hell , It's a funny old place..

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This afternoon i had one of those Shakti sleeps, the ones i get when i avoid

meditation lol. One of Those sleeps when she suddenly shuts you down whether you

like it or not types of sleep. while there I as usual found myself in the

underworld, it's easy to recognise it as things look like our reality but the

lightings not quite right , things generally are not quite right, you just know

it.

 

This time the form that always tries to grab my attention was a little boy, " it "

takes various forms every time sometimes it's a family member,

or anything just to provoke me. It's desire is to get me to go deeper and deeper

, to follow it sometimes i do and sometimes i ignore it.

 

anyway today after my normal hell visit, i remember something that happened in

the past. Once i got stuck in hell for 80 years, in one room, i learned

contentment there, i learned to be fullfilled there,

in that room for 80 years i learned not to need something from over there, or

out there.I know that getting stuck there was of my own choosing.I wanted it.

 

How did it end? One day an energy blew in and pulled me back to this

reality , we spent some time together, she convinced me i belonged here.

 

Two weeks later I was sleeping on the sofa Alone, and the same energy flew in my

window, then the energy flew into my womb, i knew i was pregnant ,pregnant with

the energy that took me from hell.

 

I was 26 at the time and the hell event left me with a streak of grey

hair at the front, just incase i tried to convince myself it did'nt happen ,or

i'd imagined it all lol.

 

When she was born , I almost died as they couldn't stop me bleeding,i was in

intensive care, lost most of my own blood, was wrapped in tin foil and having my

blood replaced when my baby sends me a telepathic message that she wants to be

fed, and that i was to get up and get her,

because she missed me and was alone.I was in a mess but i stood up then fainted

in a heap on the floor.

 

The nurses got me back in bed , they thought they better give me my baby and we

snuggled there all night under out tinfoil blankie of bliss.

 

So hell's not something we can't do ,it's a place where we can find some needed

balance.

 

purple.