Depersonalization

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....once again...

 

Something becomes a " disorder " when it isn't understood and fear is

allowed into the equation. We respond to the unusual by trying to fit

it into specific references and if the references are not easily

attained and something as personal as the self is involved and out of

our " control " then we become afraid and it becomes an illness or disorder.

 

Kundalini can be like this.

 

It is unusual and fits no common reference

model. It usurps conscious control away from a person for a time and

it isn't recognized by our beloved science. So it becomes a " spiritual

emergency " or " Kundalini Syndrome " whether it fits the understood

version of the syndrome or not.

 

We do not understand the mechanisms of consciousness. We are not able

to label and find continuity with a non linear sequence of events and

so it causes us fear. When fear and all of its effects upon the body

and mind are mixed with the qualities of something like Kundalini then

the amplification can be quite strong.

 

Mere meditation can bring on altered states. Depersonalization is also

known as ego subduction or losing the ego. In one instance a person

seeking the Kundalini can seek this and knowing this is the goal when

they experience it they can assimilate it without to much hardship or

fear. In another case if a person isn't seeking this and it occurs

they can go straight into fear and that can be amplified and now it

has become a disease or disorder.

 

We as five sense beings do not understand very much at all about what

lies beyond the five sense ego controlled reality that we live in. So

anything outside of those parameters is difficult to understand and

assimilate. Nothing is wrong and much can be healthy but without the

context of our five sense physical reality there will most often be fear.

 

We are more than our physical bodies. Out of body experiences prove

this. Have one and you will understand. We are also more than our

egos. With Kundalini and some other states we can have an " Out of Ego

Experience " an OOEE so to say. - lol. When this occurs we are

traveling into the areas that are not familiar and yet they are only

unfamiliar to the ego. Think about it. What's left if there is no ego?

 

Who are you if you are not you? What are you? I have felt these

questions and the answers that have come to me are that we are that

which has chosen to incarnate. The ego isn't always keeping up in the

conditioning's as a physical body may do. For instance people will do

physical yoga far more than emotional yoga. They can become this great

yogi person and still have emotional outbursts. Like a grown man

wearing emotional diapers. This is actually quite common in the

western worlds.

 

If we practice in a balanced format we can move away from some of

these imbalances. When we condition towards that which " isn't " from a

place of that which " is " we need to understand in small increments

exactly what that feels like. The person isn't typically thrown into

it with out knowing how to swim. Rather they are given little glimpses

of it and being allowed to adjust and seek information. This is good

but the balancing must still continue.

 

Going out of duality or out of the ego requires that we become aware

of ourselves as more than a singularity of consciousness. More than a

duality inside of a singularity. I'm losing you here?

 

When we come into areas of expression that are completely different

than what we are used to. We can simply allow that reality and its

effects upon us to be the motus operndai of that place. If this means

that you are know longer you as you know it in this reality then there

it is. You are no longer you and yet you are still you in this

reality. Like the OBE you are still connected to this reality due to

the physical context of where your consciousness is living. Your

silver consciousness chord so to say.

 

So when you are out there in " no ego land " you will still come back to

the ego expressing person you are used to being but hopefully with

more of a balanced format as you now understand that you are more than

the ego expression you have come to know.

 

Depersonalization is merely coming into contact with these states. If

you do it on purpose its a good thing. If you come there without

knowledge or intent it can become the dreaded syndrome or condition or

disease. Anything we do outside of ego control can have some ego

discomfort attached to it. Ego always wants control over any experience.

 

Kundalini will take a person into these areas and beyond so heads up

and fasten your seat belts. Keep your hands and arms inside the

vehicle and don't feed the wildlife. It's a new and strange land for

your ego consciousness. It is a well known land for the rest of you. -

Blessings all - chrism