Voice-Symphony Chakra 5

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Dear All:

I haven't had the chance to read through all the posts, thank you everyone so

dearly. For the past few days I've been asking myself how do I use my shields,

how do I protect myself and discern when there are pressing " visitors " who don't

want to take no for an answer. I have a tendency to be an open funnel. Somewhere

along the way something tampered with my on/off switch and I'm having to rewrite

the instruction manual. It's a difficult balance, because when open, much

manifests very quickly. All in a few short days the following has occurred… in

my inbox was sitting an email from a person who had violated me emotionally

s & xually . It had been a tantric type of relationship years ago. It's been a

long while since I had run into this person, and the last time was in a public

setting when I had found my voice and said, it's not ok with what happened.

Then I received word that a situation from last year is going to be

investigated. It was a situation in which I seriously could not decipher between

myself and this person's on-goings. I have to say it was one of the most awful

and painful experiences of my life, not knowing if someone was being harmed or

not etc., and what was real/fabricated, mine or another's and how on earth to

hold and/or dissipate its intensity. And there are a few more happenings … but

last but not least…I fell in love. I fell head over heels or should I say heals,

flip floppy in love in the matter of seconds, with a single touch, caress and

stroke of my hand. Indeed, indeed…not with a gal or fellow, but with a cello. I

had played electric base for a very short while-garage band type of gigs and

loved the thump and essential heart beat (as I do with the drum)…but the cello,

oh my… it sings and cries, and takes me into the most unbelievable dreamscapes,

weaving the most beautiful or heartache of stories. It's like how the land

speaks to me; it's the words I can never articulate; It is the sound of colour

and like the air which dances within the vibration of the the dragonflies wings.

I merge right into and ride along every vibration(but for you my dear

friends…here is a complimentary set of earplugs until my squawks, coos and

chirps can become a song. I'm certain your preferance would be the buzz of the

bees and grinding metalatic sounds.) I think this is what is referred to as " the

fire " and my modern day bow. I look forward to lessons and learning technique,

and the hopeful remembering and opportunity to sit stage left and express in

this way again...symphony Chakra 5.

 

Love, peace and harmony:

Danielle