not sure if I'm missing the lesson

[Guest guest]

okay, I'm not really sure how to explain this but I've been having trouble

interpreting things. here goes, the first thing I can remember in my life was

talking with what I can only assume is my kundalini energies wherein I was given

visions of what I should do with my life. It has really guided me to be the

person I have become. but recently everything is messing up, from bad apartments

to bills going unpaid. I'm really struggling in a period of my life where I felt

I would be able to soar. I have tried looking inside for answers, but I keep

getting random replies. everything from give away all your possesions and walk

to new orleans, to why don't you give up on your dreams and get a job as a

banker in switzerland.

 

it's just hard for me to trust my energy when it is making these insane

requests, meanwhile I have a large amount of free time wherein I want to be

writing stories and making short films, building up a body of work. but instead

I have been experiencing a loss of creativity when I try to work, with an

abundance of creativity when I can't. once I even had to stop driving because

the ideas came so fast. mostly I just sit and watch television, not having the

$$$ to go anywhere my mind thinks that answers are to be found in what I'm

watching.

 

I'm really trying to be vigilant with the safeties, many of them I have been

practicing for a while, whereas some of them are new additions to my life. I

really want to sort everything out, but a year ago I left my dream job in London

at my energies request because I felt it had something great in store for me.

only to find that upon return I am stuck in pittsburgh with no job, no money.

and too much experience to get most normal jobs, with too little exp to get the

job I want.

 

I just feel stuck. and I don't know what to do. am I supposed to be learning

something? have I missed it somehow? I'm really trying but everything seems to

be going wrong. I really don't want to have to do anything crazy, and I really

don't want a job in banking(even though living in switzerland would be cool).

not sure if any of you have ever felt the same.

 

carl

[Guest guest]

Namaste dear CarlThere where places on the way where i felt caught between the two worlds. . . and i could only relate those times to the Hanged Man card in the Tarot and the Isa rune. . . .for when i got into those spaces the old language was dissolving and i did not have context for the new. . .periods of just living; such as it is, and this too, and embracing nothing. . . . Introduction to the Hanged Man Tarot Card Meanings:

Just the term "Hanged Man" can be offsetting, and has a tendency to put

us ill at ease. However, take a moment to look at our hanged fellow -

he shows no sign of struggle on his face. In fact, the whole scene of

the card is rather serene with hues of blue covering the card. The Hanged Man's expression is one of complete calm and assurance - not what one would expect at the gallows.

This is precisely the point. There is no expectation with this card. All expectations, along with all actions have been suspended. The Hanged Man is in a state of purposeful, complete surrender, yielding his mind and body to the Universal flow.

When we pull the Hanged Man card it is an indication that we may

be "hung up" in our own distracting thoughts, we're complicating

things, or we need to step away from something. This card delivers a

message that now is the time to ease off from "doing" and simply be

for awhile. When we withhold action for awhile, and just take in the

events as they happen we allow things to flow more simply. If, on the

other hand, we struggle, fight, and insist on control - we are met with

restriction and road-blocks every step of the way.

You might've noticed that keyword up there: "sacrifice." This

strikes some fear into many hearts, but there is no reason for fear.

The sacrifice the Hanged Man asks us to make is in the form of giving

up things in our lives that do not serve us. By suspending

ourselves (thoughts, actions, emotions) we can gain perspective in

order to identify the habits we cling to that hinder our progress.

Sometimes in a reading the Hanged Man can be a message that we should

set aside our own needs for the needs of others around us too.

ISA - I: Ice

 

Frozen in time, calm, non-action, everything on hold, letting go of ego and seeking your inner truths, you are blocked by your

emotions.

Cannot be reversed. also a friend sent me this last week and thought it was really right on as far as how i am sensing the collective to be. . . it is like we have walked out of one door and are yet to walk into the next, i believe. . .i will copy and share with you Carl for maybe there will soon be a lifting and the door will open into clarity, love and light. . . .peaceordinary sparrowWritten by Pam Younghans

 

 

 

At right: This beautiful photo was taken by Alan Dyer, who was sailing on the south Pacific Ocean during last week's Solar Eclipse. (Posted on SpaceWeather.com on July 23, 2009.)

 

 

 

Once again, we're

in that space between eclipses, as we await the final of our threesome

on August 5/6. This time, however, it feels significantly different. A

good friend wrote me that "it's like all these scattered pieces are

flying about and nothing is connecting" -- a feeling I can entirely

relate to!

 

Last week's Solar Eclipse was at that

final "critical" degree of Cancer, representing the end of our old ways

of finding emotional grounding and security. And yet at the same time,

it was a New Moon, which indicates the beginning of a new phase of

development. So we are both ending and beginning at the same time -- no

wonder we are having trouble finding the ground beneath our feet.

 

The question perhaps is:

Are we beginning the ending, or is this the end of the ending and

the start of the beginning? And that question is so circular, it

entirely reflects how many of us are feeling right now.

 

We may need to be patient in this time

of no-time, and trust that the Lunar Eclipse/Full Moon on August 5/6

will shed some light on the new landscape around us. In the meantime,

we can help ourselves and the Earth stabilize by consciously grounding

our energy into the planet.

 

In fact, this seems to be both the

purpose of and the solution to this place of disconnection -- that we

learn to find that emotional grounding and security within rather than

through external means. We can all benefit from practicing and

strengthening our inner connections to Mother Earth and to our own High

Heart -- and it is especially important to do so now, during this

period of transition and transformation.

 

Mercury is prominent

in our list of planetary aspects for the week, which means our logical

minds will no doubt be cranking away, trying to get this all figured

out. And yet, reality is shifting so dramatically, our reasoning minds

are barely up to the task of figuring it all out.

 

Which means it's time to access

aspects of our higher intelligence if we even hope to come to terms

with the changes underway. Tuesday may be the best day this week for

bringing in the higher-level information we're seeking, as Uranus and

Mercury form a creative biquintile aspect early that day.

 

Mercury represents our conscious mind,

while Uranus represents higher consciousness. Any interaction between

the two planets is intended to open our minds to new ideas and

possibilities through awakening that link between our minds and the

vast network that is the Higher Mind.

 

This isn't likely to be

one of those "lightning-bolt" moments for most of us, since

a biquintile is usually a fairly subtle influence. And, since this

Uranus-Mercury biquintile occurs at 2:03 a.m. in my time zone (Pacific

Daylight Time), it's possible that many of us will sleep right through

it -- either literally or figuratively.

 

On the other hand, it may be

especially important when we awaken on Tuesday morning to have our

dream journals handy, to write down any scraps of insight that may

remain from our journeys during the dreamtime.

 

Mercury is again

the main focus as we move into the end of our work week. The Triad's

energies are spread across two days now, so Jupiter and Chiron oppose

Mercury on Thursday, while the Neptune-Mercury opposition is exact on

Friday -- on the same day that Uranus forms another aspect with

Mercury, called a quincunx.

 

Our reasoning minds may not know how

to handle all this other-worldly energy. We will probably be best

equipped for this time if we think of it as being somewhat like Mercury

Retrograde, when things we plan don't transpire exactly as anticipated.

A combination of the higher perspective and a good sense of humor will

pave the road most smoothly this week.

 

Since I've just thrown a whole plate of astrological aspects at you at once, let's take them a mouthful at a time:

 

The Jupiter-Mercury opposition

exaggerates the need to say whatever comes to mind, even if it's not

particularly well thought-out. Another manifestation may be that there

is so much information to take in, we won't know where to start.

 

The Chiron-Mercury opposition presents

opportunities to become more aware of any underlying lack of confidence

in our ideas and in our ability to communicate them effectively -- and

offers the potential for healing those wounds through holding greater

compassion for our (and others') humanness.

 

The Neptune-Mercury opposition creates

a bit of a fog around our thinking, and encourages us to trust our

intuition over logic -- because we really won't have access to linear

thinking anyway. This is the aspect that in particular makes this a

good time to ponder and take note of possibilities, but perhaps not to

make concrete plans or decisions until we can see the road more clearly.

 

And, the Uranus-Mercury quincunx

indicates that there's an attitude adjustment needed at the same. No

doubt we'll need to let go of our ego's attachment to being right or

being smart -- or even being lucid.

 

Venus is also on stage

this week, stepping into the spotlight from time to time. The week

begins with some softening aspects from Chiron and Neptune, opening the

door to greater compassion and healing in our relationships.

 

But if we use Monday's energies

for reconciliation, we must be sure that we are acting from our truth

-- because by the time we hit the Uranus-Venus square on Tuesday, we'll

clearly see if we've gone beyond a level of connection we can maintain.

 

 

There's a danger of inconsistency with

this aspect, both from ourselves and others. The key for working with

this energy is being flexible but not gullible, and for allowing others

the same amount of freedom and space that we want for ourselves. The

reverse is also true, that we could benefit from realizing that if

others need their space, it is often a reflection of that same

unacknowledged need within ourselves.

 

The relationship landscape

may shift in even more tangible ways by the weekend. On Friday, Venus

leaves Gemini and enters Cancer. This means that for the next four

weeks, we'll be working with the themes of vulnerability and trust in

our relationships.

 

On Saturday, an opposition between

Venus and Pluto is likely to bring those issues of trust more fully

into our awareness. Venus in Cancer is most comfortable with familiar

faces and surroundings, and wants above all to feel safe in her

relationships. Pluto in Capricorn is making it clear which structures

are sound and which are not -- and in opposition to Venus, will be

focusing part of his laser vision on our friendships and partnerships.

 

In a broader sense, Venus is the

representative of all heart chakra themes -- those areas of our lives

to which we look for love, warmth and support, as well as those that

symbolize what we truly value. As Pluto opposes Venus next Saturday,

we'll come face-to-face with the validity of some of the forms we've

created to support us, and those forms which we have given a place of

honor in our lives. Thankfully, Pluto can supply the strength and

courage to face these truths honestly, an essential step in our forward

journey.

 

One final note

about Mercury for the week: The Messenger planet moves into Virgo late

Sunday, which should help us feel a bit more lucid than we felt in the

first part of the week.

 

Virgo is the sign of discrimination

and analysis, and being an earth sign, can help us feel more grounded

in our thinking. Mercury's journey through this sign gives us about

three weeks to focus on what is and isn't working for us, and what

concrete steps we need to take if we want to improve our situation.

 

Next week -- the Third Eclipse!

 

Blessings,

 

Pam , "cargoyle" <cargoyle wrote:>> okay, I'm not really sure how to explain this but I've been having trouble interpreting things. here goes, the first thing I can remember in my life was talking with what I can only assume is my kundalini energies wherein I was given visions of what I should do with my life. It has really guided me to be the person I have become. but recently everything is messing up, from bad apartments to bills going unpaid. I'm really struggling in a period of my life where I felt I would be able to soar. I have tried looking inside for answers, but I keep getting random replies. everything from give away all your possesions and walk to new orleans, to why don't you give up on your dreams and get a job as a banker in switzerland. > > it's just hard for me to trust my energy when it is making these insane requests, meanwhile I have a large amount of free time wherein I want to be writing stories and making short films, building up a body of work. but instead I have been experiencing a loss of creativity when I try to work, with an abundance of creativity when I can't. once I even had to stop driving because the ideas came so fast. mostly I just sit and watch television, not having the $$$ to go anywhere my mind thinks that answers are to be found in what I'm watching. > > I'm really trying to be vigilant with the safeties, many of them I have been practicing for a while, whereas some of them are new additions to my life. I really want to sort everything out, but a year ago I left my dream job in London at my energies request because I felt it had something great in store for me. only to find that upon return I am stuck in pittsburgh with no job, no money. and too much experience to get most normal jobs, with too little exp to get the job I want.> > I just feel stuck. and I don't know what to do. am I supposed to be learning something? have I missed it somehow? I'm really trying but everything seems to be going wrong. I really don't want to have to do anything crazy, and I really don't want a job in banking(even though living in switzerland would be cool). not sure if any of you have ever felt the same.> > carl>