for me somehow but it also left scars in some ways. I was a drug addict at the time also on sp33d. My hubby knows everything about this and infact I shared a flat with him when we first met and I was still a working girl. I would tell him all about it and he found it fascinating. > > there you go, you know my deepest secrets now, we are surely blood family. > Heres to letting go of the past. > love elektra x x x > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Much love to you Elektra! be well, bradly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Dear Tantric Sister, I love you. xxx , " Tiffany " <Tiffany wrote: > > Dearest Elektra > > Its as though thick blood is oozing out of my ears. Its some sort of release of energy toxins. It started when I read your 'coming clean'. > > All of us, while reading your latest offerings, have turned to face an aspect of our selves. Ordinary Sparrow laid hers upon the forum floor. > > Others are looking in the mirror. > > The remnants of my past are still being processed. The hate, the arrogance, the judgements. > > Your release is everyone's release. > > Again, thank you for your courage. > > With much love > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Namaste dear Elektra thanks for sharing more of your transformation. . . .Thank you for this allowance. . . . years ago while walking in the tall grass prairie of the Flint Hills on a section of land in full wildflower bloom, i heard Shakti come up from the ground and speak; " The land has story and the story is not the land. " This was a section of land that had a number of boy children had died in the past 100 years. Yet people came from all around just to take in the beauty and power of her vast essence. . . I feel, we all have unique and often intense stories that bring us through layers upon layers of deathings, dissolution, and deluge in order to birth us into that which can never die. . . when i read this entry, my first thought was, " and this too is holy " . . . ..Elektra so perfect in the big picture of your becoming. . . the first time i started reading your post i have seen an image of the TibetainTantric dakini Vajra Varahi. (this is an text description from Marion Woodman; Dancing in the Flames, The Dark Goddess in the Transformation of Consciousness: " She springs out of the cosmic cervix, the triangular source ofdharmas, buring with unbearable bliss,energy in an unconditional state. She has the three-dimensional triangular source of dharmas just belowe her navel and she is tanding on one. This form acts as the being of the tantrika when she visualizesVajra Varahi, , and the effect is the actiation of interanl energies which dissolve the sense of inner and outer and plug in to a sense of allprevading energized space which is primordial wisdom and a kind of burning transcendental lust and bliss. " " This dakini energy that emerges from the womb ofthe Great Motheris similar, in many respects to Kali. The three main objects that accompanty the dakini are the hooked knife or sword, the skull cup of blood, andthe trident staff. According to Allione,the book in the Tibetan Buddhist imagery is the hook or kife of compassion, " the hook which pulls beings out of the cycles of transmigration. . . .It pulls one forth from suffering, chops up the ego-centered self and isguided by the diamond clarity of the vajra. The skull is likened to the cauldron, the container which holds the primordial passion of blood. The red blood suggest the burning interior power of women, primal matrix which can become babies, milk, passion and fierceness, primal lava of life. " The third accounterment is the staff, with the trident at the top, and underneath the trident , tied to the staff, is a double vajra with three severed heads The top head is a dry skull, under the skull is a head that has been severed several days, and below that is the freshly severed head The staff is held in the cook of the elbow of the left arm and extends from her head to her foot. Usually she is dancing, so one foot is raised and the other is standing on a corpse, which represents the negativity which has been overcome. By her staff, the death that the Goddess brings is the transformation of the three poisons; lust, anger and ignorance. The three skulls symbolize not the concrete blood sacrifice of an earlier time but the death (transformation) of the three highest levels of consciousness; the Nirmanakaya body ( the physcial body), the Sambogakaya body (subtle body), and the Dharmakaya, the latter represented by the dry skull, " a level of being which as not form, but contains the potential for everything.''. . . . " Elektra i will stop with the quote there, just wanted to share how i see the sacrdness of all that you have gone through and what you are emerging into. . . .what you have gone through seems to be so perfect for tranformation and transcendent. . . .Namaste. . . . when i first went to Amma physically over ten years ago. . . as i sat down my entire life was like a deck of cards being shuffled, within a very short span was given an entire life review, and in the fullness of that glimpse there emerged the deepest knowing that everything that had happened in my life was holy and that everything and everyone were inexpressible grace. I knew that past was over and only felt honor for all that occured and for the one that had walked through it. . . .and knew new book was being opened that would be the fulfillment spiritual destiny. . . . i so trust that each person's life experience is perfect and so very Holy. . . . i so honor you for what you took on and how you have transformed through your experience. . .you are blessing. . . you did choose a wonderful husband. . .love to both of you and what an awesome baby the two of you will bring forth, this i hold in sincere prayer and love. . . love, peace, and honor ordinary sparrow , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Since I'm telling you all my deepest secrets I thought I'd share one more thing, as I " m really clearing out the closet. > > I was a s3x worker as a teenager , I used to be a str1pper and also an escort. > > I was thrown out of my home at 17 by my mother and had no money, was > confused and angry with men and relationships, I was working as a > dancer when the opportunity arose to make good money giving " extras " , > all the other girls were doing it so I joined in. > > I always felt it was liberating for me somehow but it also left scars > in some ways. I was a drug addict at the time also on sp33d. My hubby > knows everything about this and infact I shared a flat with him when we > first met and I was still a working girl. I would tell him all about it > and he found it fascinating. > > > > there you go, you know my deepest secrets now, we are surely blood family. > > Heres to letting go of the past. > > love elektra x x x > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 31, 2009 Report Share Posted July 31, 2009 Our dear, dear Elektra! Thank you for that, you have truly been through the purging fire. The one that turns all impurity to ash leaving nothing but the purest elements. You are right, you tell us your soul and we love you all the more for it, not that we haven't loved you all along! We know we look in the mirror and see Divine in all people, also. You are us, we are you. You have come to a place in time where you can look back, examine and take the Love with you, knowing you kept all that was good of bad times. Bless you, love. K speaks loud and clear through you! We all benefit, as was said, by turning in and looking at ourselves. I have done this many, many times and don't know if I've yet seen all but I've seen a lot and in others as they speak I see those little dark things in the corners in need to coax out. It is a time of purging and so good to see honesty reign! I love you all, my sisters and brothers of K Ma! Thank you for being here and for being yourselves, all that you are. Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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