Guest guest Posted July 29, 2009 Report Share Posted July 29, 2009 Right from my childhood, I was fascinated about the presence of a supreme force.In the initial days, I believed in idol worship. However, as years passed - the intellectual mind realised that if God was to be there everywhere, why should I pray the idol.I remember reading the upanishads at the age of 18. I have been always fascinated by the essence of this supreme goal. I always wanted to lead a simple life. While, the question of 'Who am I' intrigued me, I also became sceptical with the encounter of many 'fraud' swamis, with their material pursuits. At the age of 20, I had an argument with my father and asked him if he had seen God. I also felt that, if any swami could showcase their powers then I wouldbelieve that 'God existed'. However, I always felt handicapped. I could neither get a proof thatGOD existed, nor could I not stop questioning. After reading through many books, going through many devotional albums - I was still disgusted. Disgusted that regardless of what I achieve here on earth,I would not be able to take a single schilling with me.I was also intrigued when people not only forgot this but worked as though they never bothered about this.When I talked to people, most of them told me to make money, enjoy life. While, I did do it - nothing would make me happy. Nothing. Intrigued by all these, my research on the goal of life was a question that remained.I read books by Swami Vivekananda, Ramakrishna, Upanishads, sections in Vedas, autobiographies,philosophicaltexts, books by Sivananda, heard devotional music albums, but nothing would soothen me. I still had one question with me -'What is that single one, knowing which, I know everything? '. I had read about Kundalini way back in 1999 but that was just out of interest. Even in my wildest dreams,I wouldn't imagine that this would be the path I would be put in. But then today, I have got the proof.There is a state of GOD. There is an almighty presence. There is an essence for life - to evolve. After 12 years of constant questioning, I felt the presence of mighty Kundalini inside me. It is not an accident as I previously thought.The incessant questioning, the yoga classes have led me here. It is not an accident. I have got the proof. My thinking has been correct. We have a higher goal. I have well spent my past time for this.Why do I say this? Today, whatever I experience might be just the tip of the iceberg. But I do experience that happiness.I have tasted the bliss if not, merged. I know there is a higher purpose for us all. We have a plan and the creation is not random.It is well thought about. It is intelligent. I know that in whatever I do, my role is very limited and am made to do that. When thereis an urge for s*x, I know that it is the energy that creates this urge. It is the energy that motivates us all. These days, I just feel listening to devotional classical songs and live upto that bliss. It is hard to tell this to anyone. It is a secret well guarded..I would heartily congratulate every one here who have achieved this. Regardless of the path chosen, we are all on the same road now.I cant stop writing and I dont want to miss out the feelings that I have at this moment, a greater purpose and the necessity to achieve the final goal. Lead me to the light. Lead me to the truth. Lead me to that from which there is no fall back.After a 12 years journey, today I boldly declare - there is a supreme intelligence. I cant stand anymore. I feel that dispassion. I want to talk to GOD, as I talk to anyone. I want to just serve it. I want to be in its presence.I don't know,if I was it. But I want to still be in its presence and enjoy that calmness without any interruption. Please grant me that final state, ' Knowing which, I know everything'. I cant bear this separation any more.Thanks,Skoogle Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Only one who is chosen by Atman or Consciousness realises Truth {katha upanishad}......................................................shrikantWhat is going to happen is inevitable as it is my will {Lord Krishna}......................................shrikant.--- On Thu, 30/7/09, Skoogle Msb <skoogle_msb wrote:Skoogle Msb <skoogle_msb Experience 33 - A revisit ! Date: Thursday, 30 July, 2009, 11:10 AM Right from my childhood, I was fascinated about the presence of a supreme force.In the initial days, I believed in idol worship. However, as years passed - the intellectual mind realised that if God was to be there everywhere, why should I pray the idol.I remember reading the upanishads at the age of 18. I have been always fascinated by the essence of this supreme goal. I always wanted to lead a simple life. While, the question of 'Who am I' intrigued me, I also became sceptical with the encounter of many 'fraud' swamis, with their material pursuits. At the age of 20, I had an argument with my father and asked him if he had seen God. I also felt that, if any swami could showcase their powers then I wouldbelieve that 'God existed'. However, I always felt handicapped. I could neither get a proof thatGOD existed, nor could I not stop questioning. After reading through many books, going through many devotional albums - I was still disgusted. Disgusted that regardless of what I achieve here on earth,I would not be able to take a single schilling with me.I was also intrigued when people not only forgot this but worked as though they never bothered about this.When I talked to people, most of them told me to make money, enjoy life. While, I did do it - nothing would make me happy. Nothing. Intrigued by all these, my research on the goal of life was a question that remained.I read books by Swami Vivekananda, Ramakrishna, Upanishads, sections in Vedas, autobiographies, philosophicaltexts, books by Sivananda, heard devotional music albums, but nothing would soothen me. I still had one question with me -'What is that single one, knowing which, I know everything? '. I had read about Kundalini way back in 1999 but that was just out of interest. Even in my wildest dreams,I wouldn't imagine that this would be the path I would be put in. But then today, I have got the proof.There is a state of GOD. There is an almighty presence. There is an essence for life - to evolve. After 12 years of constant questioning, I felt the presence of mighty Kundalini inside me. It is not an accident as I previously thought.The incessant questioning, the yoga classes have led me here. It is not an accident. I have got the proof. My thinking has been correct.. We have a higher goal. I have well spent my past time for this.Why do I say this? Today, whatever I experience might be just the tip of the iceberg. But I do experience that happiness.I have tasted the bliss if not, merged. I know there is a higher purpose for us all. We have a plan and the creation is not random.It is well thought about. It is intelligent. I know that in whatever I do, my role is very limited and am made to do that. When thereis an urge for s*x, I know that it is the energy that creates this urge. It is the energy that motivates us all. These days, I just feel listening to devotional classical songs and live upto that bliss. It is hard to tell this to anyone. It is a secret well guarded...I would heartily congratulate every one here who have achieved this. Regardless of the path chosen, we are all on the same road now.I cant stop writing and I dont want to miss out the feelings that I have at this moment, a greater purpose and the necessity to achieve the final goal.. Lead me to the light. Lead me to the truth. Lead me to that from which there is no fall back.After a 12 years journey, today I boldly declare - there is a supreme intelligence. I cant stand anymore. I feel that dispassion. I want to talk to GOD, as I talk to anyone. I want to just serve it. I want to be in its presence.I don't know,if I was it. But I want to still be in its presence and enjoy that calmness without any interruption. Please grant me that final state, ' Knowing which, I know everything'. I cant bear this separation any more.Thanks,Skoogle Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2009 Report Share Posted July 30, 2009 Hi Skoogle, thats a nice mail.. and what you say resonates I can understand the seperation once you have felt the presence, for me it was a horribe and ghastly experience, incredibly alone and nothing on this earth that I could ever have or do or be with would erase my loneliness.... it is painful, yet has to be felt.. and surrendered.. it means you are closer than before love and union Bruce > After a 12 years journey, today I boldly declare - there is a supreme intelligence. I cant stand anymore. > I feel that dispassion. I want to talk to GOD, as I talk to anyone. I want to just serve it. I want to be in its presence. > I don't know,if I was it. But I want to still be in its presence and enjoy that calmness without any interruption. > Please grant me that final state, ' Knowing which, I know everything'. I cant bear this separation any more. > > > Thanks, > Skoogle > > > > Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Click here http://cricket. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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