once again, beginner's blues

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Hi all,

I have had computer problems this week, so hard to post. I also need a swift

kick in the derriere. I have been lax at doing my safeties and the script that

Kind set out for me. I seem to talk myself out of it. (though I did scold

myself and did them today) Why do I do that, and how do I get over it? I can't

seem to make myself, or at least I tell myself that, just for today, I'll not do

it. Of course, everyday is " just for today " . And then the self deprecation

starts once again, cause I am mad at myself for not doing it. It is a cycle

that I can't seem to break. Does anyone have any suggestions for me?

I would love to take part in the diamond incursion, but I don't think I

understand enough what it is all about, and maybe I am too much of a baby

beginner to benefit.

You all seem so wise about this stuff. I can't wait till this afternoon when I

get home to read your responses.

Sus ideas, pensamientos? Mil gracias.

Shaun