update, psychedelics, rebalancing,multidimensional self

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Hi there Travis........I never took the Aya

I thought you set an intention first and the action goes there.

One of my students had unrepairable damage to his hand he said a snake went all

thru the hand and healed it in the Ceremony.

Any comments. Richard

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travisnelsonmurphy <travisnelsonmurphy

 

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 07:01:17

 

update, psychedelics, rebalancing,

multidimensional self

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yesterday I called and was asking advice on how I could ground the energy

of the kundalini more since for me it has been a process of trying to come back

into balance since a very intense top down activation partially catalyzed by

ayahuasca and mushrooms several years ago. He recommended that I start running

which is exactly the intuitive guidance that I had received the night before

when meditating on that topic. So, it is good to know that I can trust my inner

teacher too! I am still struggling to become balanced again but it is all a

learning process albeit at times an insanely frustrating one. My advice to

everyone out there is do not use psychedelics as a means of spiritual awakening.

Also, I love you and whatever you decide to do it is fine with me!

 

Although I can't subtract my own use of psychedelics from all of the good

experiences that have come of that avenue, I definitely can't subtract it from

the bad either, and there has been a lot of rigorous and painstaking backsliding

and rebuilding of my psyche and emotional and mental expressions since then

which I could stand to have skipped all together even if it meant I would have

had to move at a more leisurely pace of learning and development. But that's not

how it happened for me based on the decisions I have made. I can't even imagine

what that would have looked like since all of the decisions I was making at that

time seemed reasonably good to me as well. All I can do is continue to try and

make the best decisions I can and maintain balance and sanity as much as

possible while attempting to live my most joyful and loving expression of self.

 

I guess this is just a process of becoming a really good conscious decision

maker and nothing else. Just utilizing our power of decision in the most

enlightened way we can. If there is anyone on this forum who is struggling to

rebalance after such an experience or if anyone knows someone who has become

activated through usage of psychedelics I could perhaps lend advice and a

compassionate ear to possibly help them on their journey towards balance again

and greater experience of wholeness. It can be beneficial to be completely blown

apart and put back together again but I wish I now could tell me then " it ain't

broke don't try and fix it! " during those days when I was storming the gates of

heaven. I'm sure I was trying to tell myself that on some level, but I just

wasn't listening very well. So, now I'm trying to become a better listener to

myself and find out what advice I can get from my wiser future self. I guess the

lesson for me still remains: be gentle and accepting of yourself and the

decisions you have made and forgive and love yourself because despite what you

may think or feel about yourself you are actually perfect and that is all you

could really ever be. Just be open and receptive to reality and allow your grace

to shine through.

Love,

Travis